Day 20 : In his loving arms
She gets awake because of the car engine noise that she hears; she immediately gets up even though she still feels sleepy hoping that it is Sergeant Herrera comes back from the war against the Sans Serif Terrorist. She went out of the tent to see who was riding in the military truck she hoped was with Sergeant Herrera.
She dazzled from the light of the head truck that is why she couldn’t recognize the faces of the soldiers who got off from the military truck. She ran closer when she saw Sergeant Herrera getting off the military truck; she couldn’t stop the joy she was feeling she burst into tears. She suddenly hugs the Sergeant tightly a feeling of missing him for so long, she didn’t want to let go of from Sergeant Arms.
The Sergeant wipes her tears and kisses her right now, his kiss is aggressive and passionate, she feels that the Sergeant kiss is full of love. She opens her eyes and finds herself lying down in her bed, she suddenly gets up from the bed and she hurries to go outside. Is that only a dream Sergeant Herrera is here she knew it.
She looks around and she looks one by one to the trucks hoping that Sergeant Herrera was there, but no trace of the Sergeant the one she love is nowhere, she tried to ask his colleagues if there is something happens to him, but, they just shocked their head and walks away. She left alone thinking, there is so much in her head right now. Does he forget he promised? Does there something bad happened to him? Is he okay? Where is he? Did he just walk away from her or maybe Sergeant Herrera doesn’t love him.
A soldier comes over to take her in the tent to get rest, but she refused to come with him and walks away, away from this place, on this moment she wanted to be alone, she doesn’t want to cry, she is trying to be brave, maybe he is not here right now but soon, maybe tomorrow Sergeant will be here with her.
She walks in the woods place and she doesn’t care the cold of the wind that enveloped her body, she suddenly stops to walk and sit at the bark of the tree she breathed deeply and trying to calm herself she keeps wondering what was happening to the Sergeant, he promised that he will come back. Her tears suddenly fall. There are so many questions in her mind, nobody tells about what had happened to him? Are they keeping this as their secrets.
She hears footsteps and later she clear her throats before she starts to speak.
“ahheeemmm…”
She turned around suddenly to find out who that person was; she got surprised when it was Amanda a lady soldier she met from the camp a few days ago when Sergeant Herrera proposed to her to be his girlfriend. She wipes her tears and tries to smile to Amanda.
Amanda sits beside her and she looks a far before she speaks a word.
“What are you doing here? It’s cold here…Don’t you feel cold”.
She just looks at Amanda and shook her head.
“I do, but I need to be alone and go to the place like this”
“I know what you feel right now. Our job is not that easy just, like what other thinks, we need to sacrifice our lives for the sake of others…We need to forget everything and our love ones once we are in the mission.”
“Even the promises, isn’t it?”
She started to cry again trying to be calm, she don’t even know what she feels right now, She knows it hurts him, she doesn’t want to hold it back because that’s really hurt her a lot.
“Can you tell me what happen to him?
Amanda hugs her trying to comfort her; she let her tears flow, reduce the hurt and pain she feels. She could not explain the pain she felt right now her heart seems like to explode because of the pain, she wanted to see the Sergeant that she loved she wanted to know what had happened to him?
Until the sun came up and she was left alone, staring into the distance, hoping Sergeant Herrera would come and from here in her seat she saw a military truck approaching, she suddenly stood up and her heart beats fast she is hoping that Sergeant Herrera was there. And he will run coming into her and from that moment she could feel again, his kiss and she can hug him tightly.
But her hopes suddenly disappear without Sergeant Herrera appearing to her, the military trucks loaded the wounded soldiers who fought against the Sans Serif terrorist. She saw the commander got off the truck, so then, she quickly approached the Commander and she wanted to ask what had happened to Sergeant Herrera.
“Excuse me commander”
The commander looks at her with a tiring eye, and he knows what she wanted to ask of him.
“Yes, Ms. Chyrill?” The commander answered her.
“You know why I am coming to you right now”
The commander just breath heavily and trying to stay away from her.
“I just wanted to know what happened to him”. Is that too difficult for you to answer me?
Her eyes beg the commander to answer all what that really happened to Sergeant Herrera where is he now? Is he still alive? The questions that running in her minds wanting an answer. The commander tried to avoid looking at her as he could not tell Chyrill that Sergeant Herrera was gone.
“Look Ms. Chyrill, I can’t answer all your questions right now, We don’t consider about what you are feeling right now. Look what is important right now is the safety of everyone, the safety of my men who fought against the terrorist.”
“What about him? You don’t care anymore? You don’t care if something happens to him? Have you thought about his safety? For once have you think that if he is still alive? Have you thought that he needed you to take away from this endless war? Do you care about him Commander?”
The commander just breath heavily and walks away from her, but Chyrill follow the commander, she will not stop until she finds out what really happened to Sergeant Herrera. The commander stops for a moment and face her. His breath is heavily before he speaks and try the best he could that Chyrill will never get shocked with the news about Sergeant Herrera.
“Listen, Chyrill the man that you love is nowhere to found”.
“What do you mean?” She covered her mouth and her whole body was cold and shivering.
“My soldiers search him for a long day and there’s no way to find him”.
“What do you mean? Are you going to stop in searching him?”
“Yes….And I have made my decision, I’m sorry”.
“No….You can’t do this”.
“I’m sorry Ms. Chyrill, but you need to accept he is gone”.
“No…Until I didn’t see his body, I won’t believe you”.
“How? Ms. Chyrill you need to accept it. That’s the life of a soldier we sacrifice ourselves in the lives of others. We are just remember, but never back our life and be with our love ones.
She was like a burning candle and suddenly weakened; she just sat on the ground and sobbed crying. She has lost many of her friends and she is far from her family and if she still loses the man she loves, she may not able to cope what is happening right now.