ARAIA'S P.O.V
It's been a week since that incident happened and I am here, locking myself in the room that I used back when I was still in Alejandro's mansion.
I don't want to go out and I don't want to see anyone. A servant will just bring me food and will leave the room after.
I am not even talking to them and I am aware that I made them feel that I don't want to talk to them.
I just can't help it, I can't bring myself to talk to anyone and I don't think that I can trust anyone again. From what happened to me before and recently, trusting someone is so hard that I kept on asking myself if I should do it again.
I kept on asking myself what if I trust someone again but they will just betray me again?
What would happen to me if I give someone attention and love that I want them to have but all they would do is to stab me back?
How about me?
Do I even deserve all of those hardships, hatred, and betrayal?
"I-I want to go back home…"
All I am doing is crying while thinking about my friends and family. I want to go back because even though my family doesn't love me, I have a friend who loves me and cares about me.
I have someone that will look after me and will not let anything but happen to me, unlike here, those that I trust the most are the ones that's betraying me.
I don't want to be here anymore…
I can't stop myself from crying, I can't stop the emotions that I've been keeping since before…
I was about to go to the bathroom when I felt something strange inside my body.
What's that?
I felt like my insides are gurgling and my breathing became unstable all of a sudden.
What is happening to me?
I walked towards the bathroom as soon as I could and looked at the mirror to see myself. My eyes, why I didn't when I saw my eyes with different colors- is that yellow?!
Why did the black of my eyes turn yellow?
My vision became clear and my senses become sharper.
I suddenly felt like I could crush something with my bare hands. What's with this feeling?
Why do I feel so strong?
I walked outside because I feel like I need to breathe fresh air, this is the first time that I am going outside ever since I came back to this mansion.
Thankfully, no one is outside so I went straight to the garden but my breathing remains the same.
A strange hot feeling even adds up to what I am having right now, sweats are starting to build up on my body even though the air outside is cold.
My throat became dry so I looked for something I could drink. A room around but when I didn't find anything to drink, I went straight to the kitchen.
There, I bumped into a servant, she is the servant that was close to Geronimo so I didn't think twice and asked her for a glass of water.
I told her that something is strange within my body and after she gave me a glass of water, I drank it and explained to her the strange feeling that is happening to me.
I can just give what is happening to me a secret because I am not sure about this either, it is better to ask for help even though I am still not ready to converse with anyone.
I don't have a choice, I don't even know if this is a disease that is dangerous or not.
I told her everything and she listened to me carefully. When I was done explaining, she asked me to go back to my room and she will assist me after she gets the thing that she told me first.
I did what she said and weighed patiently inside my room while waiting for her. It didn't take her that long and she arrived carrying a tiny bottle in her hand.
"What's that?"
Although we are acquaintances, I can't just trust her with something that will go inside my body.
"This is what we are using when a wolf starts to rampage." She said.
What?
"But I'm-" uh. I almost told her that I am not a wolf!
She gave me the battle but I am hesitating to drink it since I am not a wolf. It is dangerous for a human to drink something that I was using since the ingredients are different and it is not made for humans.
What if my condition worsens after I drink that?
What if I die?
Tree explained to me that it is important to drink that liquid as soon as possible because it is possible for me to have a hard time breathing if I don't make it fast.
But why would I drink that?
"Are there any other options?" I tried to ask her, if there is another option then I will gladly do it but this is really dangerous for me.
She shook her head, I am still hesitant to drink it but my breathing became heavier just like what she said.
Why…I am not a werewolf so why is this happening to me?!
I immediately drank the liquid and gave her the bottle. She stayed there while patting my back and waiting for what would happen.
A few minutes later, maybe breathing became stable and the pain that I am having suddenly faded.
What…
"Are you all right?"
I nodded my head.
Did the liquid she gave me actually work?
But how did that happen when I am not a werewolf?
Why did it work to me when it wasn't supposed to be for me?
I don't get it!
My mind is full of questions and it even became a mess when she explained to me what happened.
She told me that it is normal for a woman to experience that after I had an intercourse.
