There's a love that doesn't for us. There's a thing you wanted but you wouldn't able to have. Even if you fight, there's nothing. Maybe that's love. No matter I comvince myself many times, the fact that T.H loves me didn't overcome a lie.
I thinked he loved me, even just a little bit. It's just a little bit that it's not enough for him to fight me, and didn't even courted me.
What's more painful is that, she gave me sparked but didn't take the responsibility. More painful id that he's not my first love, instead it was Wyn. I was a dumb on a certain fact that I expected something to happen but it doesn't.
The dumbest thing I did is that I settled a non-label relationship with a person who doesn't vividly explained what's his relationship to a girl who hurt me. I attended the party for him to support his decision but I didn't said that it's okay for me to be ignored by him in front of the other people.
I felt hungry after the long way Latrelle and I have been through on their house. His siblings aren't around, while his parents are on their room to make a rest. The maids allowed us to continue what we're doing.
I cooked a macaroni soup for us, while Latrelle made our coffee. He's sharing his experiences with the varsity team but I don't understand any single word. I felt the pain evenmore until this time.
"Yumi is such annoying. Like she's a mushroom" That girl is one of his topic until a while ago. But it's not vividly for me on who's that girl.
As the macaroni soup cooked, I prepared that on the table. Latrelle pulled a share for us two, and asked for a water on one of their made.
"I'm sure that girl just made herself charming for us. That's why she's watching our game." He continued, and sip a soup. I watched him doing it.
"Not all the girls wanted to be look charming on you, Latrelle. Don't be assuming." I said disappointedly and blew the soup.
"She's always taking a picture on our team, and why she doesn't pictured T.H team instead," He stopped about what he have said.
"It's okay even if you'll mention his name many times." Latrelle pulled his chair towards me, turning his gazed on mine. I avoided that gaze. I remember something about that kind of stare.
"I thinked we need to be faster. I'm sleepy, and you're possibly hunted by your friends"
He nodded about what I said and ate continuously. After that we've watched to rest. My eyes can't help not to be close, while watching the tevision series. I can't stopped the sleepiness I have. The last moment I remembered is that Latrelle walked towards me and catched my head.

My back laid on a soft bed, but my system is really tired, my eyes remained close. Then, opened it a little bit, watched how Latrelle covered my body using the blanket. Outting my phone at the side of the bed. He walked carefully, and slowly closed the door.
The next morning, I woke up because of the loud ringtone of my cellphone. Doesn't able to talky opened my eyes because of the dirt on my eyelid.
'Maybe it's Jez or Melissa" I uttered, while removing the dirt on my eyelid. Instead take a look around the room. The room is painted by color blue, as well as the curtain. I held my chest because I suddenly remembered what happened last night, and cleared my throat like there's a stone on it.
Everything flashback on mind. If it's only possible to sleep for my entire life I already did that, only not to remember the pain again. I weakedly picked up my phone for the second time it rang, and looked who's the caller. Why does my cousin calling earlier in this morning this time?
"Sis, Lolita is on the hospital! You need to come back here!" He exclaimed. I trembled abiut what he said , and like I was thrown by a cold water.
"Sis! We need you! I didn't said it earlier because I thinked we can. Lolita is here in the hospital 2 days from now. She's looking for you, sis!" Lucky's voice have been broken from the other line.
"Okay. I'll headed back today! Okay, I'll be ending this call so that I can fixed my thing. "
"Okay, Sis. Take care!" He said until I ended up the call.
I hurriedly fixed the bed, and didn't even said goodbye to Latrelle's family, and instead informed the maids about what happened then rode a tricycle. It's good that Wyn is cleaning the front yard, so he paid my transportation. His eyes felt confuse the moment I thanked him because of what he did.
I packed my things, and have a heart attack when Wyn stood in front of me. "Where are you going?"
"I needed to go because of Lolita's condition. I hope you'll understand, and I know the others will understand it too." He heaved a deep sigh, and help me on what I'm doing.
"We can't find another liked you," He said after he zipped my luggage bag.
"Oh! That's impossible! Jez knows a lot!" I tapped his shoulder.
"Oh! Okay. I'll change my clothes now. Will you please come outside first." Wyn moved out my luggage. I wore a shirt and a skinny jeans. I opened the door of my room and this time it's not Wyn who's standing in front of me but also Latrelle.
He's still wore his pajamas, and the hair is messy. Latrelle is running out of his breathe, while his back laid on the wall. "I'll take you to the airport" He said, and take my luggage on Wyn's hand.
"No, I can managed" I was about to take off my things in him, but he didn't gave it.
"For the last chance, Kaoree. Please allowed me." Wyn's eyes met mine, and he just shrugged his shoulder. "Okay! But on one condition, treat me a breakfast!"
"Okay, porridge girl! No problem!" He messed up my hair.
After he have changed his clothes, he took me at the airport. I didn't have informed our other friends.
Because I know they are still sleeping. I decided that I'll just inform them once I've arrived, for them not to worry anymore. I'm sure that once I landed at the province, they are already awake.
Latrelle hugged me tightly for the last time, and Wyn did that too at the house a while ago. They keep telling me that I should take care. Once I've rode the airport, the painful feelings I have suddenly went gone a little. But everything went hard the moment I looked at the view from here.
I ensured that once I've turned back here, I'm totally fine, and smiled for myself. Putting the earphone at my ear and take a nap.
Every passenger rode the plane off after 2 hours. He welcomed me, and made a banner for me as a little effort "Sis!" He hugged me tightly.
"I'll be heading at the hospital. I wanted to see Lolita already." He nodded, and didn't fooled me. The way is a half hour from here onto the hospital, so I was like an unfreshed vegetable.
"Just a while, sis. The doctor said the result of her test. Lolita's condition is critical" Lucky informed me, while we're hurriedly went on grandma's room.
The arm of Lolita isn't the usual anymore. She tried to smile but I felt the saddness on her small eyes. I hugged him and she hugged me back.
"Kaoree, I have a favor for you before I'll totally go," She hugged me off.
"Would you live yere until I'll be gone?" I know that it's hard for me to not study at the rural anymore. It's also hard for me that I don't know if I'll see T.H again and my other friends. But I surely know that my family needs me a lot.
"Yes, Lolita. Besides don't say that. You aren't lesving the world yet," I kissed her on the forehead, and my tears fell down at the corner of my eyes.