There are different days in our life. No doubt they are some days we all dread and wish that it wouldn't happen not because something terrible is about to happen, but because we are just not ready for it to happen. Layla had cried the day Theo announced that he had been accepted in the college he apply for. She didn't know if her tears was of joy and happiness for him or sadness because he was going to leave her.
Making him stay wasn't going to be hard for Layla to do. But she wasn't going to do that to him, he went through a lot for her and almost didn't graduate because of her. Now it was time for him to start his life. Layla didn't want to be an obstacle for that. His life shouldn't be at a stand still because of her, Layla was sure that she was better now.
It was almost noon, Theo had woken up early to prepare himself and his things. He did all that fast so that he could spend few more time with Layla. She would have told him not to bother, so that he wouldn't be late but she couldn't. She wanted these moments of him and her to herself.
Layla hands graze through Theo hair, as she watch his sleepy form. She should wake him so that he could start his trip but she couldn't. Waking him means that he was going to go.
She and Theo had spend the whole of yesterday without leaving each other side. Layla didn't care about Mrs Claire as she slept in Theo room. They spend their night with kiss, memories of the past, promises to always see each other no matter what.
Layla and Theo both spoke of their fears, the fears of college being the end of their relationship. They both didn't want that, as Layla gaze at Theo sleepy form, she wonder if their words were enough. Alot of people say difference things. How long will they be able to remember their promise to each other. How long will this love last. Their love was the only good thing she could think of that was in her life right now, it really made her happy that Theo was with her. Days with him had been the best. But how long will it last?
Will everything hurts less if she just end things with him now. What if she cause something bad to happen in his life?
"What are thinking about?" Theo ask with his sleepy voice. "You have been staring at me for almost an hour now, I thought you were going to kiss me or something."
Layla smile at him. "You are awake."
"It's hard to sleep with someone hand moving all over your hair, I'm sensitive you know."
Layla hold back her laugh as she lay down close to him. She was sitting down on the bed before.
"It's almost time." Theo gaze at her eyes. She avoider his. "I can stay if you want, then we can both go to the same college together next year."
Theo has been waiting desperately for her to just tell him to stay, but she wasn't going to bring it up.
"This thing between us could end here." Layla started out words that made her mouth felt like it was filled with dirt. Her hands gently crease Theo face as she saw the hurt that came in his eyes immediately she said those words. She regretted her words, that wasn't what she wanted to say, Layla thoughtlessly said it in a wrong way.
Leaving Theo was impossible for her, it was something she could never do. But Layla was afraid of how long Theo will still be willing to stay by her side.
"You can't do that." There was sadness Theo voice. "It hasn't even been up to a month, I haven't even left yet and you already want to break your promise to me."
"I'm sorry, that wasn't what I meant." Layla hand move from his cheek to trace the lines of his nose and then to his hair. His hair was really soft. "What I actually wanted to say was that our life doesn't end here. To be honest I'm actually afrai_"
"Theo!!!" Mrs Claire knock loudly on the door. "Your parents are on the phone they want to speak to you."
"Tell them I will call back later, just not now!" He said with his eyes fixed on Layla.
Layla knew that Mrs Claire was sure that she was here. Maybe being here was a bad idea, the more she kept staying in his life the more she prevent him from doing the things that he was supposed to be doing. Like traveling for instance. "I think I should leave. You need to start going."
"Wait!" Theo was fustrated. "Why are doing this to me? Why don't you trust me?"
"I trust you."
"No you don't, you can't even tell me about your fears, I thought we have gone over this last night. I thought we were okay, but you still don't trust me."
"I trust you, I'm... I am just afraid that we would break up, I'm afraid that you will break up with me."
Theo felt angry. "So you trust me, but you don't trust me to stay?"
Layla got out of the bed covers and sat down on the bed with her face away from Theo, "I'm sorry."
"I can't believe you." Theo anger and fustration lash out with his words.
"I need to go."
Before Layla could get up and leave Theo room he hug her from behind, his head rested on her shoulders.
Their quiet breath was the only sounds in the room for 15 minutes. Theo couldn't let her leave like this, if she did he felt like she already broke up with him. "What can I do to make you stay?"
"You don't get it." Layla said, "I love you, no matter what, I'm never going to leave. I'm just afraid you would leave one day and I wouldn't be able to take it because I love you so much, I can't handle the idea of you leaving."
Theo felt happy with her words and hug her tighter. "I'm never going to be going leave."
"You don't feel like I'm a burden in your life?" She asked with tears in her eyes. She couldn't stop it as they roll down her cheek.
"I don't know what to do with you Layla Wyatt. I can't believe you think that about yourself. Why can't you see how much you mean to me? How important you are to me."
Layla laugh at herself as she choke a little on her tears. She struggle as she free herself from Theo hands. Turning round to face him, she hug him. "I'm sorry." She said.
Theo wipes away her tears and smiled at her. Just when he thought that she wasn't going to cry like a baby again. Here she was, crying like a baby. But she was his baby and he was happy with that.
Theo stayed a little longer with Layla, called his parents and traveled to college.
Layla was assured in her heart that it wasn't the end of their relationship.