"I think last night I'm dreaming but it feels so real."
Karyll frown. What? What do you mean by that? Care to share?" She raise a brow.
I look at her. "I think it's a dream. Because there is no cupid in real life and Ansherina is not my bestfriend and I don't know who the hell is Bam bam."
Karyll laugh. "You are dreaming. Stop thinking too much and stop thinking about Luigi."
I frown at her. "Girl, I'm not!" I'm really not. While we are walking back in our subdivision, I thought came into my mind.
"I'm sure this time. I will not eat the words that I said." And those words are...
I will never gonna go back to my ex. I know ny my worth. And maybe we are not meant for each other.
When I was finally home. I laid in my bed and while listening to a music.
I'm just thinking before giving him my final answer
"Called you on the phone today
Just to ask you how you were
All I did was speak normally
Somehow I still struck a nerve~"
I give him everything. That's one of the thing that I am proud. Because I know that I have done enough.
He just doesn't know how to be contented.
"You got me fucked up in the head, boy
Never doubted myself so much
Like, am I pretty? Am I fun, boy?
I hate that I give you power over that kind of stuff~"
I smile and sing a long to the music. "Cause it's always one step forward and three steps back
I'm the love of your life until I make you mad
It's always one step forward and three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand
No, I don't understand~"
We are already like that. "And maybe in some masochistic way
I kinda find it all exciting
Like, which lover will I get today?
Will you walk me to the door or send me home cryin'?~"
This is base on my experience. Why do boys lie to their girl? It's either two thing.
They have someone new or they don't want to hurt their girl with the harsh truth.
"It's one step forward and three steps back
I'm the love of your life until I make you mad
It's always one step forward and three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me? Boy, I don't understand~"
For girls, We should never blame the girl for being the other girl. We should blame the boy. Because it's his fault.
"No, it's back and forth, did I say something wrong?
It's back and forth, goin' over everything I said
It's back and forth, did I do something wrong?
It's back and forth, maybe this is all your fault~"
I smile. I'm not gonna give him a secons chance. As I close my eyes. A scenario in my mind appear in my eyes...
I was looking at a girl who look exactly like me. A more mature one.
When she turn her around, A frown came into her face. "Who are you?" She ask.
I smile brightly. "Hi! I'm Ocean." She look at me weirdly. "Are we related to each other?" She raise a brow.
I pout. "Hmm, I think so?" I look at her and smile.
Midnight glare at me. "What do you want?" She ask fiercely.
I laugh and raise both of my hand as If I'm surrendering. "Chill. I'm a friend."
I flick my hand in front of her face. "You will be the main warrior in a war. And you will be the one who will guide everyone. You will be with every story that will be told."
Midnight stare at me with a dead look. I smile at her. "I'm sorry if you need to go through the same things that Happened to me. You will be my mirror. And you will be the one who will show the world what really happened in my life. You will make all the story clear and why you are in everu girls's life."
I smile at her for one last time. This is how her story will begin.
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"Maybe he really just wait for me to get tired of understanding him." I still remember the night when I saw him with someone else. Someone whose not me."
I came back in the Reality when I felt a slight pain in my back. I look back to see who among my friends throw the book. I met four pairs of glaring eyes. And those eyes belong to my bestfriends.
"What?! Are you thinking of that jerk again?!" Skye ask with her annoyed tone.
The sky is already dark and all of our employees are gone. We decided to stay for a little while for us to be able to have some rest. We've met a lot of clients today and it's totally exhausted.
I just shrug before making a cup of Cappuccino.
"Mourge what did you do that day? I mean when you saw him with the slut?" Reign ask calmly.
All of them are waiting for my answer. Oh yeah. In fact I never told them or anyone what happened that night. I just don't want them to know what kind of craziness I've done.
I laugh before walking out of the counter. As I put down my cup in the table. At started telling them the truth.
"I beg him." I said with a laugh.
I saw how Zenchie gasped. Can't blame them, they know that I will never beg someone.
"I beg him to choose me. I beg him to stay with me." I look like a mad woman as I laugh again. With my laughter filling the silent room, my tears began to fall like a tear drops.
"I look like a fool asking for him to choose me. To be with me. Hahahaha!" What the heck! The pain is still there but the person who made me feel this way is already gone.
Maybe because he's my first boyfriend?
"We have told you a countless time to stop but you never listen to us. That's why don't blame me us if you will heard us saying 'I told you so did you listen?' Yeah. Listening isn't part of your vocabulary." I look at Kaye while sipping on my Cappuccino.
"If I will be a fairy I think I'm tinkerbell." I smile when Skye started to whine.
"Why?! Go on! Enlightenment me with your answer Mourge!" Skye ask with her arrogant voice.
I just shrug. "Because tinkerbell stay with Peter until he found his Wendy. And me?" I laugh again. "Like Tinkerbell, I stay with him till his own Wendy came. In the end? I stay by his side even though I love him."
Skye rolled her eyes and closw the book that she's been reading for a while.
"Just admit it that you're just a fragile plainwood! Marupok!" I just laughed at her comment.
"Aren't you gonna go home? It's already pass evening!" It's almost midnight but they are still here.
"Do you need some help? You keep on making tones of cake every night! Gosh! Have some rest!" Irritation is visible in Reign's face. I just shake my head before going inside the counter.
"Shoo! Go home. I need to keep myself busy. Beside if I go home with all of you I'll just lay down in my bed and still up until morning. Overthinking makes me up all night so let me spend my time making something."
It's better to use my time baking. I look at them
again. Kaye is the first one to stand up and she even drag them.
