I just want him to see that you're mine.
Is it selfish of me?
I want him to see how close we've gotten. I want him to see that I'm stealing you away from him. I want you to see me.
𝗖𝗮𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗺𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘄?
It hurts me so much that I'm next to you but your eyes are glued on him. Although I keep trying my best to make you see me, you just don't care at all, huh? Even if you ended up hurting, you still decided to stay and listen to his bullshit.
Why did you do this to yourself?
Seeing you cry again because of him makes me mad at myself for letting this happen. It's the third time now that I am here again, whispering words that you wanted to hear, comforting you with everything that you refuse to believe.
Why do you keep lying to yourself?
I keep telling you that it's okay to cry since I'm here. Because I know that I would make you smile and forget about him, but why do you keep making it hard for me to keep my sanity? Having you in my arms never felt so perfect until now.
I wish that you felt the same way.
The moment you told me that you're done pursuing things that will only hurt you, I was more than happy to hear it. I was glad.
Finally.
You said that you're tired, crying like a fool for someone who doesn't care.
You told me that you don't want to proceed with our plan, saying sorry that you won't be able to help me steal Celine's away. Well, I don't care about that. I'm just glad. Because finally, I managed to steal you away from him.
I really wanted to kiss you right now.
Will you be mad at me if I do?
I can't help these feelings of mine. I was so happy that you'd decided to forget about him. Heck, this is the happiest day of my life. I can't wait to spend another day with you—to spend every day seeing you smile.
I'm more than happy.
I feel like I got a chance; why does it feel like you're also looking at me the way I'm looking at you? I don't want to be wrong, but please tell me: did you really see me now?
I don't know if this is right.
But I decided to trust my guts; I'm going to confess my feelings for you after the festival ends. I will wait for you. I had always been there, so I hope this time you properly see me. Please wait just a little longer.
I wished that I didn't have to witness all this.
Why did I have to see you crying in his arms? Why did you look so sad? Why is he with you? What happened? I have a lot of questions for which I don't have the answers. You told me you were done; you told me you no longer wanted to pursue him.
So why?
Just because he told you his feelings, are you going to forget everything that you told me then?
Why are you crying?
Is it because you were happy that he finally confessed that he feels the same as you? Are you going to fall for him all over again when he promises you that he's going to break up with his girlfriend?
I can't believe this.
I can't believe that I thought you would feel the same way.
I was being delusional. I had always been since the beginning, am I right? I was just a distraction for you.
I hate that I'm only realising this now.
I hate how I ended up breaking my own heart again.
I thought that you wouldn't say it.
Please tell me you're just joking.
Tell me that you don't mean everything that you said.
"I liked you a lot, actually. I truly did and always have been."
But hearing you say those words while being in his arms, I had enough. In the end, you would always choose him. No matter what I do, it has always been him.
I have never been on your mind since the beginning.
It hurts to know that I wasn't enough.
I was there when he made you cry, and I was next to you when you were feeling down. I have always been next to you, but you still can't see me.
𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗺𝗲?
What would I do to make you notice that I'm here? that I care about you. Please just tell me you didn't mean everything you said to him.
Every word I say and every hour I spend with you, does it mean nothing to you?
I don't know what I should do.
I can't do this anymore.
I wanted to be mad at you for being a fool for him. No matter how many times he hurts you, you will always end up forgiving him. No matter what, you will always choose him over me.
Should I just give up now?
Please tell me.