The conversation with Steve did a lot of great deed for me, it boosted my mental health and confidence which had an improved positivity on my physical health and outlook, I still can't decipher how Steve manage to dig up words that comes with the moment, something that feels quite easy going for him, someone you can run to when you are feeling less motivated. Can I be like Steve or Mr Peter one day?, Maybe. The opportunity that I got to leave under the same roof with them will have a great effect in my life, all that's left is for me to accept change.
     With eyes fixed on the English teacher standing in front of the class, I can see some nervous movements of her body, feeling quite uncomfortable and nervous the way I fixed my eyes on her, she looks away and back to me every time, probably wondering what came over me. It's fun for me, I find it fun stareing right into her eyes, she's our teacher, so I am not wrong using her to learn how to maintain my eye contact, that's actually what she's paid for, teaching us.
     “ Ben!..... Take this ”. Steve called to my attention, he was sitting behind me, making me to lose focus on my game with our English teacher, I took the piece of paper he offered me and got my hands under the desk so as to open up the paper.
( Can you make yourself available after the class, I wish to speak with you privately?).
I know the owner of the hand writing, I turned to her immediately I was done reading the content inside the piece of paper, she was looking back at me, worries written on her face. Is she trying to bait me?, Maybe she's trying to take her games to the next level, acting up and trying to pretend as a victim for something, that's girls for you, that's what they do, something they are perfect with, manipulation.
     The door to our class room was opened, as our coach came into the class with two policemen behind him, what's going on?, I asked myself, expecting no answer, the only person my eyes went back to was on Rose, checking to see if she's safe concerning the sudden scene playing right in front of us. Our coach was speaking with the English teacher while the policemen fixed there eyes on all of us, looking around as if they were in search of someone or something. 
“ Okay, you can go with him and make sure to get him back quickly after they are done with their questions ”, “ thanks ”. He greeted the English teacher for her cooperation before turning towards me, “ Ben come with us, we will need some moments of your time ”.
     “ No, the last time I saw him was when he walked off the hospital, I have been on the lookout for him ever since, with an expectation that I can possibly come across him one day ”.
“ Okay, we just came to you because we saw a lead or I can actually say he left a clue on his whereabout, here's the note we saw, you can read it when you deem worthy to, it was kinda his last wish or something, and we decided to make sure it came through..... We are going to be on our way now ”.
     I know, I expected it to happen, I even knew it had already happened already, but I decided to overlook it, I decided to place something else in mind, something that would take him off the picture, something that would make me feel good with his absence, but I guess you can never run from reality, it will continue to chase after you until it hits you, until you give up running. I stood outside the hallway waiting for Rose, she wanted to meet with me and I think it's about this already, I already know.
     I shouldn't act all pity towards her, it would bring up painful memories and watching her cry is something I don't wish for, I don't want her to be in pain in a way I can't help her.
“ I guess they already told you, I tried making them keep away from you, but they were actually the ones who knew what happened, so they are to do as they pleased just to make his wish come to pass ”.
I went to her, my hands around her as I gave her a hug, I should be the rock, her rock, I should be the one protecting her not the other way round, she's trying to look out for me but I should be the one looking out for her.
“ I am sorry Rose, I am truly sorry ”.