They really broke up now. This fact hit So Eun hard as Hyuk Soo's car drove further away. Watching his shadow, which gradually disappears from her sight, makes the girl feel a lot of miserable feelings creeping into her heart. Just when his car was already gone and he wouldn't be able to look at her again, the girl burst into tears. So Eun cried out loud and fell on her feet. She hides her face between her knees while crying alone.
"I am sorry, Oppa. I am sorry." The girl just doesn't want to pull him down by staying with the worthless she. She thinks that he may deserve better than her. And she thinks she might grow to be a better person who can pursue her dream without feeling the burden of hiding behind his fame. Was she really too self-centered in deciding this? She doesn't know. All that she knows now is that her heart is aching badly. She's lost him now.
*After three months*
There are a lot of people who gather in front of the big building together. They are forming a long queue to attend the talent audition, which is held by a big entertainment company seeking a good new talent. In between the crowds, there is a girl with long brunette waves hair who is preparing herself while waiting for her audition turn. She is so serious about memorizing some lines from a movie, which she will choose to show her acting talent.
"Han So Eun-ssi," the staff called out her name. Now it is her turn to do the audition.
"Yes!" So Eun immediately stands up and gathers her belongings before entering the audition room.
This audition is a free talent show audition. Everyone can freely show their talents, which will be evaluated by the evaluator. There are five people who sit on the judges' seat and evaluate everyone's talents who comes inside the room.
"Han So Eun-ssi, a fresh graduate from Seoul University of Acting Department, so... Are you going to show us your acting talent today?" asked one of the evaluators.
So Eun answered his question with certainty. She tells the juries about her acting experience. She also reveals her experience of doing a web drama before. The judges didn't seem to really care about that. They just asked So Eun to show her acting ability. The girl breathes in and out deeply before starting her show.
So Eun put all of her best efforts into showing her acting ability in front of the judges. Along with her act, the evaluator seemed serious about watching her. Sometimes they would discuss her acting in a low whisper and fill in the paper evaluation they held. Once the girl finished her act, they closed the paper and looked at her straightly.
"Why are you interested in becoming an actress? So Eun-ssi? " One of the jury members asks her
"For me, acting is storytelling. It’s the opportunity to embody another person and tell that story from their perspective. Many of the things that make a good actor also make a good person—eye contact, listening, empathy, patience. I’ve never felt anything better than the experience of "flow" that happens every once in a while during a performance when I am just completely taken over by the character. " So Eun starts to describe the reason why she is into acting.
"I want to become an actress because of the endless opportunities to grow and become a wise soul. Every time a different role comes my way, I have the opportunity to become someone else for a moment and feel what they feel. It’s a beautiful way to live in the shoes of someone else and to feel what they feel and understand their story. You can start to understand the world more, and the beautiful moments in life and all of the different possibilities. " So Eun finished her sentences with a huge smile on her face.
" So Eun ssi, do you have any other talents than just acting?" asks the man who has the sharpest look in his eyes. His question surprised the girl. She thought that she showed her best acting ability and gave the best answer about the reason behind her dream. But did this man actually ask her to show any other talents? The girl wonders if her actions and answer weren't great enough for him.
"Em... I'm not sure if I'm actually talented at this, but I've recently enjoyed myself by writing some poems and song lyrics." So Eun responded cautiously.
"song lyrics? Can you show me that? " The only female judge beams with happiness. It seems that she is connected to music and entertainment.
So Eun takes a piece of paper from her bag. She isn't really sure if this piece of paper would help her pass this audition. But she gives her the paper anyway.
"Sad Love..." mumbles the female judge after reading So Eun's song lyrics. The girls just nod their heads.
The evaluator then asked So Eun to exit the audition room and wait for the result outside. After nearly an hour of nervous anticipation, they finally post the result of the name that was accepted into the agency. So Eun is scanning the paper posted on the board and looking for her name, and there she goes. Her name is listed among the successful people who succeeded in the audition. She can't hide her smile and happiness for that.
Since then, So Eun has become the actress of KY agency. She received a lot of training to prepare for her debut as an actress. Her agency helped her to get some opportunities to do some minor roles in dramas and advertisements. After six months as a member of KY agency, the girl receives an invitation to participate in the S&L show.
" what kind of show is that?" asked So Eun to her manager.
"It is a show when an actor or actress joins a work together with a singer to make a song lyric." The manager explains it to her.
"Make a song? Why?" asked the actress, confused. Why does she get invited to attend the show?
"It seems that the show producer is admitting your talents as a songwriter. Do you remember the female judge on your audition day? She is the manager of that new show."
"Yes, of course I remember her. Oh my God. I shouldn't slip on this opportunity right? "asked the girl to her manager.
So Eun will be paired with male singer Lee Junsu. They will take 30 days to shoot and make some memories together to create a collaboration song. So Eun will be working on the song lyrics while Junsu makes the song arrangement. Today they are coming to the beach for shooting and looking for inspiration.
At the break time, So Eun is playing with her phone and browsing around on her SNS. She accidentally finds some updated photos of her ex-boyfriend, Lee Hyuk Soo. It's been awhile since she kept up with the news of the top model and actor. Hyuk Soo has become more famous than before. She can almost find his face on any magazine or TV screen now. At that time, she finds the latest update about the man's whereabouts and his project activity.
There are some pictures of him on the SNS. The pictures are a spotted photo of the man who got caught being together with a female singer on their Japan trip. So Eun's expression becomes severe. She just got a hurtful attack on her chest. She then put down her phone and started to write down the lyrics on the song sheets.
Today, Junsu will try out singing their song and recording it. So Eun would watch and listen to their song for the first time. She is actually nervous. She wonders if they would make a good song together. The music is on and starting to play the arrangement created by Junsu. Soon his serenade voice starts to sing the lyrics which were created by So Eun.
(My eyes only search for you)
 
