I was struck Ma’am Cassandra’s voice rose the next morning when I went to BSE. She’s been screaming for a while now but my eyes are just blank. I still can’t imagine how it’s possible to deal with Cormac today.
    “I really don’t get Gelo. Yesterday, we were just talking about plan. They are okay with the schedule. But now they’ll suddenly cancel it?! Those people really don’t have a word to say.” Her mouth does not stop. She must be really annoyed that the team won’t whip us today.
    Since there is already a contract, the process is continuous. After the interview, there will be a meeting for the shooting of the documentary, discussing all the points, reminders, etc.
    I have already made a report about what I found out earlier, and I have passed it on to them. It will be easy for scriptwriters to fix everything. It won’t be long for maybe a month or two before we shoot.
    This is really the plan for the AFA. It’s like we haven’t slept for months. The whole BSE is competitive in this competition so imagine the pressure that I can feel right now.
    Addition to that is my bad relationship with Cormac. We don’t have a day that we don’t quarrel every time we meet.
    Restart. I have to start all over again first. I should forget everything that happened, things that Cormac and I fought back then — for AFA.
    “Did the big boss put down a job? As in, now, really? Were they told overnight? That’s not possible! What about this AFA? This should be a priority! ”
    “When are they going?” I asked, so that the person I’m talking to can breathe.
    “By next week,” the Editor-in-Chief shouted.
    “Next week? What the fuck is this? It will take a long time for the briefing! The events have not even been completed yet.” 
    I sighed and turned to Ma’am Cassandra. There is nothing we can do right now.
    We can’t function properly. We need them.
    “Don’t worry. I’ll just make my way in a week. I’ll take care of Mr. Carter. I will try to get more information about the man. Tell them I’ll make a report at the end of this week. We’ll just do it that way, Ma’am. We can’t wait another week, ” I said bluntly. I saw that the woman had stared at me and then took her phone and typed.
    “You can go now. Call me right away when there’s a problem, okay? Don’t stress yourself too much. ”
    I didn’t stay long in the office either. Just a few minutes later, I was in the car and driving when I received a call from Kuya Jac. 
    “What’s up?”
    “Where are you?” I put the cellphone I was holding away from my ear and then checked if it was really my older brother who was talking. Silly, he knows I’m at work, but he’ll ask more questions.
    “I’m on my way to C.C—”
    “Are you really going to do that, Avery?”
    Here we go again. “Hey. . . ”
    “All I want is the best for you, Av. I know your project with that Cormac will not be okay. Can’t you listen to me? ”
    I quickly parked the car when I arrived at the C.C Cars building. I understand what my brother is saying, but I can’t back down now. We run out of time so I will never waste chances again.
    I need to do this — not just for myself but for BSE as well.
    “I’ll call you later. I’m sorry, ” I blurted, then hung up. I couldn’t wait for him to answer. I know guilt will creep me out, but I have to stand up for everything. Whatever my older brother fears, I will make sure that that doesn’t happen.
    Upon entering the building, I gave Jessica a wave. I hurried straight to Mr. Carter’s office.
    “This day should be a productive one,” I repeatedly whispered to myself.
    We still have very little information on Cormac, but if we just do it right away, we will have a longer documentary. The facts are enough. We just need to focus on the story inside.
    “Avery!”
    I turned the doorknob and saw Cormac and Levi talking intensely on the sofa. When Levi saw me, he approached me quickly. “Glad to see you here. How are you? ”
    I am telling you all; Levi is way better than this rugged Cormac.
    I returned the smile. “The preparation for AFA is stressful, so I can’t say that I am okay.”
    I simply turned into Cormac. The man looked at Levi and me and frowned again.
    After a few minutes of talking, Levi bid goodbye, saying he has a lot of work to do. He even told me to have a few drinks or dinner the next time we meet. 
    “We need to work today, Mr. Carter. ” I rolled my eyes when the man didn’t even turn to me. 
    Here he is again. I can’t understand what he’s doing anymore. 
    “My team can’t go now, but we’ll promise to finish all what we need to do. I’ll make sure, before the weekend, they can brief what to do–”
    “Rest,” he said, sparingly and bluntly. 
    I honestly wanted to laugh. How could I possibly rest throughout the day?
    I don’t have a team, but I have to come up with plans on my own.
    “What?” 
    I can’t believe he said that.
    “Use my bedroom there–” I didn’t even look at what his hand was pointing at. “We won’t do anything until lunch so you better rest.”
    I closed my eyes, controlling the irritation. “Are you kidding me?”
    “Half day’s work or no work at all, Miss Taylor?” he said with a smile, happy that I can’t do anything about what he wants.
    I  can no longer answer. I rushed to the room there without looking at him again.
    As if I could sleep right now.
    I did everything to fall asleep after my embarrassment last night, but I didn’t either.
    I quickly became interested in the place when I saw how clean that room was. Everything is neatly and nicely stacked.
    The things were classified into what kind they were. Paper on paper, the boxes in the box. Everything.
    My eyes dropped to a picture there. Everything’s on their own frames, but one just sits alone on the bedside table.
    It was a picture of a big, grinning boy. I easily identified him as Cormac. His thick eyebrows and very pointed nose stand out.
    It was as if all my thoughts were gone. I seem to have forgotten the annoyance with the man I was just talking to.
    His cheeks here were so fluffy — it was as if his teeth were swollen up to an oversized size. I laughed at the thought.
    I quickly rotated the picture, exposing myself to the letter that was on the back of it. It was written in pink ink.
    I quickly rubbed my forehead, feeling a sudden headache before reading what was written there.
    “Mac,
    You should never forget this day. You’re my boyfriend now. The nanny said that I should be with a man that I want to see every day. And that’s you. Bye, boyfriend!
    Abe. ”
    With a ragged headache, I quickly slipped the photo into my bag I was carrying before dropping myself on the bed there.
    This is not good. I’m too self-deprecated and exhausted. I just need to sleep here. I’ll just take a nap. Then, I will work again.
    I am always afraid to have headaches, for I was often rushed to a hospital afterwards.
    I closed my eyes quickly and calmly. I will only rest for a moment. . . then, I will finish the job.
    This is for myself and for BSE.
    “Avery. . . Avery!”
    Sweating profusely and terrified, I turned out of bed when I woke up again that day. In front of me is Cormac, who also looks worried about me.
    I could not understand the dream. I couldn’t understand why it was repetitive and never left my mind.
    “Avery, talk to me. Are you okay? Do you need something? ”
I dreamed of that unknown man again. It wasn’t the first time, but I still couldn’t see his face properly.
    “I. . . I need my memories. . . Cormac, I need my memories! ”