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Chapter 44: Broken

Yuna POV
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(Six days later)
09:51 PM
I've been hanging out often with Sunghoon these past few days and I'm telling you it wasn't good for the health of my heart. Why? Because It's so hard for me to make myself look unbothered whenever he get all sweet  it's a nerve wracking but I still managed to deal with it. I've been sending details to his hyungs about him. They're all still in vacation. Haechan on the other hand sometimes calls me at night, just casually asking me if how's my day going and I would just tell him it's good. We also hang out sometimes and I could say we're getting along.
I was alone in my house. Specifically in my room with a laptop infront of me. I was scrolling up and down on the google, trying to look for some fancy dress that would fit me. But it doesn't fit my taste. There's this beautiful violet dress with little pearl beads embedded on the heart shape chest area and at the end of the dress, the outer layer is lace while the rest of  the inner linings are silk. I love the design. But the problem is, it's slightly backless and I'm not the type of a woman who's confident enough to flaunt her back view. I just received another message from my mother today, informing me about the set schedule for the engagement party and I swear I just felt my soul fly out of my room's window.
As I'm scrolling more on the google, the sound of my phone ringing up interrupts me. It was my mother, calling.
Pressing the green button, "Mother."
"Yuna, dear. Have you already found a dress for the event?" She asked and I sigh, massaging my temple. I didn't know finding a better dress just for an engagement party would be this stressing.
"I haven't yet." I tell her.
"Well, I found a dress for you and I thought you would like it. Would you want me to send a picture of it?"
"Sure."
"Okay then. Let me know if you like it." With that, she hang up the call and within ten seconds the picture of the dress pops in my screen. I admit, the dress was quite stunning. It was a violet dress too. It's strapless, but wasn't sexy. The chest exposure is wide enough for me, it doesn't show much skin and good thing is, it isn't backless. It's a long dress that has slit on the lower left side intended for leg exposure and I was speechless for a moment as I stare at that part. Already imagining myself if how would I look in it with one leg exposed. Shit. I mentally cursed.
But at least it's not backless and the slit doesn't go further up near the crotch area. It just reach your lower thigh.
My conscience argues and I shake my head to block her out.
I stare at the dress for another moment as I contemplate.
But this one is better than those dress.
I huff out an air as I finally decided. That's it. You're going to wear this dress. I thought to myself.
Sending a message to my mother,
Me: I'll wear this. Thank you.
Mother: I knew you would pick this one. ;)
Her reply came right away and I just bitterly smile at myself. What am I doing in my life? I exhaled a deep breathe, throwing my body on the mattress as I blankly stare at the ceiling with many thoughts and questions lingering in my head.
Sunghoon still doesn't know that I'm getting married soon.
I then felt a warm liquid coming out from the corner of my eyes. Shit. I'm crying again. I pressed my hands on my face. No. I shouldn't be crying again. I force myself not to cry but it's too late. My tears are streaming out already. I shift to my right side, curving into a ball as I try to hide my sob with my pillow. All these days, I was torn between telling him about it and not. I'm scared. God, I'm so scared to tell him because I don't think I could bear whatever his reaction would be. I hate to admit this to myself but I'm so coward for it.
*Ring.Ring*
My phone is ringing up again and I was guessing it would be Haechan. I reach it without looking and press the green button without reading the name of the caller since my vision was being blurred by my tears.
"Hello." I answered, trying my best not to sound like I'm crying.
"Hey, sorry to disturb you at this hour."
My breathe just stop at my throat. I wiped the excess tears in my eyes as I try to read the caller's ID. It was really him. I took a deep breathe before putting back the phone to my ear. Damn, why does it have to be right now?
"Hey, Hoon. No, you're not." I tell him. "So, what's up?"
"Just wanted to check you up. Are you alright?" He asked and I gulp the sudden lump in my throat. Why is he asking?
"Yeah. Why do you asked?"
"I don't know. I just have this feeling that I should ask you. Are you sure you're alright?" That's the last drop. My hand immediately goes up to my mouth, covering it. I couldn't answer him because I'm crying again. "Yuna, are you there?"
"Yeah." I managed to respond. "I'm..." I paused, having an inner battle in my head. I can't do this anymore. "C-can we meet up? There's something I need to tell you, personally. Please." I blurted out, closing my eyes as I mentally crossed my fingers. Please say yes.
"Okay. Meet you at the XXXX park. There's something I need to tell you too."
"See you there, Hoon. Bye."
