ARAIA'S P.O.V
Am I hearing it correctly?
All of the tension that I felt earlier vanished and was replaced by nervousness.
Is it really him?
I can't see him clearly because it is dark here in this room but I am confident that I know his voice and that voice belongs to Alejandro.
"Araia, it's me…" He said.
Something blocked my throat, I can't get myself to say anything.
This voice, it's really him…He is In Front of me…
When everything sank into me, I felt my eyes become watery and a few seconds later I was already sobbing.
Why…why is he here?
The shadow moved and it walked towards me, but I shook my head repeatedly. I wanted to tell him that I don't want him to go near me but I can't. I want to shout at him for using me but words aren't coming out of my mouth. All the things that I wanted to tell him, all the things that I promised myself to say to him these past days were gone. I can't find it.
All I can do right now is to cry and to watch him as he takes big but slow steps towards me, I can't believe that he's in front of me…
I felt his hand touching my hand, caressing it carefully and warmly. That made me lose it.
I cried louder and I couldn't control my tears anymore, it's running like a river.
"Araia…I miss you…" I felt his breath near my face.
I collapsed, my knees felt weak, he was able to catch me but we both ended on the floor.
"Araia…"
I felt him hug me, it was gentle at first but it became tight.
Why…
Why is he here just now?
Is he here to treat me as a fool again? Is he here to tell me that I was foolish to trust him? Is he here to make fun of me?
I used my strength to push him, although it wasn't that strong, I managed to push him and made him let go of me.
"Araia…please…let me explain…" There's desperation in his voice.
But I know that he's not sincere…He betrayed me after all.
"No…I-I don't want to see you…" I said between my sobs.
"Please, let me explain-"
"I said no!" My voice cracked, I can't help but to shout at him, I said I don't want to see him! Why are you here now?!
"Why are you here? Didn't you betray me?" I placed a distance between us.
"What, you're still not content with that time you use me?!" I couldn't control my anger, I'm so mad at him!
"Araia, no! I am sorry, please give me another chance-"
"No! I don't want to see you anymore!" It's hard to say these words but the hatred in my heart is always dominant. I can't accept the fact that he is here, saying these things after betraying me…
"Araia please! I regret it, I regret everything that I've done to you-"
"Stop it!" I shook my head.
"I don't want to hear anything from your mouth!" You're a liar! I won't fall from your words again!
"No, Araia, please listen to me…"
He tried to catch my arms but I kept on shaking it. I don't want him to hold me, I don't want to touch him!
"...Liar…You're a liar!" I stood up and ran towards the door, I was able to open it so I ran outside immediately but I bumped into something.
"Araia?"
"W-William?" Even though my eyes are blurry from the tears that I shed, I tried to focus my gaze in front of me to see who I bumped.
I felt relief when I saw that it was Alpha William.
I held his hand tightly and cried in his arms.
He asked me about what happened but I can't get myself to tell him, I am still crying and I couldn't open the topic earlier.
I was trying to calm myself when he guided me to my room. At first, I didn't want to go there, thinking that maybe Alejandro was still there but when he went first and didn't say anything about Alejandro, I supposed that he wasn't there anymore.
Am I just hallucinating?
"What happened?" He asks again.
All I can do is shake my head, I can't tell him what happened, what would I do if Alejandro's not really here?
I calmed myself and asked him what happened outside, I needed a distraction from what happened.
"There was an intruder but everything's settled now."
Intruder…
Is it possible that it's Alejandro?
He stayed with me until a servant came to him with a report that everything's dealt with. He decided to go to check things but before he left, he asked me again if I'm really alright.
When I assured him that I am fine, he left the room.
I bit my lip, am I just really hallucinating?
I can't tell, I can't even tell the difference if it's real or not.
Damnit.
But what if it's real?
His words felt real, his warmth…
Urgh!
Tears are starting to build up again, everything feels real…
I hugged myself, how I miss him…
Everything about him, I miss it…
I thought that after a week, I've finally gotten over him, that even if he shows up and talks to me, I will be able to answer him without tearing up but I was wrong…
Even just his presence was able to make me nervous, I- I want to tell him that I still like him, that I will never forget him, that I longed for him…
I still can't forget everything about him… The days that we spent together never left my mind, his warmth never left my heart…
Oh Alejandro, why did you just come now?
A week has passed but I didn't hear anything about you, you didn't even try to talk to me…
Why?
If you did, maybe I am not this miserable now…
Why…Didn't you like me a bit? How could I forget you…
Are you happy that I'm like this? Are you happy now that I'm not there to burden you anymore? But- how about me? What should I do?
I can't live without you…
Alejandro… I miss you…
I miss you so much…
I cried all night, thinking about Alejandro. How
I can feel his warmth from where I am standing, even before he entered the room.
I sob much harder when I realized that even though I am mad at him, my love for him is still so dominant that I can forgive him easily.
"Alejandro…"
I want to say sorry for pushing you away…I want to say sorry for being this weak…
I want to hear your voice again…Please…