Yuna's POV
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Gladly, the restroom was empty or else I would have empty my bladder on the way. I regret drinking lots of water tonight. Getting out of the cubicle after doing my business inside, I washed my hands on the faucet and wiped it using the handkerchief in my purse that I brought with me. I looked at myself through the mirror. There a girl stood in front of me. Looking so fine without the eyeglass. She looked so brave and confident.
I sadly smile at myself. I almost didn't recognized my new look. Instead of wearing eyeglass, I put lenses. The hair that I always tied up in a ponytail was now freely loose. I never flaunt my skin and now I'm flexing some of it.
You're beautiful
I know, and I'm going to tell you that as long as I can.
Wanna know a secret?
You got me from the very first moment I laid my eyes on you.
Haechan's words resound in my head and I couldn't help not to smile at those. I place a hand on my chest. My heart just fluttered. What's this? Am I starting to like my fiance? I exhaled out deeply. Maybe? I don't know. I'm starting to live a new life and I want to take it all in baby steps. With Haechan, I'll try my best to open up more on him.
Done fixing myself, I stepped out of the restroom. Only to bumped my head on something hard. "Aa" I pressed a hand on head. Shit. Did I just turned in a wrong way or what? I'm pretty sure I didn't. But what did I just bumped into? I open my eyes and that's the moment I finally get to see what it was. A human being. A guy who's its incredible height towers over me and it was no other Sunghoon himself. His shadow covering me whole.
The look on his face was anything but fine. His gaze piercing through me, reminding of the first time we met but I don't want to have it. Mustering all the guts I have. I took a step back to give space between us because I'm literally mere inch away from him.
"Sunghoon." I spoke unbothered and his eyes shakes a bit with that.
"Can we talk?" He asks and I nodded right away. I already expect this to happen and I made sure to act tough for this moment.
"We are."
"I mean a serious talk, Yuna."
My eyes goes down to his hands after he said those in a low tone and they are fisted.
"Sure--hey!" I wasn't able to finish my word when he suddenly grabbed my wrist, pulling me as he aimlessly go somewhere while I tried to pull away from his strong grip. The entire floor was empty because all the workers are up there too, except the first floor at the lobby and the security guard outside the entrance. He dragged me into a random room and when my eyes travel around I then finally recognized it.
What the hell? At my father's conference room? Really? "What's wrong with you?" I turned around, right on time he's locking the door from here inside and I can't lie, I just felt my heart shakes frantically.
This guy even dared to locked us here in my father's place.
"Why didn't you tell me about this?" He turn to face me. Oh you're done with the door, sir? And yeah, great. Responding my question with a question too. Nice conversation.
"I was going to tell you that night but you're busy with someone." I blurted out and his hard stare breaks at that.
"Yuna, about that..." he spoke, reaching out for my hand as he took few steps towards me but I held up a hand, stopping him before he could do so.
"No, no. Don't talk about it."
"Yuna, I'm sorry!" He exclaimed, sound frustrated as he tries to take steps again but I stop him.
"No, just stay there. You don't have to come close to me. You don't have to touch me, Okay?" I almost yelled at him and he looked hurt when I just rejected his touch. He said he wanted to talk and I'm giving that to him right now. No more, no less. He hesitantly dropped his hand down. "Look, I accept your apology for what happened that night. I admit, I was mad because I waited there for nothing. That's why I blocked your number if you're going to ask about that too. I'm not stupid to not understand and know my limits as your friend. I know my place, Hoon. I came to your place that night because I was worriedly sick that you didn't show up. So I decided to check you up because I thought that maybe you're sick. But I proved myself wrong when I saw you with her and I don't want to interrupt so I left to give you guys your privacy." I finished, not without emphasizing the last word to him. I was thankful because I spoke those words with calmness. Not breaking in front of him.
"But Yuna--"
"We're done here, Hoon. I'm done explaining my side. You don't need to explain yours to me. What I see was enough. We're good. We're still friends." I stated, cutting off his words. "Now, let's go. Haechan is waiting for me." I added, walking pass him and before my hand could touch the doorknob I felt his hands on my shoulder, spinning me around in a swift motion and I think I almost got a whiplash. I was being pinned against the door with his hands still on bothside of my shoulder. What the hell?!
"Tell me," my breathe was caught in the middle of my throat when I saw his face only few inches away from mine. "Tell me, Yuna. Was this engagement with that guy the only thing you wanted to tell me that night?" He asked with an undescribable gaze that I couldn't decipher. Why is he asking me this question? Why does he sound jealous? I gulp the sudden lump in my throat, staring straightly through his eyes, trying my best to see a reason why. What are you doing, Sunghoon? What are you expecting?
"Yes." Of course, I wouldn't tell him about my stupid feelings when it's no use anyway. I'm just going to make things hard and awkward for us. I'll just embarrass myself for sure. "Now, let me go." I pressed my hands on his chest in attempt to push him away only to make him grab it and pinned them above my head. Oh shit, what have I done? "Hey! Stop doing this, will you?"
