"Hey, bitch wanna eat some spicy noodles?" My cousin me. I'm not in the mood. I just found out that The man that i trust is lying to me.
"Hmm, leave me alone. I want to have time for myself." I said making her shrug before leaving my room.
I shake my head. I think I'm one of the victims of the cruelty of love. And I hope my heart will move on from the pain that a man caused.
"A dust free bookcase could hide a lot of lies"
It's already midnight but here I am! Still wide a wake with a messy thought. I sigh and decided to clean my room. Even ny room is a freaking mess! I was in the middle of cleaning my book shelves when I accidentally pulled a book. I got emotionally when I read the title. With a three words that was written in the hard bound book all the memories came like a storm. Putting me in a messier situation.
CHAPTER ONE
"I love you"
I happly read my Bestfriend message. Te amo. Two words but make my heart flatter. I smile and reply to his message. Taena mo din. I laugh because of my own reply. "Look who's happy." I stop smiling when I saw my cousins looking at me with their weird face.
"What? I received a text from a friend." They Just laughed and give me another shot of a liquor. "Are you seeing someone?" My cousin Jakie ask while eating a junk food. I shook my head. It's not like I'm denying what's between me and Luigi. It's just that we want to keep it private. Beside We still don't know what going on between us. It's like we are friend but we always flirt with each other saying sweet words that a Bestfriends wouldn't say.
I saw my phone light up so I pick it up. Its a message from Luigi. Let's meet later. Same place.
We're not living in the same Subdivision but it's just a walking distance Subdivision. So it never bothered me anyway.
I blush when I saw Luigi walking. He smile at me. "What do you want to eat?" I actually have something in my mind but I act like Im thinking. "Hmmmm?" I look at him before answering. "I want to eat ramen." I pout thinking about my cravings this past few days. Maybe because I'm close in having my menstruation. He just shrug before walking. "Then let's it it!" I excitedly walked beside him. While walking, We past with some of his friends. They gave him a teasing smile. "Oh! It's Luigi! Looks like your gonna have a date with this cute girl." His friends laugh while I just pout. Everyone knows that we're together. I wish we are.
While we're waiting with our oders. I gather all my courage and ask him. "Luigi." He look at me with a questioning look. I gulped before speaking. "What-- I mean what's this between us?" I nervously ask. "I--i I mean our relationship? Are we only a friends or?" I hesitate before continuing. "--- Or We have a mutual Understanding?" Fudge! I finally ask him! He smiled at me before tucking a hair in ny ear. I blush and look away. "What do you think?" And then he laugh. I smiled because I felt a butterfly in my stomach.
"FROM A BUTTERFLY IN MY STOMACH TO A SUDDEN STAB IN MY CHEST"
That day. We never talked again. Im used to it. Because if I don't do the first move then He won't talk to me. So days past turn into weeks then weeks turn ito months.
I look down as i felt my head spinning. Shiz! I drunk a lot. Fudge! I miss him so freking bad! I open my messenger and messenger my Bestfriend.
Te amo beshie! Te amo. I reaally freakin miss him. Thanks to this freaking liquor I have the gut to message him. Minutes later he called. I immediately answered it. "What was that?" I miss this voice. "I--huckk!--freaking missh you" i pout because of irritation with this freaking hiccups. I heard him laugh. "Te amo Jane. Te amo..."
When afternoon came. I decided to go out and find Luigi. I need to talk to him! I stop walking when I saw Him happily walking with a girl in his arms. I've seen that girl. In Luigi's My day. I was lost in words while watching him sweetly talking to the girl. They're both have a smile in their face. They look good together... i never see him so happy. Those chinito eyes that I loved was gone whenever he smiled with what the girl saying. I wish I was her. I wish I was angelica.
I smirk. Anjelica have a cute wavy hair with a bangs and with a short height that matches my Bestfriend's height.  She's so bright! I put my left hand in my chest when I feel ang pang of hurt. I remembered the day that he confessed his feelings. It was raining. And just like the rain, my tears kept on pouring down my face.
"You can tell me that their is someone who makes you happy more than I do. I will accept the fact. But why does it hurst like hell?' I silently comfort myself while still looking at them.
From a butterfly in my stomach to a sudden stab on my chest.