NOLAN
After Olive left that day, I sent some guards after her to confirm she got home safely. I returned to my room to have some rest. I thought I would be able to sleep but I couldn't. I was bothered about Olive and wondered if she went home straight or visited somewhere else. I wondered if she was ok. I kept pacing around my too. Nigel did not show up too and I wondered if he was furious I did not stop Olive from leaving.
I waited for the guards to come back and tell me if Olive has gotten home or not. The guards returned some hours later to tell me she got home safely. They told me she wanted at a nearby bus station for an Uber to come to pick her up before she headed home. They said they had to wait for a while to be sure she wasn't going to leave the packhouse. After confirming, they had returned to tell me. Hearing that, I felt at ease.
It was good to hear that she has gotten home. I knew she needed time to sort things out. She needed time to heal up and I am ready to give her space.
**
After Olive left without a word, she never showed up. Days passed and I thought one day, she will walk into my room and tell me she was joking. I had thought Bella or Ella will run up to me to tell me Olive is back. I thought I would be seeing her soon but she never showed up. And as Bella had said when Olive left, I became her enemy. She tried as much as she can to avoid me. And as much as I tried to talk to her, she ignored me.
Ella, like Bella, avoided me too. I hardly see her around and I kept wondering if she left too. Nigel stayed with me most of the time but anytime I tried to bring up the topic about Olive or me, being the ruthless alpha, he always change the topic. He never said anything about Bella and Ella avoiding me. He never said anything about Duncan knowing the truth or not.
Though I healed up quickly and could move freely, everywhere was still dull. It was dull than it used to be. And no matter how hard I tried to make the place lively, none worked out. I could not go to see Martin too. I was careful not to draw attention. I stayed in my room most of the time or go to my alpha's office in the packhouse to attend to matters about the pack.
I couldn't go to the company, cause everything I touched and see there, reminded me so much about Olive. Everything had her scent and I could not concentrate at work. A part of me wanted to go to the mountain pack to talk to her, but my pride wouldn't let me. She should be the one to come back to the fire pack. She broke her promise, not me. She was the one who promised to stay with me, but she left without saying why. She left without fulfilling her promise. There was no way I will go to her. No way.
**
"Don't you think you should go to the mountain pack?" Nigel said, after so many days of keeping silent. "Don't you think you need to go and see Olive?"
"Why should I do that?. She doesn't want to have anything to do with us. That's the reason she left..."
"No. She left because you never cared. She..."
"You of all people know how much I cared about her. You know how much I loved her. She broke her promise. She left when she promised she had protected me. How else does she want me to show her how much I care about her?. If there is anyone who doesn't care, that's her!!!"
"Do you ever need protection, Nolan?. Do you?"
I shrugged. "What are you trying to say?"
"You know what I mean. And in as much as I don't want to talk about it, you know what it meant. I will advise you to go and see her. You broke her heart. You lied to her. Though I get you might have your reason for keeping it a secret and I respect your decision, I think you both should iron things out between each other. That's all I can say"
I stared at Nigel. He knew about it as I predicted. Olive told him about it but he decided to pretend he doesn't know. He decided to keep quiet. What else does he know about me but has decided to keep quiet about?. What is his reason for keeping quiet?. He said he respected my decision. He said he get that I might have a reason for keeping it a secret. I sighed. "Nigel, I'm sorry..."
"If you are sorry, go to the mountain pack and bring Olive back"
I batted my lashes. "But she doesn't want to stay. I don't think she wasn't to come back here"
"You never can tell, Nolan. Just go. That's the only way you can get Bella to forgive you"
I sighed. "I will go tomorrow"
"Tomorrow might be too late"
I groaned. "Ok. I will go get dressed". I stood up. "You're coming with me right?"
"No. It's your cross. You have to carry it alone"
"You gave me the advice to go"
"That's because it is the right thing to do"
"Is going with me not supposed to be the right thing to do?"
"Not in this case". He poked me. "Go, go, go"
I groaned. "Ok?"
"Good"
**
I was dressed and ready to leave for the mountain pack. I saw the advice as a good one, though I felt going over there wasn't necessary. She might not welcome me. What if she told her parent I am the ruthless alpha and they don't welcome me when I get there?. What if her pack members are so afraid of me that they won't let me come in. So many thoughts ran through my mind.
I shrugged off the feeling and headed to the mountain pack. I left the packhouse with two guards. The drive there was silent. I kept thinking of what to say to her when I get there. Was I supposed to tell her how sorry I am?. Was I supposed to tell her the reason I can not tell her why I hide my identity?. Or maybe I should just tell her everyone wants her back and that she should return without having to tell her why I kept my identity secret.
I brushed my hair backward. Olive is not the kind of girl that I can tell that to. I will have to tell her everything she needs to know before she will accept to come with me. What if she says no?. What if after telling her everything, she still wants to stay back?. I wasn't ready to tell her my reason for keeping two identities. I was not ready to accept that I am the ruthless alpha yet. I needed to find the packs from the northern hemisphere first. They will help me find Salvador.
I needed to take revenge for my parents' death. And to do that, nobody must know my real identity. Nobody can know that I am the ruthless alpha. I sighed. Why do I have to be in a situation like this?. I have never thought a time will come when my secret will be open. I had thought if my secret gets open, it will be Nigel who will find out first or maybe Bella or Duncan. But Olive finding out is the least I except.
"We are here, alpha," the chauffeur said
I sighed. "I will step out now. You should stay in the car"
"Ok, alpha"
I headed to the packhouse. I was welcomed and ushered to the living room. "You should have your sit"
I smiled. "Thanks," I said and sat down. "Is Olive around?" I asked. The two ladies standing in front of me stared at each other. I wondered what was going on?. "Is she not home?"
"O-of course she is. I will go get her" one of the ladies who came to attend to me said and left immediately before I could say a word.
"And I will tell the luna you're here. She will join you, soon," the other one answered, and walked briskly after the first
I sighed. Is there something going on? That I don't know?. I waited for a while before the luna, Olive's mother showed up. "Nolan, how have you been?"
I stood up to greet her. "I'm fine ma'am. How have you been too?"
"I'm fine. Sit"
I sat down. "I haven't seen Olive. Is she not home?"
She smiled. "She did not tell you?. She left for her uncle's pack this morning. Don't you both talk on the phone?. Or is there something going on?"
I smiled. She did not tell her mom about it. "We are good. It must have escaped her mind to tell me this morning"
She nodded. "I guess so. She was such in a hurry"
I could tell she left the mountain pack because she knew one of us would come over to see her and maybe persuade her to come back to the fire back. She doesn't want that, and that was the reason she left the pack in a hurry. I sighed and stood up. "Ma'am, I was only passing by and I stopped to say hi to her. I will get going"
She smiled. "You should take care of yourself"
I nodded. "And you too"
As I left the mountain pack, one thing kept running through my mind. "She doesn't care!!!"
If she does, she would have returned to the fire pack instead of running away.