"I don't believe you." He coldly spoke and this made me scowl at him.
"Then it's not my problem anymore."
Then the next thing he did made me flinched as I was startled. He punch the wall beside the door.
"I don't believe you!"
His voice almost boom around the room and that snapped me.
"Then what do you want to hear from me?!" I yelled as I managed to slipped my wrist away from his grip and pushed him away with anger firing up in my heart. "I don't get you, Hoon. I don't understand! I've already explained to you everything. I made it clear." I threw up my hands in the air in frustration. Do I need to do or say something just so he would believe me? "What else do you want to hear from me, huh? I'm trying my best to understand you and save this friendship we have--"
"Well don't save it!" He cut me off and I stare at him in disbelief.
"What?" I breathe out, trying to process his words again in my brain.
He shake his head, "I don't want you to save our friendship anymore." He stated. I swear I felt like my heart have just drop down to my stomach and this made me remember what he said that night.
So what does he mean with that?
"Is this what you wanted to tell me that night? You don't want me in your life anymore?" So he doesn't want this friendship anymore? He had enough of it. An unknown spark appears in his eyes when I muttered those. He's speechless for a few seconds before he shakes his head.
"No. It's--"
"No. No. I get it. I'm just a distraction in your life." I cut him off, yanking his hand away as I stepped back and turn around, leaving. I get it. Yeonsa hates me and I was getting in their relationship because Sunghoon spend his time more with me.
"Let me finish! Why won't you listen to me?!" He grabbed my wrist again as he spun me around to face him.
"Because I'm too hurt!" I yelled "You hurt me enough with or without you knowing and I can't listen to you anymore. My heart is too tired to take everything right now, especially from you." My bag of tears just broke and now it's streaming out of my eyes and damn I hate this but there's nothing I could do because it's already out. I hit his chest multiple times. "You! You, Kim Sunghoon. You're confusing me with your action and right now I don't know why do you sound like you hate my fiance. You act like you're my fucking jealous boyfriend when you already have a fiancee--Oomph!"
I was being shut with his lips pressed on mine for the first in a long time and my eyes shot wide open at what just happened. My mind gone on haze and I couldn't think better. I was shocked. Too shocked that I could only blink on my spot and clutched my hands on his coat tight as he kiss me, igniting my dead feelings for him. He have his arms wrapped around me. One hand at the back of my head while the other one was on my lower back, pressing my body on his warm one.
I finally get back to my sense when he started moving his lips on mine and I swear it almost just made my mind fully blank, the butterflies fly around my stomach and I freaking hate how my body reacts to it, how my body likes it and how it feels so nice to the point that I just badly want to kiss him back. I almost got lost in the maze of this temptation, but the reality we're in hits me like a truck, remembering that we both have someone waiting for us out there.
Haechan!
His name rang inside my head and that's the moment I finally got to muster all the strength I have and pushed him away from me. We're both heaving, breathless from his sudden kiss. Fucking amazing kiss that was. I glared at him and he just stare at me intensely.
"I thought you wouldn't shut up." He rasp out and the next thing I did made his face fall to his left side.
*Slap*
I slapped him. I just slapped the man I love. He touched his cheek that I just slapped, slowly turning his head back at me with hurt written on his face.
You hurt me first.
"I hate you." I sob out, more tears coming out of my eyes. "How dare you do that to me? You can't just kissed me whenever you want!" I yelled at him and he scoffs.
"Don't act like you didn't like it."
I lost words for a second, staring at him in disbelief. He's being a jerk to me again and I felt disappointed.
I frantically shake my head. "Whether I like it or not, it's still wrong. You have to get this in your head, you can't just kissed me like that. You can't just touch me. You can't just look at me like that. You can't just act jealous like I'm yours! You can't just act like you want me!" I almost broke down to the floor. My knees are starting to give up on me and the next thing I heard from him made my world stop.
"What if I want you?"
His voice quivers and the anger in his face was now replaced with sadness and my breathe hitches at that. I was speechless. Feeling so stupid and confused. I couldn't still figure out whatever he's feeling right now aside from being sad. His eyes held so many emotions that I find it difficult to describe. He's cold stare was back to the softest gaze I've ever love. His gaze running all over my face as if he's searching for my eyes.
Do you really mean those words? But want me for what? In what way? is it just because of lust? But I don't want you to just want me in that way. I don't want you to just want me, Sunghoon. I want you to want me like the way I want you. I want you to love me like the way I love you.
My heart still screams for you. But my mind's too afraid to believe you. No. You're just playing with my heart.
I looked away. "You're just playing with my feelings. You're lying." I muttered, voice barely coming out but I know he still heard it. I heard him exhaled out a big breathe. I turn around to leave.
"I do really want you, Yuna!" He repeats and that stop me. I closed my eyes. Maybe in this way, tears would stop from coming out. He sound so vulnerable, bringing a pang of pain in my chest. I felt his warm from behind as he get close to me and I opened my eyes at that. His arms hesitantly wraps around my stomach as he bury his head on the crook of my neck. "I want you, Yuna. God, you don't have any idea how I badly want you." He whispered, voice shaking and just before I could ask if he's crying or not, I felt warm liquids dropping to my shoulder.
