I noticed she was staring at me with curiosity. After all these years, she's finally started to see me, finally noticing me. I was really taken aback when I realised the way she looked at me was the same way the girls looked at me when they declared their love for me, she likes me. I was so sure of it. Somehow, a smirk escaped from my lips when I realised that. But still, it confuses me. Why now? How come she only SEES me now?
It's irritating.
"That's the girl who's going around asking everyone whose name is Ryan Mclaren."
My classmate told me as my eyes followed her. She's been looking for me? Now that's new. It was fun seeing her cheeks flush red every time we passed by the hallway. I wonder why she is acting so shy, she used to be so loud, she gets along with anyone, so why is it hard for her to actually try and talk to me? Maybe even confess? It's taking her forever to do it.
I'm beginning to lose interest.
Months passed and we still haven't talked to each other. I noticed how she gets so unusually quiet when I'm around. It's like everything that she wanted to say gets swallowed up. She lost all the words when I was near her, especially when I stood next to her. She was so cute, her cheeks flushed as she tried hard to avoid eye contact. This is too much cuteness, oh god.
Why is she so cute?
I wanted to pinch her cheeks so badly, but I remained calm since she would be scared of me if I actually did that. I wanted to say something to her, but she ran away, she was so nervous I don't know how many times it's been said already, but she's SO cute. She makes my heart flutter somehow. She makes me smile just by seeing her flushed cheeks. I wanted to talk to her so badly. I still remember it so clearly, as I stood next to her. She was frozen to her feet. It was a sight to remember.
She's still as short as I remembered.
It was cute.
Oh my god.
This is driving me crazy. I'm fully aware of her feelings for me, but why won't she confess? What is she afraid of? I think if she really did confess to me, I would gladly accept and be her boyfriend. So what's stopping her? As for me... I don't really have the confidence to confess to her... What if I mistook her feelings? What if she never really liked me from the start?
That would be so embarrassing.
I've never been rejected before. I don't want to experience that kind of pain. Nothing really has happened since that day. The real adventure started when we got to the same class. She was so obvious. I can't help but just go along with the teasing.
"Did you know that she likes you?"
I did.
I wanted to say that, but I have to act like I don't since watching her cheeks flush whenever someone mentions my name to her is satisfying, seeing her getting embarrassed was cute. I thought that we would be closer now that we were in the same class, but she's still the same, she never confessed to me.
What's worse is that she seems to be avoiding me.
What the hell is wrong with her? Is it so hard for her to just confess now? What's taking her so long? I'm getting impatient. It's irritating. Waiting is annoying, so troublesome. She would smile, but not at me. Her laughter was not for me. Her hellos and goodbyes are never for me.
I was pissed off.
I don't understand what she felt for me for her to act like that.
"I thought you liked me."
So why are you acting like you don't? It's confusing. She's so confusing. I still remember the first time I said her name. She looks so excited and happy. She was so cute, but I can't really say that to her...
"You should confess to her if you like her."
Cindy teased me. I don't know how she knows, but it's surprising.
"You are so obliviously in love with her."
When Cindy told me that, I couldn't help but think, does it look like that to the others? Is it really obvious? I don't even know myself if I really did like her... That way, I mean, I did think she was cute. But I don't know... She's making me lose interest if she keeps acting so shy towards me. Like, how are we supposed to be in a relationship when she gets embarrassed whenever she sees me? What are we going to talk about when it's just us? I seriously can't think about it. It's really hard to imagine us being together now that she keeps acting so distant.
I wish she was like she used to be.
I miss the old her, who gets along with anyone
Why can't she do that with me? It's suffocating to think that I was not enough for her.
Why?