This part reminds So Eun of the first time she ever met with Hyuk Soo. The first time she gets enchanted by the handsome librarian who gradually catches her attention, So Eun smiles bitterly on remembering their first encounter.
 (My two hands are still holding onto you)
As a result, So Eun recalls their times together on every occasion. Even though Hyuk Soo is really playful and annoying, he always treats her with tenderness and holds her hand tightly.
(I can't help my own heart. Love makes me sorrowful.)
She misses him a lot. She misses all of his perky side. She misses all of his love. She can't help but think about him every time. How she longed to see his warm smile on her again. But now, he is not there with her. So it hurt her heart badly.
 
(.... But this sadness from not being able to have you now becomes tears and flows down.)
This part makes the girl become teary. She remembers the time of their separation. She remembered the agony in his eyes that was caused by her. She is the one who drives him away from her life for her own pride. But now she misses him like crazy.
(I adore you, and I adore you even now.)
She loves him so much, even though she is the one who wants their break up, but there is not a single day when she doesn't love him and want him back.
(Can't you just stay with me? I get greedy every time I look at you. It scares me.)
There is the time when she really wishes to turn back in time and beg him to stay. But unfortunately, that kind of thing would never happen. Every time she looked at his face in the media, she really wanted to contact him right away and ask if he was okay. She wants to come back to the past, and it scares her. because she doesn't want to hurt him even more.
 
(... The two of us doesn't mean for each other, we can't be together anymore)
This final statement causes the girl to cry. The fact that she can't stay with Hyuk Soo anymore really hurts her. The thought that he might have already found someone else to replace her breaks her heart. So Eun stands up from her seat and runs away to hide herself, who is crying now. She is heading toward the emergency stairs to find a private place for herself.
She opened the door towards the emergency stairs without any second thought. Then she closed the door quickly behind her back. But when she lifted her head, the view in front of her shocked her. There is a man and a woman who are holding onto each other. It seems that the man is trying to prevent the girl from falling. As a result, Eun freezes on the spot.
"So Eunie?" asks the man, surprised to see the girl appear before him. He quickly pushed the girl in his hand and straightened his posture. The girl seemed puzzled and also surprised by So Eun's sudden appearance.