"Let's just leave her alone. She'll go home eventually." I just smile at her. The others doesn't want to leave me alone but they don't have any choice.
I just followed them so I can close the door.
"Go home if you want to rest okay?" I just nod at Kaye before bidding our goodbyes.
When they finally left the cafè I immediately fix fhe Ingredients that I will be needing.
If I didn't do anything my brain might explode. I decided to make a red velvet cake that is one of our famous cake.
It's a pink raspberry cake. Mostly this is what most of the couples brought in our cafè whenever they want to suprise their partners.
I also made some carrot cake and one upside down cake. It took me almost four in the morning and then Crumps attacked me that is why I decided to take some rest in the office.
As I close my eyes, I saw all the scenarios that i don't want to remember.
"Hey babe where are you?" That was my last chat with my boyfriend. Maybe he's playing mobile games again?
I can feel boredroom is eating me that is why I decided to take some walk.
I was in the middle of walking when I saw a familiar body figure.
I stopped walking and just watched them laughing with each other.
'Maybe sweet words?' I guess so... This is the first time I saw him smile like that. My favorite eyes that was almost gone whenever he smile...
I smirk. 'A girl with a straight hair and a small body figure.' It's a way more different than my fatty body.
I remembered the day that he confessed his feelings. It was raining. And just like the rain, my tears kept on pouring down on my face.
"You should have told me that you're already into someone... I'll accept it. But why does it hurts like hell?" I silently ask myself.
How can this happen? From a butterfly in my stomach to a sudden stab on my chest. I feel it right now...
I open my eyes when I heard the door being open by someone. I get up from laying to see who among the employees got in here. It is too early for them to work.
I stopped on my track when I saw Kaye trying her best to slowly close the door.
I bite my lips to prevent myself from laughing because of how she look right now.
She really doesn’t want to wake me up.
“Thank you for waking me up from a bad nightmare.” Kaye jump while holding her chest.
“You shiiizy!” I just laugh before walking towards the counter. Better make her something to drink.
“Bish! It is still early in the morning. Why are you here?” I ask her while preparing the ingredients.
For morning drink of Kaye Chi I’ll be needing a one cup of unsweetened cocoa powder, one cup of sugar, one fourth cup of Vanilla, six cups of milk (I should use the scalded one), a pinch of salt and Ta-dah!
"Can't stop myself from thinking about you. Yoh never tell us what happened that day. I respect your decision that you don't want us to know but... I'm worried. We are worried about you." Kaye say. They are really worried about me huh?
I just smile at her before putting the Morning bitter chocolate. Chour! It's just a mocha hot chocolate.
"Of courseee! I'm fine. You know me girl!" I energetically say before laughing when I sa how she raise her brow.
"B!tch! You've been like that for a months now. You always make yourself busy and you never rest." Yup. She's right. I nodded because I'm guilty.
Kaye seriously stare at me. "Confess to me. This past few months that you didn't come home, are you into drugs?"
I laugh so hard because of her question. "I may look like a lunatic woman but trust me, I'm not into drugs!"
Kaye sign before sipping. "Anyways, stop making yourself busy. Remember Mr. And Mrs. Karanveer? Their son will be her within this month."
Oh yeah? I never seen him before but he is the one whose making the other pastries in our cafè. Uh, I'm just really an advertisement who experiment things here in our cafè. I quit baking for the cafè since I have been so busy before the breakup. School stuffs.
But now I'm broke because of that stupid man!
But that man, Mr. and Mrs. Karanveer's son is the one who baked for our cafè. Our loyal customers keep on coming back for his baked cakes.
 "ah~ should We make a welcome party for him?" We have those kinds of parties for our employees. I just never attended those parties because I prefer sleeping.
"We always do that. It's just you who never attend any of those parties." I nodded at what Kaye said.
"I preferred slacking off." I shrug before standing up.
"Can you get some sleep? You look like a mess! You have bags under your eyes and your hair looks like a bird nest. You look like someone who didn't take a shower for a year!" She annoyingly said.
 I frown when I remember something. Fuck him! When we broke up I forgot to fix myself. I stayed inside our Apartment and I never leave unless I need to go to school.
That's the impact of that Frankenstein! I can't even remember when was the last time I visited the salon.
I even forgot to take care of myself because of him. I look at my reflection in the full body length mirror in the office.
I can't see my old self anymore. All I can see is a wasted girl who have an issue with herself.
When we broke up, I've been into fights, car racing, bar... and always getting wasted for no reason. Should I use drugs too? Chour. Not gonna go that far.
If I ever do that, before getting a plastic of drugs I will have a smack in my head. Not one but four smacks!
I fix the sofa bed that I'll be using again. Fuck it! I have to make sure that I won't dream about that stupid man! I'll kill him this time!
Author's note:
Thank you for supporting my story "Why do boys lie" To make it clear. This book is basically the reason why we have the other story under OCEAN_TEN. and this book is also fictional. Once again. Thank you for the support!!
The fragile heatt but strong girls will come back for another story!!!! And i hope i will still have everyone's support! Thank you!!
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
The real story is about to begin. And the real story is about Midnight Mourge. For all the unanswered questions in this book, It will be all clear in Midnigh Mourge's story. What happened and why it ended the boon this way. And I hope I can open a new book with all the supporters that I have. I really appreciate it. Thank you!! There is more to a story. And for all the woman out there who wants their exes back... I just want to say that someone out there is waiting for you. Don't rush love. Because love is patient. It can wait. We better chase our dreams. Not boys. Lol.
I hope everyone learn a lesson in this messy and full of mystery book. Thank you again for supporting my story!