"Girl, can you come with me?" I was currently at banahaw with Niña. Early in the mornig she calls me because she said that she needs me.
I frown at her. I know this kind of tone. Phammy used this a lot. "Asking for a favor?" I raise a brow.
Niña's silly smile begin to shine. "Well, I need you to cover up for me."
I knew it! This is what happened the last time. When they first meet, it was me who cover for them. I have to take a picture in her phone and put it in my day so her mother can see that ae are actually together. Same technic as Phammy.
I frown at her. "Again? Ugh! Why does it always have to be me?! Hello?! Single friend here!" I wave my hand at her. She just smile at me.
"Come on. But actually this time you'll be with me. Come with me! It will be fun!" She excitedly wave my arms. I look at her with my bored look.
"Girl, It's too far and you know I have a limited time. You think Mama will let me go there? It's in the city and we are in province!"
She pout. "Come on! I thought you will be with me when I need to meet him? You said it yourself. You said that you will protect me. Hmp! What if something bad happen to me? Sige ka! Ikaw din!"
Unbelievable! She's messing with my mind. I can't help but to sigh. "Fine. You won. I will come with you."
She dance her feet with joy. I just shake my head. How can she do this to me? For real?!
My phone beep on top of the table. I frown when I saw naeun's message.
I look at Niña. She's lives around the corner so I know I can leave her. "I can't go with you in your house. An old acquaintance need me right now so I gotta go."
Niña nod her head as I kiss her goodbye. I was walking fast while looking for a taxi. I need to see this korean girl. She never texted me unless she really need me.
"Maybe I'm too kind to them. To the point that I let them hurt me all the time..." Naeun whisper.
I was facing her back. I look around to appreciate the ocean.
All I can hear is her mumbling sobs featuring the sound of the water slapping the shore.
"You know, It's okay to cry. Let it all out." She look at me with a sad look. "I give him everything. But then in the end he still choose to leave me. But you know what hurt the most? While we are still together he's already dating his new girl."
Her tears starts to flaw endlessly as I patted hee back. I can't say anything right now. I just want her to feel that someone is here ready to listen to her broken tears.
"Let your tears keep on flawing until it won't flow on it's own. If you don't let it all go then you will feel too heavy." I silently said.
Naeun frown. "Are you telling me to be a cry baby? In front of you? You know that this is the only time that I contacted you after a long time. Who would have thought that you will be here for me... thank you."
I can't help but to chuckle. "I'm not. I just want you to cry so the pain will be lessen. And you don't have to keep everything to yourself. A listener also needs someone who will listen to him or her." Trust me, I know that feeling.
She smile sadly at me. "Please don't tell me that you already felt what I'm feeling right now?"
I smirk. "Hmm? Guess what? Hahaha. It's a recent-- No, It's been months since the break up. Bit I'm still stuck on him. Maybe because I keep on putting my imagination in the timeline where we are still talking?" I put my chin on my knees.
She look at me with her puffy eyes. "How come you look fine? Or maybe you are not and just trying to look fine. A two face bitch."
Naeun look at the water. "I wish ocean can write my story. How I get involved with this shits and how I am gonna manage to get out the heart ache that he give."
I stare at the ocean blankly. "Hmmm, Your story will be Just another piece of heartache. Don't worry. You have your own story to tell... right now you have to be strong."
We stare at each other's eyes. I smile at her. "Your story is about to start. So you have to be strong to have a good ending. Write yout own faith and be strong..."
Naeun laugh. "Should I use the top one dating app called Mystic owl? Maybe I will find the right man there."
I smirk at her. "Are you that thirsty to have another man around you?" It is supposed to be a joke but he shrug making me laugh.
"Nah, I just want to mess around for a while. I'm still wondering why he lied. I'm wondering why boys lie just to have their wants."
I bite my lip. "It's either he still need you or he wants you to be part of his trophy."
Instead of saying another words, I look at her and smile. "You know what song came into my mind when I first saw you?" Naeun shake her head with a questioning look.
"If I were a boy this is how my feelings for you...
I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feeling like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place
It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
You make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go~"
She laugh and I smile. "For real?!" I nod. "Yeah, I just need to be a man in my next life and I will find you so I can have you for the rest of my life."
Naeun smile at me. "Remember, I real man won't let her girl down."
While I was on my way home, A song from the taxi makes me sentimental.
"I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me~"
Yeah... I thought it's a cool off. A break from each other. But no other woman or man... but I was completely wrong.
"Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over~"
To think of it, I'm still hurting every time I try searching his name.
"I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing I wanna get it right
No comparing
Second guessing
No, not this time~"
A lone tears escape my eye while I'm starring at the city light. The traffic is making me feel the feelings that I hide in my pandora box.
"Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up
Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers~"