I peeked at him, as I blinked my eyes, hoping it was a trance, but it was not.
"A confession?", I asked
" Yes, but you need to rest. I'm leaving now since I have a lecture. I will inform your assistant that you are sick", he said, shocking me again.
I thought he wanted to confess something. He is…. I couldn't find the right word to describe him. He placed me well on the bed, as he covered me with a blanket.
He later went out, closing the door, bringing nothing but making my heart go crazy. I would have been able to stop Joseph from getting attracted to me but, I guess it was impossible.
This feeling of mine feels like a plague, tormenting me everywhere. It would have been best if I am attracted to the same sexes, and not vice versa. Joseph almost raped me, that alone sends every part of my brain spinning. My eyes started closing, as I gave in to sleep.
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I felt strengthened as I could not help but prepare a homemade snack of pancake after taking my bath. I turned off the gas and placed the pancakes in a cooler.
Placing the cooler and some serving plates on the table, I heard the knock from the door. I brace myself toward the door as I open it to receive the faces of my friends as they swarmed in hugging me.
"I need space. Almost out of oxygen", I said as Abigael and Joy released me from their grip.
" Sorry", Joy mouthed, as we shared a laugh.

I glanced slightly at the door to notice it was empty.
"Don't mind the boys. They had to attend to something very important, but you are free to cut off their legs when they come", Abigael commented, probably referring to Shola, Tosin, and Chris.
" Hope you are feeling better", Joy asked, both of them sitting on the bed as I moved to bring the pancakes.
"Yeah, just malaria", I said half truthfully, as I felt a bitter taste in my tongue remembering what triggered it.
" Good, make sure you rest or you will make Abigael worry too much", Joy said, making me smile, as Abigael slapped Joy's arm as her face flushed instantly.
"Don't mind Joy, she is just sassy", Abigael said, as Joy ate a part of the pancake.
" Great. I will keep quiet for a while. Hands up. I won't reveal the secret", Joy said as we all laughed.
We all continued talking for over two hours. They later left not without commenting on how delicious it was. They finally left around 2 pm.
Flipping through Practical Chemistry, I could not help but keep zoning out. My mind was not at it as I wondered what kind of confession Joseph wanted to say. What if he has feelings for me and wants us to date," I could not help but think of something like that.
Brushing off my thoughts, I decided to write down my experiences so far in my diary. As I started penning down my thoughts, the knock from the door stopped me as I opened the door.
The door opened revealing Joseph looking different, especially in black trousers with a blue round neck and a black jacket to match.
"Can I come in?" He asked as I nodded, opening the door wider, as he walked in, his cologne entering my nostril, giving me a different sensation.
As much as I still want to get angry at him for forcing himself on me, I still can't help but marvel at his handsome self. His tall and well-built body, with his great charisma that enveloped me whenever he is around me. This attraction is killing me. I wish it would stop.
Closing the door, I turned as I face him.
"Urm, how are you feeling?", he asked.
" Much better. Thanks for taking care of me. Things would have become worse for me if you did not come to my aid", I appreciated him.
"You don't need to thank me. I was the one at fault. I triggered your emotions. I'm sorry I forced myself on you. I hope you forgive me", he said, nervousness and sadness obvious on his face.
I pulled his hand as we both sat on the bed.
" I have forgiven you. To be honest, I never expected you to do that. It scared my life away. I hope history never repeats itself", I comforted him, seeing his sober self for quite the second time within the time we have known each other.
Holding my hands, I could not help but feel a shiver down my body.
"I need to tell you something. Will you forgive me?", he asked, my mind altered by his words.
I could not help but wonder why he still needs my forgiveness.
" I have..", I could not complete my statement as he interrupted me.
"I have done something bad to you apart from yesterday's incident. I..", his voice quivered as he looked at me.
" Hey, calm down. You have not done anything wrong", I tried to reassure him, seeing his nervous side for the first time in my life.
"Promise to forgive me first", he demanded.
" I promise", I said, knowing how persistent he can be.
"I was battling with my feelings for you when you decided to stop tutoring me. I thought of making you fall for me instead", he explained, biting his lips a bit.
" What do you mean by making me fall for you?"I could not help but ask, trying not to accept what came to my mind.
He stood up, his eyes looking up to the ceiling.
"The day I caught you staring at me. I took a bet to which my friends supported me. They told me that it is possible you were gay because you behave like a girl. I accepted to make you fall for me and make you have sex with me on camera", he explained as my body trembled, tears streaming down my eyes.
The next thing I did was to stand up and slap him for being so deceitful.
" You are animalistic. I can't believe you took such a bet. You are unbelievable.", I started angrily.

He held me as I tried to remove my hands but was unable.
"I know you hate me but please listen to me", he pleaded as I calmed down.
" I felt that you were falling for my charms, not until you stopped our tutoring, which almost thwarted my plan. I came up with another idea of being sick and reckoned in mind that once you come, that will give me the 100% guarantee that you are attracted to me", he explained further, making me remember what he discussed with his friends when I went to give the attendance to my assistant.
The words of Joseph telling his friends that he will report back to them. And his friends inform him that if he fails, there is a dire consequence to it. At that time, I thought he wanted to break a girl's heart but he wanted to make me fall for him, take my virginity and get it in video recording. How disgusting of him.
"I know I am stupid for what I did. I'm sorry. I never wanted to stop that act yesterday but hearing your feeble voice made me stop. Few seconds after you left, I felt emptiness, guilt all over me.
I knew I shouldn't have done that but please forgive me. I realized that I have fallen deeply for you. You have always been on my mind since yesterday. All my thoughts surround you. Please forgive me", he begged.
I never knew whether I should laugh or cry. The fact that he is now caught in his web makes me glad that he would soon have much to deal with. Chris's warning came to my head " What if you are played? Stay away from boys", he warned but I never listened to him.
Sniffling, I looked at him as his eyes were brimming with tears.
"What is the dire consequence if you failed to have me on video?", I asked, ignoring his previous words
" I am not going to have you on video. I…",
"Just answer my question", I cut him off, trying not to feel too agitated.
" If I fail, that only means I have fallen for you. I have to stay away from you for the rest of my days in the university", he said bowing his head slightly.
I looked at him, a smirk at the corner of my lips, as I removed my hands from his. I headed towards the door as I opened it.
"Then get out as well as out of my life", I bellowed, as he walked out of the door looking downcasted which I don't care about.
I let the door close as I bent down, tears streaming down my face.
How I wish my life was not like this.