Am I still angry at him? Well, I can't say for sure. I felt angry at him because he tried to force himself on me. Getting to know about the bet left my head spinning because he wanted to have me on video.
But Chris's words touched me so I have forgiven him.
"I'm not angry at you", I said, sparing him a glance.
He moved closer as he stood in front of me.
" I am sorry for everything. For threatening you with the video. I…",
"Stop it. I understand. You are attracted to me and you were finding it difficult to control the new feeling. In the process, you thought it would be best if we both engage in sexual conduct to control the sexual urges", I explained everything that I feel was the reason behind his actions.
His face dropped, as he sat on one of the stools with a sour expression.
" I never expected I would develop anything for you. And If possible I said some things while drunk yesterday, They are all true", he said, his eyes looking elsewhere.
"I believe you. It is always said that when a person is drunk, they tend to amplify the deepest feeling in their hearts", I stated, looking at his confused self.
" Enough with the talk about me, don't you have any orders today? I mean the peanuts and the other snacks. Let us get to work. Today might be the last time I will talk to you, I need to spend it wisely", he said with a sad tone, causing my throat to run dry for a moment.

The only thing that came to my mind was the bet he made. If he could not get to make me fall for him and also have a video of us in that obscene act, then he would have to avoid me for the rest of his days in the university.
"I understand. We should eat first, right? I'm hungry", I said as he chuckled.
We spent the rest of the day making some snacks including peanuts. I must confess he is more professional and good at this, I thought, getting mesmerized again by his acts. I could not but wish in my heart that he did not make such a bet. At least, we would still be friends. He has to face the consequences, I guess. Holding a grudge against him won't help, he already has a lot on his plate.
*****
"I feel so tired", I yawned sitting on the bed, completely worn out.
" Seriously? You only did like 20% of the work. I did almost everything", Joseph said as I sneered.
"Hmm, Thank you Mr. Knight In Shining Armour", I teased as he sat beside me, causing my heart to skip a bit.
" I'm glad to help", he said, facing me.
I kept looking at him as he has some beads of sweat on his forehead giving him a more handsome look. My eyes made their way to his chest which was slightly exposed as two or three of the buttons were open.
"Michael, snap out of this", I could feel my inner mind telling me this. Unfortunately, I could not take my eyes away. I felt a kind of rekindling in my body. The feelings I had for Joseph that I thought were fading are coming back to life.
" Is there something you want to ask me?"Joseph probed, jotting me out of my fantasy as he moved his head closer to mine, as we were a few inches apart.
"Em, Urm. I.. I mean why did you behave weirdly when you woke up this morning?", I asked as his eyebrows creased.
He is probably surprised at my lack of making a sentence.
" Are you nervous?", he asked, moving closer to me, as I turned my face away.
"No", I answered as he chuckled, sending shivers down my body.
" Ok, about this morning, I was dumbfounded by the fact that I was in your room. I'm also afraid I might have developed morning breath", he said, whispering the last part as I laughed.
"Like seriously? I believe you", I said, trying not to be overdramatic.
" Okay. Have you made your decision about us", he said, his hand touching me as I flinched back a little.
"There is no 'US' Joseph. I can never be in a relationship with the same sex", I stated, as he has a sad expression.
" But isn't it obvious, you have feelings for me. I can see the way you look at me. You look at me with..", I raised my hand stopping him as I stood up in front of him.
"Just like the Apostle Paul, he said the spirit is willing but the body is weak. I might be attracted to you, filled with passion but my inner mind will continue to fight against it. I might be attracted to you but will not give in to my feelings, knowing fully well that with time, It will fade '', I explained, my heart beating fast like always, a huge part of me warring against what I said
He stood up In front of me as he looked at me.
" Are you sure about this? I can see that care and emotion in your eyes. Are you trying to stop what seems to be out of your control? You are only stabbing yourself the more", he said.
I don't blame him, especially when lust is obvious in his eyes.
"There are certain things a teenager can feel, Crush, Infatuation, and Attraction. There Is a big difference between love and lust. What I have is an attraction that will fade away with time. I am sure of that. You just have to control your feelings Joseph '', I explained, as he shook his head, frustration building in his body.
I stared at the handsome figure in front of me, emotions I could not control flowing down my body. He held my hand as he looked intently into my eyes.
" Michael, let us do this, no one will know about this. I have been dying of the feelings I have for you. Please just say yes, I promise you won't regret it" he assured me as I felt a lump in my throat.
I am left with a choice, either to give in to my sexual desire or to control it. His eyes look pitiful, as I felt my body itching, my eyes almost betraying me as I scanned his body again. I am deeply attracted to him, and I wish there is something I can do to stop this whole drama.
He held my hand softly again, as I felt a gush down my spine, as I felt an assurance. Assurance to give in to this weird feeling even for just a moment. Maybe it is the right thing to do. Maybe not.
Looking at him, I made my final decision.
"I...
A\N: What do you think guys? What do you think is the best decision, giving in or self-control? The next chapter will be longer.