Days later, Lilian came into my house looking tired and worn out. Her hair was quite unkempt, with a mournful look and a pouted lips.
"Hello lovely!" I smiled at her just to keep her from the horrible look she is wearing. Only God knows what was eating her up.
"Life is making a mockery of me. I'm not fine at all. It's of no use pretending to be when I am confused." Lilian poured out her heart not mindful of how I will react. It's as if her heart had been torn in pieces and needed to have someone mend it for her. Talking about problems keeps one sane. Ability to push out pains heals a lot.
"I am lost here, baby. Don't know what you are talking about." I confessed lifting my hands up in surrender.
"Can you remember what my fiancee said the other day? He has been on my neck to flush out my baby that will soon be born. What selfishness! Kill an innocent child? He wasn't even considering my health. Who does that?" Lilian argued her point.
Now it's clear that John was a thorn in her flesh.
"Who is John to you?" I asked feeling better about the question.
"Gosh! I thought you remember the boy I fell for in the university. He was my first real love. It was love at first sight, but we lost contact because his parents went to Canada to stay. We've been communicating but suddenly he stopped talking to me. Now he resurfaced years after to claim possession of my life." She hissed.
"Well what matter is your desire. Do you love him?" I demanded gazing at him.
"Yes I do love him so very much." Lilian shared her voice laden with emotions. Her voice quavered.
"Wow, but do you love Phillip?"
"Hmm, yes I do but my love for John is stronger and more solid. I almost killed myself when he didn't call me for months. I later forgot the relationship between us when I met a guy who told me the truth about relationships.
"What did he say that convinced you to let him go." I asked.
"A lot of things that reset my brain."
"I'm curious baby girl. Share these things with me, please!!!"
"He met me at the supermarket and asked me to go out on a date with him. I refused him but he kept on pestering me until I became fed up. I retorted in anger.
"Leave me alone. Have I been speaking Greek that you failed to understand the phrase, "Leave me alone!"
"Give me a reasonable reason, then I will leave you alone."
"Okay I am hooked for life."
"Oh you mean that you are married? But please forgive my rudeness, but I can't see your ring."
"Because you are damn blind."
"Show me your certificate of marriage and I will leave you alone."
"Hmm, we have not yet gone to court but planning to do so, soon."
He staggered me with laughter. I was infuriated and turned to go away but he caught me off guard and started to kiss me on my lips. You needed to see how I responded to his caressing and kisses. Wow, he was damn too good at it. That was how my body betrayed me. You needed to see how he hissed at the end of the whole thing.
"You are a big dummy fool. The guy is yet to have you. Not at all.Its clear your body is starving, and the man has left you in the cold for sometime now. Forget him, he is not for you. "
"How do you mean?"
"Where is he now? When did he communicated last? Tell me please!".
"Well I don't know where he is but he travelled to Canada with his family and he is yet to talk with me."
"Please forget him. He is toying with your emotions. A man who truly cares will do everything to get in touch. His excuses notwithstanding."
I waited for John to surface but to no avail. Since he left he never looked back. Now he resurfaced and told me how he lost my contacts but later decided to come to UK after three years. Couldn't he have come all these years? What the guy told me calmed me down. I moved on."
"And you claim to love him?"
"Yeah I do but I don't know what to do with Phillip. I'm confused."
"How can you be this naive? A man who has left you for years suddenly comes back to destroy your beautiful relationship you are building. This is a wonder to me."
"Please girlfriend do not judge me. Old flames never dies easily. My love for him is ignited again and I can't just help it! Damn!" Lilian argued.
"Gosh, what the fucking hell is happening? Is this love? Is there no common sense again? Hmm. I will not judge you but will give you a chance to do whatever you want."
"Hey it's Phillip calling me. What should I tell him?" Lilian cried out!
I refused to answer her.