"But I didn't!" The incident that happened between William and I didn't go there, he was stopped even before he could remove my clothes so it didn't count as an intercourse!
And besides, why would I believe her when the things that she is telling me we're all related to a female werewolf and not a female human?
She also told me that it would be hard for me within a week after this because that is where my senses will awaken slowly, I might also experience having a heat cycle which is not making any sense!
I don't want to listen to her anymore because I am not a werewolf but I can't tell her that, so I listened to her and agreed to everything that she said.
But while she is explaining my mind is like a mess, even after she left the room, I can't help but wonder why her description of what is happening to me is exactly what would happen to a female werewolf when I am not even one?
She even gave me a medicine to stop it and it worked.
It doesn't make any sense but why am I nervous?
Why do I feel like this isn't something that I can just ignore?
At first, I thought that I can just listen to her and forget about it after since it isn't related to me, but after she explained everything, it made me think that- why is it so accurate to what I am experiencing?
Why does it show the same symptoms that I felt?
Is it a coincidence or not?
Other thing, did something happen to my body?
I've not experienced this before and I haven't encountered anyone who experienced this, that's why it is new to me and I don't know what to do.
This is actually the first time that they heard about that and the worst part is I am the one experiencing it.
It's really weird because I am not even a werewolf but All that she said is so accurate and even the medicine worked.
Hmm…
Come to think of it, she told me that I should wait for a few days because something might happen to me, and whatever happens I should call for her because she will help me.
I just hope that it isn't that dangerous…
**
I STAYED in that place without going outside, Alejandro would come once in a while to check on me but I am not talking to him, I don't even open the door to let him in.
I'm still not ready to talk to him and I don't know when will I be ready to.
I just want to give you myself time to hear from those horrible things that happened to me.
Since Alejandro offered his help and I am a mess right now, I don't have any reason to decline his offer to stay here.
I will just take this as he meant for all the stress that he gave me…
Hmp.
I'm still mad at him but if I would be honest, I know that a part of me is happy that I am near him and I am happy to hear from him that he regretted betraying me.
But I can't just trust him, I don't want to.
Ha…
I make myself busy cleaning the room and spacing out sometimes. I'm also doing some exercises because I felt like I've been so weak these past few days.
I am cleaning the window and I felt something unfamiliar to me again.
I checked myself because I am feeling hot even though the window is open and a fresh air is coming in.
What's wrong with me again?
I immediately went to the bathroom to have a bath, hoping that this would help me to ease the hotness that I'm feeling.
I stayed there for almost half an hour but the tension isn't subsiding, just what is this?!
Do I have a cold?
I checked myself, no I don't.
So what is this strange feeling?
I feel like there's some fire burning inside me that I can't explain…
Wait- could this be another same time that she is talking about?
Oh no…
I fixed myself and immediately went to the kitchen but I can't find her.
"Where is she?"
I looked for her everywhere but because there were some areas with lots of werewolves, I decided to go back to my room.
How should I deal with this for the time being?
I need to find a way to eat this feeling before it gets any worse…
I drank a lot of water and took another bath. I made sure that the water I was using was cold, I stayed in the bathroom but the strange feeling was still there.
What should I do?
I can already feel my head spinning, my body is so hot!
I-I need to look for help!
I picked up a robe and didn't bother to change into decent clothes, why do I feel like I am not myself?
Urgh!
My body is starting to ache…My head…My vision becoming blurry…what's this…
I forced myself to walk through the door but my hand slipped when I opened it.
I searched for something I could grab but I couldn't find anything. My eyes are not working clearly as well…
I'm going to fall!
-is what I thought because someone caught me.
"T-thank goodness…" I whisper.
"Help…me…" I can't speak continuously, it's strange…
"Araia? What happened to you?"
That voice…
"Ale-jandro…"
I felt him carry me and placed me somewhere soft. Is this my bed?
"What happened?" He asks but I am too weak to answer him, I felt like all my strength was taken from me…
What's happening to me…I can't even open my mouth…
I need to say something but I can't…
I felt him touch my forehead, after a while he asks,
"You're…in heat?"