Nadine was crying.
I don't know why seeing her cry makes me feel troubled. Why is she crying? Did something happen? Why do you look so sad?
"It's okay, just cry."
I reassured her as I pulled her hand to the nurse's office. I mean, if I did tell her to stop crying, that's only going to make her cry even more, right? So I just told her to cry her feelings out, whatever the reason may be. I'm going to make her forget about it.
The nurse was so weird, but I'm glad that she decided to leave us. It still feels weird, though, how everything feels like it was going so well—I mean, me being with Nadine without anyone bothering us. I gave her something to drink as she continued to stay silent. Her puffy eyes were so distracting that I kept wanting to touch her face for some reason.
I don't want to admit it, but I think I know the reason behind her tears.
It's probably that childhood friend of hers.
I don't know why I'm so pissed at the idea of him making her cry. For god sake, why? Why would she cry for someone like him? Why would she continue to stay with Koby when I'm here?
Wait—what am I even thinking?
Shit.
My head is giving me weird ideas.
"He introduced me to his girlfriend."
Nadine sighs as I am surprised to hear that. I mean, WOAH. I didn't expect that coming since he seems like he's into her, so how the heck did he suddenly have a girlfriend? Not that I care about him, but still, making her cry and giving her false hope? That is an asshole move.
But I wonder why hearing her say that makes me feel happy.
An idea that I don't even know I have comes to mind.
"Do you want to ruin their relationship?"
I suggested. Wait, hear me out. I don't really care about Koby and his girlfriend; I just want Nadine to notice me. So I wonder if we could be closer if I suggested the idea of us working together to make Koby jealous. She was confused when I told her that I could help her.
"Why are you doing this?"
Nadine seems confused by the idea, but I continue to reassure her by saying that it's a win-win situation for both of us. I don't understand how she got the idea that I wanted to steal Koby's girlfriend away when, in truth, I was actually trying to steal her attention away from Koby. Well, at least it worked out well.
"Can you even bear to look at him, smiling and laughing with another girl?"
The last push to make her decide, she seems to hate the idea of Koby with another girl, although it does feel weird how I'm hurting seeing her reaction. Ugh, I don't want to think about this for now. She seems tempted by the idea as she finally gives in and asked how are we supposed to ruin Koby's relationship with his girlfriend.
I can't help but feel pleased.
"You just need to make him jealous."
I told her about my idea on how to make our plan successful as she continued listening—god, she's too cute. Anyway, I explained to her that with me next to her, Koby would definitely feel jealous and realise his real feelings for her. Although, I don't really want that to happen.
For some reason, I want him to hurt her so that she can finally move on.
I don't want to see her so focused on him.
I want her all to myself.
It is selfish of me?
My plan was to stay close to her and make her realise that I'm the one who stayed next to her when her supposedly childhood friend broke her heart. I wanted her to see that I was here; I wanted her to finally notice me. Oh, shit, the feelings that I thought had disappeared come back to me whenever I see her face.
Is this normal?
"I like it more when you're smiling rather than crying."
I said truthfully, as she just told me it was embarrassing. It was cute, and I can't believe that I'm falling head over heels for her lovely smiles again. I hope that this will be the last time she cries for him. Because I'm going to make her forget about him, shift her focus to me, and finally look at me.
I'm going to steal her heart away from him.
And I'm glad that we stayed in the classroom to finish our homework, although I already did mine. It was pleasing to just be in the same room as her. It's cute how she was so focused on the homework; I can't believe that Koby didn't see this side of her. Well, not that I care, since I'm planning to make her mine anyway.
She was talking about how she feels like she is being stalked on the train, which makes me worried. I can't believe that I just heard about this now.
"You should bring an umbrella or something as a weapon. Just in case a weirdo happens to be near, just smack him."
I suggested, and she just chuckled at me. Why is she being so cute right now? I badly wanted to pinch her cheeks. I never would have imagined that doing homework would be so fun, especially with someone that I like.
Oh shit.
I think I really did like her—still like her.
Oh god.
Realizing this makes me somewhat nervous. This is weird. We were just in our own little world, and seeing her smiles made me the happiest guy ever. Her laughter makes me realise that I truly did have feelings for her.
This is bad.
I just want to lock her up.
But everything just got so freaking annoying when that childhood friend of hers decided to show up. Right now, just when we're having a moment. He was glaring at me; someone's jealous, it seems. But he shouldn't be, since he had a girlfriend. What the hell is wrong with this guy? He's pissing me off.
