I wanted it to end.
Whatever we have right now. I wanted it to be over. I do not care about his sweet words. His stupid jokes. It was all just a lie! I decided to block his number. Three days have passed. Nothing really happened. He did not try to approach me in class. We went back to being strangers. So it was that easy for him. I lost all my feelings for him. I regretted everything that I had ever shared with him. I hated him so much that whenever I saw him, I wanted to scream in his face. But I'm afraid I can't. I really hate being involved with any of my classmates. I should have learned my lesson from high school.
"𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆?"
I was surprised when I accidentally bumped into someone. I was even more surprised to see who it was.
Ryan McLaren.
I stood there staring at him. He had a confused look plastered on his face. Of course, Why would he remember me? Humiliated I ran away from him. I cannot process the fact that of all the colleges in the world, WHY is he here? I wanted to run away from everything. And yet, he is here.
I hate my life so much!
It has been a week since I blocked Sean's number. We never talked to each other again. We are officially strangers now. I decided to unblock him since I realised I was being unfair to him... I mean, he probably tried to reach out to me, but he noticed that I was mad at him and decided to wait until I calmed down, right?
That only happens in another life.
He's got a girlfriend now. I was shocked, hurt. I was stunned. I cannot believe that I was being delusional. I cannot believe that I fell for his lies. I hate him so much! I hate him! He made me fall in love and decided to just end everything. All those messages that we shared, he said I am special. Did he lie about that too? It was bullshit.
Everything was a game to him.
A fabrication.
I have never hated someone more than I hate him. I despise him so much! I hope karma gets to him. I will never forget about all this. He was the worst person that I had ever encountered in my life. I hope he got hit by a truck. I was stupid. I fall too easily for his little game. I am relieved that this stupid lie of his has ended, but he just does not learn.
I hate him saying my name. I despise myself for telling him that. He expected me to still treat him the same after everything? I don't think so. I had enough. I am done playing his game. I do not need someone like him to be in my life. Why can't he see that I am avoiding him? How can he be so shameless? I still remember that one time I was so STUPIDLY in love with that guy. I tried to get his attention. I did everything to make him notice me, to like me. Well, it seems like it worked. But not in the way that I imagined. Sometimes, I noticed he was staring at me in class. I hate that I still care about it, although it was really hard to act like I was okay, acting like he does not bother me at all. It was tiring to fake a smile just to let him know that I did not need him in my life.
I am tired.
I had enough.
I hate him so much.
That one night, he texted me again.
"𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗶𝗴𝗻𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗲?"
The nerve of this guy. He already has a girlfriend, and he has the nerve to say he missed another girl? I feel sorry for his girlfriend. If I did not know that he has a girlfriend, I would be so excited, smiling from ear to ear. But now, his text messages disgust me.
"𝗗𝗶𝗱 𝗜 𝗱𝗼 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴? 𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲."
Go away from my life. I wanted to text him that, but I do not want any more drama. I feel so stupid now that I used to have feelings for him. He is not even my type. How the heck did I fall for him? I'm really stupid for falling in love with someone who can sweet talk me.
"𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗿𝘆 𝗶𝗳 𝗜 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴. 𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗶𝗴𝗻𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗲. 𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗲 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀."
I was about to lose it when I read that text.
BEST FRIENDS
Wow.
He defined us as best friends? Did he say that stuff to his best friends then? Did he sweet talk his best friends? Did he text them EVERY SINGLE DAY and even say that they are special because they are his best friends?
WOW
I was furious. I cannot believe I used to smile at his stupid texts. I wanted to scream at him for real. He was the only one who was happy. He does not deserve to be happy. Sean makes me realise that not all boys are good. He was the biggest mistake I ever made in my life.
"𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝗜 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗲𝗿𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗺𝘆 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀."