ARAIA's P.O.V
I didn't know exactly what happened but I just woke up in a strange place.
Where am I?
I tried to move but my whole head is aching.
"Ouch…"
What happened to me?
Suddenly, the memories from last night started to pour in my head.
Right… I just heard Alejandro and Geronimo's plan on using me.
My blood boils again with the thought of their betrayal. How dare they use me?!
I've been loyal to them! Especially Alejandro!
My eyes become watery at the thought.
I…I trusted him…
I cry quietly while holding my chest, it hurts a lot…I didn't imagine that he's just using me, that he sees me as a pushover…as a tool to use for him to rise in power…
Why didn't I feel it before?
"Why…"
My thoughts were cut when I heard a knock on the door.
"Araia, may I come in?"
Alpha William…
"Yes…"
Few seconds later Alpha William came inside with a tray in his hand.
What is that?
He walked slowly, the words my direction and the usual smart that I see and his face was nowhere to be found.
Right now he is serious and he is staring at me intently, I don't know what he is thinking but I know that he pity me.
I can say it in his eyes.
I watched him as he played the tray on the table beside me and he just stood there looking at me.
I buy to my lower lip, I am feeling guilty because I didn't believe him when he told me that alpha Alejandro is just using me and instead I got mad at him and told him that I am disappointed at him.
Now, I am disappointed at myself for not considering his words.
I just don't realize that he really cares for me unlike Alejandro who is just using me for his own gain.
I bowed my head in embarrassment and finally said, "I'm sorry…"
There are a lot of words that I want to tell him but the guilt that I am feeling right now is suppressing everything, I can't even look at his eyes…
What should I tell him, that I am sorry for not believing him and saying those words to him?
But it's too late now…
I am so embarrassed at myself because I said terrible things to him but the one who is helping me now is him.
I just want the ground to eat me…
"It's okay, I don't mind it." He calmly said and sat on the edge of the bed.
"I am thankful that you are safe…" He added.
I can't look him in the eyes, all I can do right now is to feel embarrassed at my actions.
Do I even deserve his help after all of those words that I said to him?
"Come on! I said it's okay, Araia." I was surprised because his calm voice was replaced by a cheery but reassuring one.
That's where I gained my confidence to look at his eyes.
He is now smiling not the smile he used to show me before, but a smile where you can feel the sincerity and warmth.
"T-thank you…"
That is all I can say, I am still embarrassed and I still don't know how to face him. I can't bring myself to act like how I used to be with him because as someone who said terrible things to him, acting like how I used to be is disgusting…
"Hey, look at me." He said while gesturing his hands upward.
I can't help but to look at him. He smiled at me and said, "Let's move on with that, okay?"
Although I still can't forgive myself for not trusting him, after a little while I feel comfortable around him again, but when he asked me what happened, I can't help but to cry in his arms.
I told him everything, from how I discovered that Alejandro is just using me to they're plan, I also apologize for not trusting him.
I cried non stop but he didn't leave me until I fully calmed myself down.
When he asked me if I wanted to eat outside, I told him that I prefer eating here so he asked a servant to bring us food, after that, he stayed with me until the food arrived. Alpha William also joined me in eating because I told him that it feels awkward to eat alone.
"Are you sure you are okay alone?" He asked me when I told him that I am fine without anyone accompanying me now.
I nodded my head. I also need to rest, even though I just woke up, I feel like I'm still tired from everything.
"Hmm, well, alright, just call a servant when you need anything."
Although Alpha William didn't want to go, maybe, he still thinks that I still need help from what happened but it would be awkward for the both of us if I asked him to stay longer, we're both single so it doesn't look right for him to stay here any longer.
Earlier, when a servant came with the food, I can tell that he is curious to know who I am because Alpha William let me stay here.
Only if I didn't need William's help then I would not stay here. I don't want to start another ruckes now that I still have a problem.
Come to think of it, all the time that I've been here in this place I haven't met anyone outside the mansion so I don't have any friends and I don't have anywhere to go.
Where else should I stay if Alpha William didn't see me?
I don't have money with me so I can't rent an inn or hotel, I also can't just roam around the streets because it's dangerous. Another thing, I can't stay in that village anymore because Alejandro has connections everywhere, so it's hard for me to stay out of his side even if I want to as long as I am residing in that village.
I don't want to see him as well as hear everything about him.
My heart is still aching every time I remember what I heard that night.
I'm so invested in our relationship that I know to myself that it would be hard for me to just forget about him.
I even prioritize albertation over my original goal which is going back to Earth, how foolish of me to do that…
I regretted risking my life staying in this place full of wolves for him, but all I will get is betrayal from him.
Just how stupid of me to think that an alpha who rules a huge place will fall in love with me?
Ha!
I want to punch him, I want to tell him that he is a piece of shit!
But I can't… I know I can't… I don't even want to face him. If by chance we met, I know that I won't be able to say what's in my mind right now to him, for sure, I will just cry there, looking pathetic in front of him.
Damn you, Alejandro.
**
IT'S BEEN A WEEK since that night happened and I am still here in Alpha William's mansion.
I am still here feeling alone and betrayed, I still can't get myself to move on from what happened but I am trying my best since I know that thinking about it won't do me any good.
That it will just make me look more desperate if I still think about it and to believe that he will come back at me. That's why although it hurts, slowly, I am trying to forget him…
I just wish that I'll forget him because that's the only thing that I do to help myself.
"Araia?"
"Come in."
William appeared, he was holding something in his hands.
"What's that?" I stood up and asked him to sit on the couch to have tea.
"Oh, this is just one of those boring works." He said.
I poured him a cup of tea and sat beside him.
"You're really lazy!" I jokingly said.
He just laughed at my remark and drank the tea that I prepared.
"Well, I'm the boss. I can do whatever I want." He said, looking proud that he is lurking around even though he has piles of work to do.
He is so different from Aleja-
What am I thinking?
"Araia?"
My attention went to William, he is looking at me with concerned eyes.
"Yes?"
"Are you okay?"
"Y-yeah." I forced a smile so he wouldn't think about it.
"Sure?" He asks.
I nodded.
"By the way, I'd like to go outside for a bit, I want to feel the outside again."
I changed the subject, if that topic goes any further, it will just ruin my mood. Just why did I think about him in the first place?
"Sure! I'll ask a servant to accompany you."
William is strict when it comes to me going outside for no specific reason, he just told me that it would be best for me if I stay here for the time being to gather my thoughts first.
I agree with him before but these days I feel like I need the air outside to avoid being suffocated here.
I admit that William is doing everything for me during my stay here but it isn't enough for me to freshen my mind, I can't help myself further more if I stay inside this room for another day.
It would be best if I could share my thoughts while breathing the fresh air from outside and looking at the beautiful scenery around this place. That will definitely make me gather my thoughts and calm myself even more.
Besides, the servants here won't think that we have a relationship anymore since William made it clear before that I am just his friend and we are not in that kind of relationship, so it won't be hard for me to go out and to avoid everyone's malicious eyes.
My stay here, even though it hasn't been a month, I can say that everything here is peaceful and like my first stay in that mansion.
It's different…Everything feels different…
After a few hours, my servant came and told me that she would accompany me outside.
She even helped me to prepare the cloth that I would be wearing outside because it's quite cold, so going outside with a thin cloth will just bring me cold.
I walked outside with her, I can't deny that there was a time where I was spacing out that made me stop walking, I just can't help it…
When the night is getting deeper, I decided to go back to my room since I feel a little better now compared to before.
I was about to go back when someone shouted asking for help.
"Intruder! Help!"
Everyone suddenly started to panic, even the servant that I'm with started to sweat.
"What's happening?" I tried my best to stay calm even though I wanted to shout too.
When her event finally organized her thoughts, she asked me to go back to my room. I did what she said so I ran as fast as I could to avoid getting caught in that ruckus.
I let out a relief sigh when I was able to go to my room unscathed.
Haa…
What's happening outside? Will there be a war? Where's William?
I was still shaking a little when I tried to light up the lamp but it fell on the ground when I saw a shadow in front of me.
W-who is t-that?
As if I was glued to the floor, I can't move even a little because of the shock.
My eyes widened while looking at the shadow in front of me, it is not moving but I can tell that it is looking straight at me.
I can't say anything, I was just there looking at the shadow with wide eyes.
What should I do?! Is that the intruder that they're talking about? What is he doing here?
Is he going to kill me?!
Sweat is starting to build on me, I can feel my body trembling while looking at it.
Am I going to die-
"Araia…"
"..."
H-ha?
That…t-that voice…
Alejandro?