Getting home from my dad's pharmacy, I walked into my brother's room as his eyes were glued to a novel.
" Hey. Hope I am not disturbing you", I said, as I scanned his bedroom which was medium-sized with a bed, a study table and chair, and a wardrobe coupled with a bookshelf.
"No brother, You can join me", he said as he stood up, placing the novel on the bookshelf as he searches for something.
My eyes scrutinized the whole room, as it fell on a paper beside the study paper. I picked it up as I read through the contents of the paper leaving me speechless.
The paper explains the fantasy of a girl for my brother. Not only is she confessing her feelings for him, but she also wants them to be dating. My heart leaped as I read the writing of this girl who seemed rather poetic, as her wordings are crystal clear.
" Checking something out?", my brother's voice jolted me out of my reverie as I raised my head.
"Sorry, I guess I should not be reading someone else's letter", I said, placing the paper on the study table.
" No. I also wanted to show you when you came in. I received it from my female best friend and she said she would be expecting my reply tomorrow, at the school last day for this session", Mark said, as he sat on the bed.
"Do you like her?", I asked as he nodded.
" Yes, I do. She was the timid kind, more introverted when she came newly to our school. Being the Class Representative, I guided her in regards to the school and we became friends. Just seeing the letter freaks me out especially when she requested we started dating", Mark said, as he looked rather confused.
"Calm down. Teen feelings can only be controlled but cannot stop. It often revolves around crush, infatuation, or attraction. It seems you have a crush on her. Since such kinds of feelings seem imbalanced and might fade away, the teen relationship is tricky and might lead to heartbreak.
So being friends without compromising to dating will be better. Teen relationships will only revolve around kisses and hugs, instead of looking forward to the purpose of the relationship which is marriage. Remember that a relationship without the aim of marriage in the future is not a good one. Try to tell the girl Precious how you feel but be careful of the decision you want to go for", I counseled.
" I think I know what to do. I hope you don't mind if I dramatize how to tell her. I'm pretty nervous and scared I would hurt her feelings, I like her", Mark confessed.
"Saying the truth at the right time is the best. Even if she feels disappointed by your reply, she will recover faster compared to you beating around the bush with her. And yes, you can practice what you would like to say to Precious tomorrow", I said as he readjusted himself facing me.
" Precious, I appreciate the fact that you have feelings for me. The letter you wrote was heartwarming but I can't be in a relationship", Mark said, trying to keep his breath, nervousness setting in.
"I do have a crush on you. I realize that for us to be in a relationship, there are some things to be put into consideration. We are about to leave high school in a year. We are only 15 years old, and the relationship seems pointless, with no hope of getting married.
If I ever get to be with a well-behaved girl like you, I will much prefer to be older to decipher between true love and crush. I hope you understand. We can still be friends. Trust me when I say the feelings we have for each other will fade away with time", Mark said.
" Thanks for telling me your thoughts. You have been like a knight in shining armor since I came to this school. I hope that we can continue to be good friends. As for my feelings for you, I will try to get over them. Mark, you are wonderful", I concluded as Mark started blushing.
"Brother, have you acted before,? Wow, just seeing you say those words makes me feel I was talking to Precious. I hope she will reason in the way I reason. I will feel disheartened if she is not happy about it", Mark commented as I comforted him.
" Don't work yourself up. She is a girl and might need time to digest it. She will get over it and reason along with you", I said as he smiled.
"It is time to go to bed. Never forget the reality that the choice you make today is yours to make alone and not someone else.", I said as I got ready to leave.
" Roger that bro, but I have two questions for you", he stated calmly.
"Yeah, shoot me", I said as he chuckled.
" Has a girl ever confessed to you? Or do you have a girlfriend?", Mark asked, my throat almost dry, as I relaxed on the bed.

Abigael crossed my mind, and I am so happy things worked out well between us. She Is very understanding and mature. no relationship and no awkwardness in our friendship.
"A girl has confessed to me. The feeling was mutual but we never got into any relationship. We both discussed the whole thing and she understood. I hope Precious does too. Right now, we are still friends, good friends.
I don't have a girlfriend even tho I am over 19 years old. I will much prefer to pass my bloom of youth, the time when one's feelings are unbalanced", I answered truthfully.
" Thank you bro", Mark said as I left the room.
One thing I wished for is to pass my bloom of youth so that this WEIRD FEELING haunting would fade away. I have promised myself something.
Not until I am sure I am no longer attracted to the same sex, I will never get into a relationship with the opposite sex.
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A\N: KINDLY NOTE THAT THIS GENRE OF LGBT DOES NOT HAVE ANY ROMANCE. IT IS BASED SOLELY ON CONTROLLING FEELINGS TOWARD THE SAME SEX.