Ending the call, I quickly went to my cabinet, pulling out only my long padded jacket and blue scarf before heading outside.
The ride there doesn't take long.
"Kamsahamnida." I thanked the driver as I handed over the cash, stepping out of the cab. The park has a playground section and I choose to sit on the swing as I wait for him. There are only few people at the park sitting far from where I am.
(30 minutes later.)
I hug my padded jacket more closer to body, smoke comes out from my mouth due to the cold everytime I open it. I've been sitting here for thirty minutes and he's still not in sight and I wonder where is he right now. Is there something came up? He would tell me if there is.
Where are you Sunghoon?
I don't think he's in traffic too. Cars are minimum at this hour. "Where are you?" I mumbled, dialing his number but he won't answer it. What's wrong? Did he maybe left it at home. I also texted him, asking his whereabouts but there's no reply from him and that's when I started getting anxious because he would always answer me. But this time he didn't.
Many things have came in mind, questions are scattered all over the areas of my brain and I'm getting more worried for him. Did something happened--no, no, no. Please. Don't think it that way. I shake my head in hope to throw those thoughts away. I don't think I could take it if something...something happens to him on his way here.
I closed my eyes, gulping the sudden lump forming in my throat before standing up from the swing. That's it, I'll check him if he's at home.
I started walking down at the side way of the street as there's no taxi rounding here at this time. Midways of walking, there's a car coming towards my direction and I couldn't describe the other details of it as the headlight is flashing my eyes and I have to narrow it with my hand shielding it so I could take a better look.
Getting a clear view of the driver, my heart drops into coldness, fear and the rage I feel towards him ignites again. The last person I wish to see is now here in front of me. The car stops  and the devil came out of his car. What the hell is he doing here?
"My child, Yuna. Why are you here at this hour?" He asked with a smirk plastered on his face that I badly wanted to punch.
"It's none of your business." I coldly spat, rolling my eyes away from him as I continue walking down and I was being stop with his rough hand on my arm.  "Let go!" I yanked it away but he only gripped my arm tight in a painful way I wasn't expecting. The moment I turn my eyes at him it was the gaze that haunts me in my dream.
Dark, cold, heartless and dangerous. My breathe hitches and I could feel my heart starting to beat in a rapid pace. Coldness pierce through my body and all I could feel was nothing fear. He's evil smirk grew more and it was reminding me about the past.
"Uncle Jun, I said let me go!"
"I'm sick of you being rude to me. Don't you think I didn't felt disappointed during your stay at Gangwon-Do? Five days under the same roof my dear niece and you didn't ever talk to me nor even spare a glance at me! For what?" He spat and his grip on my arm is getting tighter in every words. A whimper escaped my lips at the pain. "Ah, I forgot. I locked you inside that dark storage room in my mansion." He suddenly says, reminding me that nightmare and it hits me like a truck. My tears streams down from my eyes and I shake my head.
"No. No. No! Let me go!" I pushed him away from me and he grabs my other arm while he's laughing in a psychotic way.
"Oh and I also remember you told my brother that I locked you there it so sad because he didn't believe you!" His laugh echoes in the dark place and I glared at him. This man. This why I hate him in the first place because he doesn't treat me well ever since I was just a kid and I don't know why. I don't see him as my uncle. He doesn't like one with me. When any of the family members are around he acts normal. But when it's only the two of us he would act in a suspicious behavior and it scares me. It seems like he has some kind of Dual Identity Syndrome.
Gathering all my strength, I kicked his shin hard, stepping on his foot before kneeing his crotch area and that made him remove his grip on me. A groan of pain escaped from him as his body fell to the ground, holding the area where I just knee him.
"Take that you f*cker!" Not contented on what I did to him, I slapped his face before running to wherever god knows only with my heart frantically beating.
Run. Run as fast as you can.
The only idea in my mind right now.
I finally made to the big street and I hailed a cab immediately with short breathes. I get inside before the car of my uncle gets in sight.
"Where to, Miss?" The driver asked and the only address I have in mind is Sunghoon's place.
Midways of driving, I was still shaking in fear even though I already escaped from uncle Jun. The trauma I had from the past flashed in my head and I tried my best not to cry and have a panic attack inside the cab. The driver gives few glances of worry and sympathy at me through the rear mirror. Probably wondering why I'm shaking and looked terrified.
"Miss, are you alright?"
"I'm fine."
"Is this the right place, Miss?" The driver asked as the car came to stop in front of a house and I looked outside through the window. It's the right address.
"Yes. Thank you." I stepped out of his cab after handing him over the money.
