"I'm coming; just wait for me."
I breathed out as I hung up. I rushed to put my notes into my backpack, as I had completely forgotten about Ren. Well, not that I have to care since he was the one who decided to stop being friends.
"Is that Koby?"
I can't help but feel surprised by how he sounded. I don't know if I was being delusional again, but he sure sounds jealous. I don't know, ugh. I just nodded in response, since I don't feel like I need to tell him about it.
"Can't you stay? Please."
The moment Ren said those words as he held onto my arm, I was speechless, and this is not the time to be nervous. Koby needed me right now, and as someone who has known him for so long, I have to be next to him right now. But I don't know why Ren makes me hesitate. But then again, he can't make me do anything after making me wait for him without explaining what happened.
"I can't. He needed me."
I replied as Ren continued to look at me as if he were hurt by what I said. Tell me, why did you make that kind of expression when you don't even have any feelings for me? You're the one who started to avoid me. You're the one who acts like we're not even friends. So why am I supposed to care about what you think right now? 
I hate this so much.
"I need you too. Please don't leave."
Ren begged as he pulled my hand. Shit, what is happening? Why did he look so desperate? Why is he acting like he might have fallen for me or something?
He makes me so confused.
"I can't do this right now. Can't you just let go?"
I sigh in frustration as he seems taken aback when I push his hand away.
"I don't want to let you go."
Ren breathed out as he looked so sad. What the heck is happening right now?
"I don't need to hear that from someone like you."
I was angry and frustrated. How dare he say all that after everything that he does? He didn't explain or ask for an apology for making me wait for him. I hate this so much; he makes me feel so—crushed.
"Let's just stop wasting each other's time. I'm done."
I added as I began to leave him, although I did feel guilty for saying that—I don't know why I even felt like that when I was supposed to be mad at him.
Ugh. This is confusing.
"Now that you finally got what you wanted, you're just going to act like we're strangers?"
Ren challenged, and I can't help but feel even more irritated. He has no right to say that when he was the one who started to avoid me so suddenly.
"What the heck are you on about?"
I sigh in frustration, confused by everything that comes out of his mouth. Did he seriously just want to pick a fight with me or something? I hate this. I hate that we're arguing. I don't want to see him looking at me with those eyes; it hurts.
For some reason, I feel like crying. Shit.
"The second he calls you, you come running like a puppy. Are you happy now after stealing him from his girlfriend?"
Ren's eyes seemed pissed as he took a few steps closer to me, making me so speechless and surprised with what he said. When he said it like that, I couldn't help but feel guilty. Although I did want Koby to break up with Celine, it was all before I realised my real feelings for him. But now, I was really hurt when Ren spoke to me with an angry expression. Somehow, I was even more hurt when he said all those things about me than I was by Koby's words.
Why is he doing this to me?
Isn't he the one who suggested the idea in the first place?
So why did he seem pissed off?
"It was all thanks to you."
I glared back at him. I hate being in this situation; I feel like crying, and I want to ask him why he is saying all of this to me. It hurts so much, more than I ever imagined. When I said that, Ren sighs in frustration as he bangs his hand on the desk, making me flinch in surprise. He seems defeated. I don't understand why, but he deserves this for not explaining things properly.
"Koby confessed his feelings for me."
𝗡𝗼. 𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗽.
"He told me that he would break up with Celine."
𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗽 𝘀𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻.
"We liked each other, so what's wrong with being together?"
𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗽. 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝗵𝗶𝗺. 𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗽 𝗹𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳.
"I like him so much; I have always liked him. It's only normal for us to be with each other, right?"
𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗽 𝗳𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼𝗹𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗻'𝘁 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹; 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴?
"I am SO happy, thanks to you."
𝗡𝗼. 𝗬𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗹𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴.
I hate it so much when the voices in my head keep trying to make me feel guilty for saying this. Why did I even say things that were not true? Why am I doing this? And why did Ren look so hurt? Please don't look at me with those sad eyes. I don't know what to do if you look at me like that.
"Nadine, tell me you're lying."
It has been so long since he called me by name. I can't believe that I was happy to hear him finally say my name again; this feels like a dream. If it really is, I hope that these bad dreams end because I can't bear to look at him in the eyes when he looks so desperate and sad.
He knows me so well that I don't know what to say.
When I didn't respond to his question, he sighs in defeat as he walks closer to me. Squeezing my arms, he pulled me into a warm hug. Why are you doing this to me now? Why am I so weak against him? I hate that I feel comfortable in his arms. I hate this so much. I hate that my feelings for him might be more than I imagined.
"I waited for hours like a fool, but you never came. I waited again for you to apologise and explain to me what really happened, but you never did. Why are you confusing me? Why are you doing this? Stop being so kind to me if you're just going to leave me too."
Ugh, I hate it so much that Ren has seen me in my vulnerable state so many times. This will be the fourth time he has seen me cry. And for some reason, Ren seems surprised by what I said.
"Why can't you see me?"
I said this in frustration mixed with anger as I hit him with my fist as I tried hard to stop my tears from falling. This is seriously annoying. Why am I even crying, for goodness' sake? Ren just took my fist into his as he kept saying words that I wanted to hear. I hate that he knows about me so well.
"I'm sorry for making you feel like that. I was an asshole, I was jealous, and I really am the worst for making you cry, despite saying that I would always make you smile. I deserved to be hated by you, but I don't want you to hate me. You deserve an explanation, and I will give it all to you, so please don't go."
Ren confessed as I continued bawling my eyes out in his arms. I didn't want to go, but Koby needed me.
I don't know what to do.
But I also wanted to hear what Ren wanted to say to me. He told me he would explain everything. I wanted to know why—what really happened to him to make me wait without an explanation. I wanted to know if my feelings for him were real or just another lie I made myself believe.
I'm scared of what he's going to say and of his explanation.
I'm terrified of what he's going to say since I don't have the confidence to believe that we share the same feelings.
I don't know why I am having these doubts.
"I can't stay. Koby needed me right now."
I'm not ready to hear his explanation, and I can't bear to look at him in the eyes. Ren just sighs in defeat as he squeezes our fingers together, making me look at him in the eye. He was forcing a smile, although it seemed like he wanted to cry too.
"I understand. I will wait for you, like you waited for me. I have been waiting since forever; it's not something new to me."
Ren confessed as I struggled to understand what he meant by that.
"So it's okay; I don't mind waiting for a little more."
He added as he patted my head, slowly caressing my hair as I continued to stare at him with a teary eye.
"Just promise me you will be back."
It almost seems like he's begging me, but I don't understand why my heart feels so full whenever I'm with him. And I'm really grateful that he said all this. He makes me feel so complete.
"I'll be right back. Please wait for me."
I breathed out as he gave me a smile—finally, a genuine one. Oh, how I miss his smiles so much that it's strange; I've never felt like this when I thought about Koby. It's something new to me, and I really like these feelings.
"I'll be waiting for you."
Maybe I really did like him after all, more than I ever imagined.