I sat on the bed of Alec, watching Becca stand in front of his picture. The death which befell us was still fresh in our memories. I felt like I'm being cursed or something. Everyone who ever loved me died one after the other. If I hadn't left that night, if I had listened to William, I wouldn't have been taken by Don Lucien and Alec wouldn't have died.
"He loved you very much." She sniffed and turned to look at me, her eyes were swollen, and her face was pale.
"He loved everyone, Becca," I stated.
"I know right? He's ever put everyone first before him, never had he experienced happiness. Alec had feelings for you, a feeling that he can never share with anyone. He talked about you all the time, he had you in his heart all day, have you ever spoken to him about his feelings for you? Have you ever acknowledged those priceless feelings?.``
"Words don't cut it in terms of these things, I have loved him like a brother, Alec knew that," I answered, feeling a pang of guilt in my heart.
"Don't feel guilty now he isn't alive, Nora. Alec himself wouldn't want that. I just wanted you to realize his true feelings for you."
There was silence.
"I am pregnant with his child, Nora." Becca continued.
My eyes rose.
"Does he know about that?." I asked.
She shook negatively, carrying down the picture flame from the wall, "I was back from n.y immediately I found out just to find him dead in our basement. He never got to experience joy, Nora. Even if it was to be a father, he didn't experience what happiness that came with it." She started walking out of the room but stopped at the doorstep.
"Never get anyone to die for you anymore, many have died enough for your sake. They always die saving your ass."
With one last look, she walked away.
I sat there, staring blankly as her last words resounded in my head.
From the beginning, many died, every time I was in danger, I would get kidnapped and wait for Zavi to save me from being killed.
I have never tried saving myself even for once.
Tears spilled down my eyes as I looked around the room. I've never been here until today, I stood up from the bed and walked towards his closet, I opened it and walked in.
Black suits were placed neatly on the hangers, there was a red button by the side, I slowly pressed it and the wardrobe turned around.
Guns were placed on shelves, a picture of me and him was on the left, it was the day he won the cooking competition, he was full of smiles.
I took the small frame and ran my hand on it, suddenly I heard footsteps approaching as I turned.
Will walked into the closet, his spiked blonde hair fell around his eyes, and he looked so tired. I could tell he'd been crying, I know they are trying to cover it up because of us, they'd never break down in front of us.
Zavi had been beside his grave since yesterday, smoking and drinking.
"Hey," I called, dropping back the frame.
"Come, Zavi wants to see you."
I nodded as he turned and left.
A few minutes later.
I walked into our room, searching for Zavi. I saw him lying on the bed, and I snuggled myself into his arms.
He wrapped his arm around my body.
"Zavi…" I whispered his name.
"Yeah, baby."
I gulped down and mumbled, "I never want to be the reason someone has to die, baby. If ever I have a gun placed at my head again, I want to be the one to take that bullet. Don't ever act like Alec, if you were to be the one who's dead, I would kill myself too because I have nothing to live for anymore. Don't ever take a bullet for me and don't let anyone take a bullet for me."
***
6 weeks later.
Although the recent events happened, we were back to our normal daily life. I had been training to be better, I was listening more.
I would go out if my husband permits and I'll sit my ass down when he doesn't want me to leave. I was a completely different person.
"Nora, you're getting better now. The Don will be proud of you." Will complimented my skills.
I smiled and gave him a side hug.
"Thank you, teacher."
I told him and loaded more bullets into the gun.
"When is Irene coming back?." I asked him. After two weeks of mourning Alec, Irene had gone home to visit family, it was like she didn't want to come home ever again.
"I called her and she promised to come back tomorrow."
I smiled, "I know you missed her." I teased.
He nodded, "It's been a month."
"That's good then."
I fired more rounds at the target, all accurate.
My tummy grumbled showing I was hungry.
He looked at me, "You just ate now, Nora."
I nodded, "And I feel like I've not eaten for three days. Something weirder keeps happening all the time. Yesterday, I felt dizzy and almost fell in the bathroom,"
"Do you want to see a doctor?." He asked worriedly.
I roll my eyes at him, "I'll be fine." I pulled off the eyeglass and earphones and dropped them on the counter.
"I've got to take a nap now."
I stretched my body and walked into the sitting room, my head felt heavier as I walked, reaching the stairs, I grabbed the banister about to climb the stairs.
"Hey, wifey." I heard Zavi call me from behind and I turned.
I fell and blacked out instantly.
.
.
I woke up, feeling too many eyes peering into mine.
"Are you okay, baby?." Zavi asked worriedly. What's going on?
I tried to sit up, but he held me down, "Don't worry, the doctor said you should rest for a while."
My eyebrows rose, "Doctor?. What's going on? Am I sick? I've been feeling strange for a while, I didn't know what it was. Oh my god! Is it a disease?."
I panicked for a bit.
Zavi smiled, rubbing my tummy.
"We're having a baby, Nora."
I hadn't processed it and my eyes widened when I did.
"We're having what?."
He shook his head, his face full of smiles.
"You and I are gonna be parents."