Ynnah
'Ynnah ... Ynnah'
I woke up from that call of someon's voice. A call coming from nowhere. Opening my eyes is the only darkness I can see. I am standing in eternal darkness.
It was a void, I'm sure of it. Nothing seems to exist in that darkness but demise.
But wait, what am I doing here?
'Ynnah ... Ynnah'
Again a voice called my name. It is a voice of a man. A man's voice who's unfamiliar to me.
I walked.
I was walking towards... Where?
No, I was not just walking.. but I am following someone.
Someone I don't know.
But why?
Why am I following him?
"Who are you?" I asked to someone. Someone I can't see. I can't see anything but darkness.
What's happening? What is this place? Why am I here?
Eros?
Where's Eros?
'There's no one in here except you and me,' said the voice in my head which made me taken a back.
He talked to me on my head?
"Who are you? Why can't you show yourself?" I said as I embrace myself in fear. "Why am I here? Where's Eros?" I added when something caught my attention.
There's a pair of white feet in my blurred vision.
Who is he?
Who is this someone?
Why am I following him?
"Surrender to life, woman." I heard that someone told me.
I was confused.
Why should I surrender to life? Am I fighting to life and death right now?
"What are you talking about?" I asked him once again with so much confusion in my while system.
I am not yet dead. I am still alive, so why should I surrender to life?
I was not hit by a bullet in any part of my body so why should I surrender?
"You're supposed to be dead, you're the one who supposed to be fighting in life and death!"
I was so shocked when Amanda's angry face suddenly appeared in front of me. Suddenly I sat on the ground and was very terrified.
"No!" I shouted as I covered my ears in so much frustrations and fear.
"Die!"
"Die!"
"Die!"
More and more voices surrounded me as I bent down and covered my ears out of sheer fear.
"Stop! Stop! Please, stop it!" I shouted.
But the voices keep on talking in my head. Suddenly my head ached as if it was going to break. And then in just a snap, Eron's face with his evil grin appeared out of nowhere.
"I will kill you!"
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"No!"I jerked from where I laid and gasped for breath.
"What's wrong?" Eros asked so worried as he sat beside me on the bed and gently tapped my back to calm me down.
I was breathing frantically because of that nightmare.
"I had a bad dream!" I admit as I begin to sob. "They wanted to kill me, Eros! They wanted to kill me!" I panicked.
"Shhh.. calm down, Francine. I don't want you going unconscious again," he said calmly while I can't help myself but to cry on his arms because of fear.
"Why did they wanted to kill me? I didn't do something wrong that will led them loathed me to death. I didn't do anything! Why me?" I couldn't help but to burst out in pain.
I had enough of these bullshits! It's making me paranoid and crazy! To think that people wanted me to die is so frustrating! I didn't even do bad things but there they are, planning to kill me. To take my life!
My line of thought was interrupted when Eros suddenly pulled me for a tight embrace. His arms were strong but gentle and warm enough to calm my troubled mind and heart. It was like he stopped the time for me. He immediately pulled me out of the abyss.
"You don't have to worry about that anymore. Amanda will going to pay the price for everything that she did," he said as his long fingers started to comb my hair, making me feel so relaxed that I even closed my eyes.
"What about Eron?" I asked out of nowhere before I pulled myself out of his embracing Ames and stared at his black-lackluster eyes.
"It is me, who he wanted. And you is the bait. But don't worry, Dad already did his moves to protect us. Especially you, from him."
I smiled.
I trust him.
I trust them both.
"Thank you." I said which made him show his beautiful genuine smile for the fourth time.
"You don't know how afraid I was when I saw you being taken away from me," he said expressing his regrets and reach out for my cheeks.
I closed my eyes to feel his warmth.
"I felt I fear on nothing and no one anymore. But during that moment, when I saw them took you away from me, all my fears suddenly came out. That maybe something bad will happen to you. I'm scared. I'm afraid that I will lose you. I'm afraid to think that I will going to lose you."
"Eros." I don't know what to say anymore. I felt speechless by now. I don't know what to react.
I felt so happy hearing those words from him, but I never knew that too much happiness could hurt you until now.
"From now on, I will never take my eyes off of you. Not anymore, Francine. Not anymore."
I bit my lower lip to prevent myself in smiling so wide because of the happiness and joy I felt right now.
Did I really heard him say those words?
The cold Eros Michael Sy is telling me how much he wanted to make me safe.
"I trust you, Eros."
"And I won't break that trust of yours. I promise. I won't let danger come near you again like that... I promise."
I smiled in contentment. Hearing his promises warmed my heart. It makes me feel secure. But then, I remember what happened before I lost unconscious. My anxiety immediately kicked up.
"Eros, where's my Mom and Dad? Are they safe?" I asked.
"They're both fine," he answered. "Your brother visited you earlier to check you, but he leave immediately because of something. And your parents do some important matters. You were unconscious for three days..."
Three days unconscious? But it seems like it was only a few hours.
"What about Xander?" I asked about my sister's younger brother which is my ex-boyfriend. "I saw it, Eros. I saw he was shot! On his tummy! There were bloods- lots of blood that came out from his tummy. Tell me, is he okay? He's alright, yeah? Can we visit him?"
Eros lips parted. It seems like he was having a hard time answering my questions. Well, why should he's having a hard time when it was only a simple question? He could straightly answer me with 'Yes, he's fine. You don't have to worry. We can visit him later'. As simple as that. But why he's giving me silence instead?
What's going on?
"Francine-"
"Tell me, Eros. He's fine right? Why can't you answer my question?" I asked him stuttering as I held him on his hand and stared at his eyes. Begging to tell me he's alright. "He's fine, right? Eros? Tell me, please he's fine?"
"Francine, listen. Listen to me," he tried to sound calm not to make me panic. "Xander tried so hard to fight for his life... He tried so hard, but-"
"But what? Tell me!" I couldn't help myself to raised my voice in frustrations.
"I'm sorry..."
My eyes widened as my gripping hands on his atm fell on my lap.
No..
I don't want to hear what he would say.
I can't!
It should be me..
"I'm sorry, but - he passed away yesterday at noon."
No!
My tears swiftly fall from my eyes as I hugged myself in so much grief.
It should be me...
Xander is being a good boyfriend to me before and a good friend too. He doesn't deserve any of this!
I don't love him but I felt so guilty because he save me from my supposed to be death.
It should be me on his place but- he's the one who was shot by that gun!
And now, he passed away.
He passed away because of me.