"In what way, Sunghoon? Tell me the truth. In what way do you really want me?" I hold onto his arm as I wait for his answer. It's better to get hurt from knowing the truth.
"I want you to be with me, for the rest of my life. In another life and even death. Life after life, Yuna. Words couldn't describe it better...but believe me, I don't think I could make a day without you." He whispered in my ears and his husky voice brought goosebumps all over my skin that almost made me shiver. Ignoring how it affects me, I dared to turn around and face him again.
I reached out to his face, hesitantly and he let me. Lifting up his head as it was hung low and there I saw it. The tears cascading down his face and it would be a lie if I'll say the sight of it didn't caused another pang in my chest. His eyes momentarily met mine and I frowned more.
"Hoon, look at me...please." I call and he slowly did. That's the time I was finally able to see how vulnerable and broken this man in front of me. "Tell me, what am I really to you?" I asked straightforwardly and his gaze runs all over to my face as if memorizing every details of it for many times.
Lifting up his hands, he cupped my face as he look me straight in the eyes with serious yet dreamy way that I only saw for the first in him. "You're the most important woman in my life. My home and...the one I badly fell in love with." He confessed and his last sentence got stuck in brain, resounding in my ears and I stare at him, speechless, almost dumbfounded while he observes my reaction.
I frown. Did he just...
Did I heard that right?
Did he just said--
The one that I badly fell in love with.
His words echoed in my head and I pressed a hand on my lips in shock.
"How...why..." I couldn't speak well. "Why me? I remember you said you already like someone. That's what you told me that night inside the Ferris Wheel--"
"That someone is you." He cut me off and my eyes widen. So, is that why I have the feeling that time?
"But I saw you and Yeonsa that night." I gulp, looking away. I know he knows I was talking about them kissing.
"That's what I wanted to explain but you would always cut my words." He says and that made me looked at him. I was blinded by my anger and I'm too hurt to listen. But now, after his confession...
"What really happened that night?"
He better tell me the truth.
"I was ready to go that time but she just suddenly show up in my house."
"And..."
"She injected something in me and I was caught off guard. That thing she'd injected made me feel numb and weak. That's the moment she started to kiss me, you saw it. I didn't expect she could went too far like that." He explained while I stare at him with mouth agape as I was surprised. I didn't know she could go that far. So it was all misunderstanding. His eyes were pleading at me to believe him and I did. He's sincere and I could feel it, I see it in his eyes too.
"I believe you, Hoon." I tell him and he exhaled out in relief before pulling me in a hug.
"Since when?" I asked, my head still on his chest, ignoring the heat rushing up to cheeks. Damn this blood.
"Huh?"
"Since when did you have your feelings for me?" I pull away, enough to see his face.
"Since we became friends." He tells and my jaw drops at that.
Since what?!
"Ever since those days? Why you didn't tell me?"
He sigh, "I was afraid to break things with us. You value our friendship much and I don't want to ruin just by telling you how much I feel towards you. I don't want you to feel awkward around me after that and you ignoring me was the last thing I want." Why would he think that?
"I wouldn't do that to you, Hoon. We're matured enough to talk about it and I swear I wouldn't take it in that way-- I mean, ignoring you. It's so childish and immature."
"I know but..." He paused, looking away as he contemplating of something and it just made me feel impatient. Now that he finally told me his feelings, I want to know more. I deserve to hear it.
"But what?"
"I'm too coward to take such rejection from you..." he muttered enough. "I know you don't feel the same--"
"You should have tried." I was the one to cut him off this time and he threw a confused look at me. Obviously clueless.
"What do you mean?"
If he only have confessed to me earlier...
I placed a hand on his face, caressing it. "You wouldn't know if you never try. Hoon." I tell him with a sad smile. I don't know if he get what I'm trying to say. It's late.
We're already engaged to someone.
His eyes fall down to my hand caressing his face and he takes it in his hand, surprisingly kissing it before he looked at me and I failed to hide my flustered face. "Now that you heard how I really felt for you, can you tell me yours?"
Should I? He already told me about his though. I gulp the sudden lump that have just formed in my throat together with the nervous I'm feeling. 
"I feel the same way..." I mumbled, audible enough for him to hear and I swear my face surely looked like a tomato right now. His gloomy eyes lit up and before I could anticipate what he would possibly do next his lips are already pressed on mine once again in a passionate kiss, bringing the butterflies in my stomach back to life again.
After the moment of kissing that feels like years. We both finally pull away when we're out of air. Both lost in the galaxy of each other's eyes and my heart did a happy flip when he flashed the most adoring smile I've ever seen from him.
"Let's get out of here." He breathe out, pulling us out of the conference room without waiting for me to speak. He opened the door and the next thing I saw made my heart race in fear mixing with guilt.
Haechan was there standing in front of the door.