SELENE'S POV
"Waaaahhh... It hurts!" I moaned while holding my head.
What is that? I just woke up but why does an ax seem to be hitting my head now? Why do I have a bad headache?
I looked around as I lightly massaged my forehead. Oh, that's great! Am I already at home? For as much as I can remember, I was at the bar. Then, I drank a lot of alcohol because the people I watched looked like the alcohol can make them forget all of their problems, so I did it, too. It's a good thing that I'm 18 so I've already entered the bar.
Then a man came up to me and caught me when I was about to fall... then... I don't remember anything.
Sheez. But wait, it's good that my parents aren't here today to preach to me. They are still very protective of me even though sometimes they are out of place like they were extremely protective. I also don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm their only child so they act like that to me.
"Ma'am Selene, this is your coffee," said Eya, one of my maids, and handed me the coffee she had mixed. "Your parents said you should get well. Ma'am Jane also instructed me to tell them that you have a fever, and they believed me because they didn't come home last night because of their business meeting. Jane will talk to you when you wake up. "
I just nodded as I tried to process what she said. My head still hurts a bit.
"May I ask who brought me here to the house?"
Please don't let it be that stranger last night. Jane would probably hit me in the head when she found out a stranger had approached me.
"It was Jane." I breathed a sigh of relief because of her answer. "She was here before but she left. She said she'll be back later."
"Where is she going?" I asked with a frown but she just shrugged.
I shook my head lightly. Maybe it's a face-to-face fight again. Tsk tsk. I badly wanted to scold her, but I couldn't because she looked like she badly wanted to hide that fact from me. She didn't even tell me she was a gangster. If I hadn't seen her fight in Gangster's Paradise before, I still would be clueless about her until now.
I also just found out that when she wasn't in school or home, she was definitely in Gangster's Paradis, doing her training or fighting with someone. Did she think I would stay away from her when I found out she was a gangster? I’m not that kind of person.
I accept her no matter what she is.
But I know that she'll probably scold me when she found out that I went to Gangster's Paradise without her knowing. I just wonder, why did I even think to go there at that time? I just feel like... there is something strange in that place.
It was weird, I know.
I drank the coffee as I took a shower and got dressed. I was wearing only a simple white t-shirt, black jeans, and flat shoes. I also wore a hat even in the afternoon. I wanted to protect myself from the fog.
I'll follow Jane because maybe that's what that woman is doing again. There are only two possible places to go then. Either in the gangster's paradise or in a children's park.
That's where she goes when she's sad. She told me that before. I don't know if she remembers saying that before, but I can't forget facts quickly, especially since she's my best friend. Every story of hers is important to me so I really remember all of them.
I took my cellphone pouch, comb, credit cards, and cash and I was about to leave when Eya called me.
"Ma'am, where are you going? You still have a hang-over," Eya said to me.
"I'm okay, don't worry," I said, and I ran out of the mansion.
I thought I was okay, but I was still a little dizzy. That wine is annoying! I will never really drink alcohol again. Never again.
Even though I was dizzy, I got on my bike and I went to gangster's paradise. I also don't know why I rode my bike. I just feel like biking now and I also don’t know why. It's like I miss doing it even though I don't do it because I rarely drive.
Weird.
WHEN I got to Gangster's Paradise, I didn't get off my bike and looked for Jane, but she wasn't there. Other people started to look at me, but I didn't pay attention to them. Maybe they won't attack me at any time, isn't it? I'm just looking for something. I don't care about their fights.
If she wasn't here, maybe she would have gone to the children's park.
I was about to leave when someone caught my attention.
A man was just looking at me from afar. And I could feel the sadness and pain in his eyes, and he seemed to want to approach me but he was hesitant.
But I feel like I want to cry in front of him and hug him.
Why is it like this?
When he saw me looking at him, he immediately averted his eyes from me and walked away. I would have approached him for mere curiosity, but I saw a man sitting on the floor while he was smoking his cigarette.
I don't know why but... I felt scared so I didn't continue my attempt to approach. I just accelerated pedaling my bike and went to the children's park which is quite far from here.
My heart is beating so fast. I feel like I’m pedaling fast as if my life depended on it. Why is it like this? Why am I nervous? Maybe it's because I'm not used to seeing gangsters?
WHEN I got to the children's park, I got off my bike and looked for Jane. I didn't have a hard time finding her because she was the only one who wasn't a child sitting there.
And the woman next to her.
I immediately rolled my eyes because of what I saw. Is Jane talking to a cute stranger? Unbelievable.
I was about to approach them, sit next to them, and surprise them, but I stopped and hid behind a tree when I felt that their conversation was all about something else. I never saw Jane be this serious... and approachable.
"Sharm."
Sharm is the name of the woman next to her who is cute.
"Why?"
"Can I trust you?"
"Of course. They said I just look talkative but I'm good at keeping secrets!"
"Okay. I'll tell you but you won't tell everyone, okay?" said Jane. Her face was looking serious as well.
My forehead frowned. Tell her what? What will she tell? Has she not told me anything even though we are best friends?
I've never talked to Jane so seriously... so even though I'm not really a gossiper, I listened to their conversation.
My knees almost went numb because I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Jane and Kent, have they known each other before?
And everything that's happening to me now, is it just Jane's plan?
I don't know if I will cry, feel sad, or be angry because of her plan.
But after all, who among us is really hurting the most today?
Maybe... Jane's sacrifice is great now. But that doesn't mean I'm not hurting.
I just heard those children shouting when I suddenly punched the tree where I was hiding. And Jane's complexion suddenly went pale as she looked at me. And that Sharm was just clueless while looking at Jane and me.
I felt my hand bleed but I ignored it as I smiled at Jane when I approached her. She could not move in her place even when I laid my bleeding hand on her now. I felt her sudden shiver because of that.
"Chanelle..." she suddenly said like she was hallucinating.
"I'm not Chanelle," I said firmly to her. "And I'm not a doll, Jane. You can't control my life just because you want to."
That’s the last thing I said before I got on my bike and pedaled to nowhere.
I don't want to see them now... but where am I going?
"Aha," I said as someone light bulbed my brain, and I pulled my bike to a place I didn't know why I was going.
ALIYAH CHANELLE SY
Born: December 23, 1995
Died: October 16, 2014
"Aliyah... Aliyah... who are you really?" I asked as I sat opposite the grave of a woman I did not know.
I don't know but... I feel like this is the only place I can feel peace.