"You're welcome, dear. Please take care of yourself." The driver says and I gave him a small smile. Basing on his look. I think he has the same age as my father. He pull out of the driveway after that. I then turn to the gate of their house and It's pretty obvious someone's at home because the gate is open. So he's at home? I get inside without hesitation and I don't know I suddenly get the feeling like something's odd. Is he not feeling fine? Maybe he's sick that's why he didn't came to the park.
Standing in front of the door, I was just about to ring the door bell but my eyes noticed the door was slight ajar. A frown set on my face as I wonder why would he leave the door open.
Could it be someone have just barged into their house?
No.
My eyes widen in fear with bad scenarios popping in my head. I pushed the door open, not minding to ring the bell. I ran straight to the living room.
"Sungh--"
I stop dead on my track, my voice dying as I was welcome by the sight that I wish to see last. My breathe caught in the middle of my throat. My hands pressed on my mouth in shock as I see them. The man I waited for almost an hour there at the park while I almost freezed on the swing was there at the couch, shirtless with the girl he'll soon going to marry. Park Yeonsa. She's straddling his lap as they kiss while here I am, looking so stupid watching this painful sight in front of my eyes that's now shedding endless warm tears.
Why? Why does it have to be this time? The time when I needed you the most? Of course, what did I expect? I hate myself. I badly hated myself for being stupid. He's the only person who came into my mind back there when I was dying with fear. He's the only one I felt safe the most. He's the only one I thought who protect me from any harm. But no. He's not. I'm so stupid for thinking of those. He's the first one for me, from everything. But I'm not first for him. I will never be. I was worriedly sick for him why he didn't came to me while here he is, having the best time of his life. Good thing I wasn't able to see his face because of Yeonsa's back view. God still save a bit of my heart.
I turn around, sprinting out of the house with blurry vision caused by my tears.
"Yuna!"
I heard him calling my name from behind and I didn't bother to look back. Why would I?
I was glad he's way too far behind me. My eyes recognized a cab and I hailed it and quickly get inside. I told the driver to drive away quickly and he did. I gave my address and he drives according to the direction to my place.
It took twenty minutes before I came back home. I stepped out of the car, about to fish out the key inside my pocket but then someone's appearance stop me. There's a guy standing infront of my gate, wearing a black jacket and a black cap and my heart was about to race again but when he turn around, a wave of relief washed away my fear.
"Haechan?" I called and his eyes landed on me. What is he doing here in front of my house?
"Yuna!" He ran towards me and I was caught off guard at his action. I was being engulfed in a tight hug and my body froze at the contact. "Where were you? I was worried you're not answering my call." He says and I just realized, I dropped my phone at the park when I tried to escape from uncle Jun. He pull away and I was about to look away, remembering that I was crying on the way here but It's too late. His eyes already noticed my swollen eyes and red nose. I think I have dried tears too on my face. "Wait, were you crying?!" His eyes widened as he examines me while here I am, speechless as I just stare at him. "Yuna, what happened? Please tell me." He cupped my face with his hands as he spoke and eyed me worriedly.
This guy. I was out there, waiting for someone that will never come while he's here worrying about me. What am I doing to myself? I'm loving someone who couldn't be mine when there's already someone here waiting for me. I feel so bad. I'm so stupid and I really hate myself for being one.
"Haechan..." His name was the only thing came out from my mouth before I threw myself to him, hugging him tight as I cry in his embrace and I know he's caught off guard for a moment because his body tense before he fully wrapped his arms around me.
Sunghoon's happy with someone. I should live my life too, to the fullest and maybe I'll be more happy with Haechan. Maybe. I thought, pulling away and his hands goes to face again wiping my fresh tears away.
"Shhs. Don't cry, my love. You have me. I'm always here for you. Remember that, okay?" He cupped my face again as he make me look at him in the eyes as he spoke those words I badly wanted to hear from someone right now. I only nodded at him and he surprisingly kissed my forehead but I wasn't in the state to give reaction right now. "I'm here, don't cry. I got you." He pulls me back into his embrace.
"Haechan," I slight pull away, enough to see his face and he looked down at me with pure care sparkling in his eyes. "Can you please stay with me just for a night?" I know it's stupid for me to ask him that but I'm scared and just want someone to stay by my side tonight to make me feel I'm safe. I ignore the heat on my cheeks as I asked him that and he gave me a heart-melting fond smile for the first time.
"Even if you ask me to stay forever at your side, I'll do it willingly."

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