Nadine told him that we were finishing our homework as I intertwined our pinkies together, and, my God, the reaction from both of them is amusing. Especially Koby, he was sure to be annoyed. He keeps glaring at me and asking me when we started to become close, as I give him a smirk, telling him that I don't need to tell him about what happened to Nadine and me.
And he was indeed frustrated.
But when he pulled Nadine's hand as he forced her to leave me, I was dumbfounded.
The fuck is he doing?
"Wait, I'm going home with Ren."
Nadine breathed out as I felt like I'd won. Koby was shocked to hear that, as he had a serious face and was asking her why we would go home together, then proceeding to convince her that he wanted to tell her something.
This is annoying.
"Nadine, I'm waiting."
I interrupt her then as I give her a smile. She seems hesitant, and I can't help but feel worried since, for goodness sake, the one she has feelings for is him. So I don't know what she's going to do.
"Sorry, I'll be right back."
Nadine gave me sorry eyes as I stood there, staring at them leave hand in hand. I can't believe that it's still the same. It amazed me how she would still choose him despite crying over him just a while ago.
I seriously don't understand her.
But I can't really ask her to stay since she would definitely choose him.
I doubted I even came to her mind.
God, this jealousy is killing me.
I don't know how long it's been, but damn, this is annoying. It's always like this: I'm left waiting for her, waiting for something that I'm not even sure about.
What the hell am I doing right now?
But seeing her come back to me makes me think that I seriously have a problem with myself. Since the moment I saw her, I literally forgot that she just left me for Koby.
"Oh my god, I'm sorry for making you wait."
Nadine said as I sighed in return. It's not something to be proud of, but I've been waiting for so long that this doesn't really make a difference. Of course, it does hurt me, seeing how she would always put Koby first. But it's okay, since I'm planning to steal her attention away.
And it was cute of her, trying to cheer me up.
God, how could I stay angry at her? not that I am in the first place. I was just annoyed. But seeing her now, I don't know why it makes me forget about everything. Seeing her happy and laughing is enough for now.
She's enough.
We're going back together to our secret place. I wish I could say that, but we're just going back to our rental room. I can't believe that meeting each other there makes us closer to each other. I really should be grateful for having that room now.
"Ren."
I don't know if I'm hallucinating, but I keep hearing Nadine calling for my name. Huh? It's shitty enough to be in the train with these extravagant smells, my god. I can't believe that these people smell so bad that I seriously want to barf. I'm just happy that Nadine smells like flowers. Shit, I sounded like a creep for sure.
"Bitch!"
A man shouted as I finally looked up; it's shocking to see Nadine look so scared and troubled. What the heck just happened? She had teary eyes as I continued to observe what was going on, and I finally caught on as I saw the old man laying on the floor clutching to his—balls? Ugh.
Fucking pervert.
I seriously wanted to kick him too but decided not to since I don't want to cause anymore drama. I'm just glad that the train officers took him away.
"Are you okay?"
I finally said as Nadine seems to relax a bit now. I push her closer to the corner since some weirdos are staring at us; their stares are annoying. I'm just glad that she doesn't mind us being so close to each other now.
Shit, this is bad. 
My heart and mind are going crazy as I keep having these weird thoughts. What if somebody pushed me and we ended up with an accidental kiss?
I wish.
Damn, I don't know if I should be thinking about this now when she literally just experienced the worst thing ever.
Weird thought: please go away. Shoo shoo
"So, tell me what happened with your childhood friend."
I started, as we are now in my room, eating as we just ordered delivery. Although I don't really want to know about him, this is making me feel like shit.
"I think it's working."
Nadine replied, and I couldn't help but feel curious. She then proceeded to tell me how our plan seems to be working since Koby is jealous. Shit, I seriously don't want him to feel like that. He literally pissed me off; why can't he just go away from her life already?
"He told me not to be so close with you since it's annoying him; he told me he hated it. But then, he still chose her over me, so I don't know what to feel."
Nadine sighs as she can't help but feel troubled. He's making her confused; he's jealous, for sure, but damn. What a freaking asshole. Do I have to remind him myself that he already has a girlfriend? Nadine told me that she's confused about her own feelings since Koby makes her feel ignored. At least there's something to celebrate, huh?
"That's why you need to show him that we're closer than he thinks."
I'm actually doing this for myself. I don't care about Koby at all. I just want to be closer to her, to make her see that I am here and not Koby.
Nadine keeps complaining how hard it is to make Koby jealous since he always comes running to his girlfriend when she calls. She even told me that they were having a moment.
What the hell?
"We just hug."
Nadine said, and I couldn't help but frown. He's seriously doing this on purpose to make her confused. Shit. This is bad. I can't believe that he hugged her. For what exactly?
My God.
This is troubling me.