(First Person's PoV)
It was so bright that I could not see anything. The sun was brisking too much and scorching to the skin so I covered my face with my arm but after seconds later, the feeling was gone and the brightness lessened.
I wandered my eyes and I found myself inside a garden, standing from the side. The pink roses were in its peak, blooming so beautifuly and its petals were glittering under the sun. The scent of the fresh pink roses invaded my nose and it calmed me down confusingly.
It felt soothing to the nerves and felt so real but I did not know why like I was already used inhaling this scent just like my eyes seeing this wonderful scene infront of me.
I inhaled the scent I felt like I was longing to. Sadness suddenly crept into my chest for I did not know the reason but then, I heard a sweet and lovely voice from my back like it was calling for me and that caught my attention.
"Hey!" my head instantly turned behind me and I saw a girl not too far away from and just few years younger than me, smiling at my directiin so sweetly that I almost could not see her eyes because of her lips, grinning from ear to ear, showing her white and perfect teeth.
I could not seem to look away from her. Her silver hair were being mildly blown away by the summer wind. Her red eyes almost seemed to be jewels like the most precious and expensive rubies in the whole Empire.
My heart throbbed faster and faster than the usual and I felt sudden happiness that I could not explain. What was this? What was happening to me? I could feel my whole face burning, from my head, ears and down to my neck as if I was being drawn towards her.
She was holding a parasol in her hand and leaned to her left shoulder, she was holding a bunch of pink roses in the other hand as she offered it to me with a smile, leaning closer to my face from below.
"For you.~" she said happily in a singsong tone. I saw my hands reached for the flowers and patted the woman's head even if I did not moved a single limb. I did not do it but I could tell that it was my arms. Was this a dream? What a nice and pleasant dream it was...
She grinned at me while looking up to me. Her smile suddenly vanished and looked at me with a serious face for seconds before flashing a sad smile.
"You still do not remember me from the past, do not you? But that is okay. I still love y-." her words were cut. I saw her lips moved to say the last word but I did not heard it as if I became deaf for a moment.
"What?" I asked her but for the same time, the surrounding faded in a blink.
Wait. What was happening now? Where would this dream take me? What was it showing me?
I heard a clocked ticked so loud from behind. Again, I turned around.
I was startled on the the sight where the dream brought me that made me took a step back. I was like in a realm, everything was frozen in a red color, as red as blood. Infront of me was a thing used for beheading and someone was in that thing. A guillotine.
From her clothes, she seemed like a maiden, her dress was soaked in blood, her wrists were cuffed and arms were full of wounds and bruises. Where did she got it?
What really terrified me was seeing her kneeling on the ground with her neck between the blades and her head detached -rolling on the ground- after taking a closer look. Her white -silver hair that had been cut with her head was scattered aound her.
Instead of feeling dread, I felt something intruded my chest. It was unbearing as if my breath would be cut suddenly. I did not just felt sad but pain. Pain in my chest. My eyes welled up for I could not fathom the reason why.
It was so painful that I clutched my chest and shut my eyes.
My chest was aching from the sight. The face of the person beheaded was the same person I saw in the garden.
Was she really the woman? What happened to her to end up pitifully like that?
Why... Why was it hurting this much?
Who was she in my life?
I could not make myself look away from the head on the floor until her ruby eyes moved... and looked at me directly.
I immediately woke up in reality. It was still dark but I could feel my self sweating too much even its still winter and tears were flooding my eyes which I found so odd.
What...was that dream about?
I sat up from lying on the bed and covered both of my eyes to wipe the tears that was dripping so hard. Something feels off.
I stopped brushing my eyes with my palms and I found out what was off.
My tears just would not stop from rolling for no specific reason.
I tried to remember what I dreamt about and the woman's face clearly flashed inside my mind but I could not picture it out well.
My chest became heave as if someone or something was pinning me. I clenched my chest while panting heavily.
Why was I crying? What was wrong with me? Why did it hurts so much? What was with that woman to make someone cold like me cry like this for no reason?
I could sincerely feel the sadness, the longing, mourning, anger and the pain all in the same moment. That made my chest heavier. I felt like crying more.
I let myself cry out for the whole night while I kept asking myself 'why'.
Why was I crying?
Why am I feeling this odd emotions?
I tried so hard to remember the woman's face from my dream but as the night goes by, I slowly forgot what she look like, the color of her eyes and her hair but it left me weeping.
It was like magic that made me suddenly forgot about her features but then, the feeling did not vanished.
The lingering emotion I felt since I went inside that dream was still here. I could perfectly remember the scenes but I did not remember the woman's feature anymore. All I know was she was too beautiful, lovely and sweet to look at
I spent the entire night weeping for no specific reason until my eyes were swollen and my throat dried up and I was left staring outside where the moon shones brightly.
The feelings were still inside my chest and it was like that the emotions were already buried and engraved to my heart that I know for sure, I would need to bear it until the rests of the years and carry it for the rest of my life.