CHAPTER 16
"Miss Collins" I stopped mid working when I heard a familiar voice. I looked up to see Mrs. Martin. I even looked at the back to confirm if I was really the person she's talking to. 
"Can we talk?" She gave a small smile for the first time. 
I subconsciously followed her until the hospital canteen. She gestured me to sit as she grab two drinks from the vending machine nearbly. 
I waited for her until she settled. She heave a deep sigh "I have a favor for you"
My brows creased. That sounds familiar. Yeah right, I also heard it from her son.
"Can I ask what is it?" I confusingly asked. 
"Will you accept it?" 
"It depends" I put on a small nervous smile. 
"Well..." She sighed again "Can I have a special request for you to nurse my son?"
My lips slightly opened, surprised to her favor. 
"Sorry ma'am? Me? But I'm not a nurse here" 
"I already talk to your attending doctor. This will help my son" 
The crease on my forehead deepens "What help exactly?" I faked a laugh "I don't really get it. Why me? Sorry to offend you ma'am, it's not like it's a hard favor but why me?"
It took her a moment staring to her canned drink "I have a reason. But I can't tell you this. It's just ..." She stopped as her voiced stuttered "... I got lots of mistakes towards my son. I'm part of the reason why he's here right now. And I want to correct that. I want to think of what's good for him."
She keeps talking about how she regrets not being a mom to her son. And I keep listening. 
"And the only person who can only help me is you. I know it puzzles you right now but I will tell you soon. Just take my favor and I'll be forever grateful to you" 
"Do I really have a choice ma'am? Who am I to decline your favor. You own this hospital and I've been dreaming to work or even train here and you gave me an opportunity."
She gave me a small smile and I also did.
"I will try to help ma'am, as far as I can but I will stop if I can't do it anymore. Is it okay?" I ended. She just nodded, eyes brimming of tears. 
***
"You took the favor" Miss Gomez stated staring at me behind her table. I nodded. 
She stood up and walked towards me "His case is very different from most common PSTD you learnt in school." She handed me the black envelope. I opened it revealed Theo's past treatment and some summaries of their treatment, "He has the complex PSTD, it's the worst pstd case. And treatment includes Gestalt technique. You heard about it right?"
I nodded "It's the chair work that helps therapist access clients modes of here and now" I answered. 
"He gains traumas after traumas. It was bareable until it got worst. He don't like rains, he usually have panic attacks when it rains. Be mindful of that" She continued.
"Ahm Doc" I stated not intentional cutting her off "Can I ask what situation leads him to this? I'm required to be aware right? As I will nurse him" 
She nodded "Childhood traumas, depression and it worst when someone died" Doc's voice faded as she stated the two words.
I looked at her waiting "Someone he treasures the most died..." she continued "... of suicide" 
And that shook me. I can't imagine his experiences. He may be happy on the outside, he maybe successful with his career but inside he's hurting, he's in pain silently. 
And I'm very thankful I grab the chance to help someone in need. I'm grateful I get to experience what being someone to lean on feels. 
"I'm rooting for you Collins. Help me on this" Miss Gomez stated. And I nodded full of determination. 
***
I waited. I'm here inside of Theo's room, he's currently having his chair method treatment. As much as I want to witness it, it's not possible so I'm here waiting to nurse him. 
I hopped on my feet when the door suddenly opened, revealing Theo on his casual clothes and Miss Gomez behind him. 
He looked surprise seeing me inside, I gave him a small smile gesturing the bed to let him sit and he did. 
"Theo, she's Miss Collin and she will help you with anything" Miss Gomez introduces. 
Theo's glare almost kills Miss Gomez, it's like a dagger that will stab you.
"Is this a joke?" He asked voice cold as ice. 
"We already about this Theo. If you want to heal, overcome your fear" Miss Gomez talked in riddles. 
"I'll leave you both. I still got patients to meet. Miss Collin, I trust you on this. Theo please cooperate" Miss Gomez stated before closing the door shut. 
Theo sighed leaning on the wall on his bed, eyes closed. And I just stood here, don't know what to do.
I almost caught a hiccups when Theo suddenly stared at me "Who made you do this?" 
I bit my lips, don't know what to answer. He just sighed when he realized he won't get any answers from me. 
"You can leave, if they asked me if you're doing your job I'll tell them you're doing good"
His remark made me confused. What did he says?
"Sorry?" He just stare at me "I won't leave, this is my job and I'm doing my job right" 
"You're just training, and you're not a nurse to take care of me" He answered rocking his bed as he tried to lie down. 
I was ready to help him but he glared that made me step back to where I was. 
"I already asked you a favor right?" He asked. 
And your mom asked me a favor also. Who am I to accept? Of course the owner of the hospital. I want to tell it to him but I just stay quiet.
"I respect my training here and I respect my superior. As much as I want to accept your favor, I will listen to what I am supposed to do here. They asked me to take care of you, and that's what I'm doing" 
"How are you supposed to help me huh?" He asked, voice evident of madness and strictness.
My brows creased "Of course when you ask for anything, I will help you. If you want food or water. I will bring it to you."
He just shook his head, making me more confused. 
"How will you supposed to help me when you remind me of her?" His voice so low I almost can't hear him. 
His eyes looked into me so full of emotions I can't read. What does it supposed to mean? I'm the reason he won't heal? I don't get it!