A message came to my cellphone and at that moment I was amazed by this. Unlike before, where I never really cared about any of this. After I saw what was written there, I already suspected that this would just happen in the end. Marie who was then astonished by my attitude suddenly froze as if I had just been caught in a mousetrap. After this, I thought again and again and then I realized that there really were some things that I should have just ignored and never cared about. I immediately felt surprised and indeed this is the time for me to start being alert to my surroundings. This time I didn't know that something like this would happen and to what extent I felt aware that in reality someone was targeting me at the bottom of a terrible abyss. I almost cursed out loud and at that moment Marie again asked me the same thing and I couldn't tell her clearly for some reason. After several times I tried to explain it, I felt that this might be a barrier in itself for why I would do something like this and end up at the bottom of this horror. Marie started to get up from her seat and then said something.
"I think it's time for you to say everything."
"What?"
"I know you're worried. Why don't you just be frank? Are you embarrassed to have to tell someone like me? Or do you feel it's something that people shouldn't know?”
"Actually, what are you talking about?"
"Hah? Gosh, well, if you really don't want to be honest, that's fine."
“Hey, do you also know something?”
"What?"
"You're actually not someone who doesn't know anything?"
“This sounds more like you're trying to interrogate me. Julie, just so you know that not everyone is who they seem. So you have to be careful."
Even though Marie had started telling the truth, right now I only noticed that apparently this person was starting to feel uncomfortable with the lies I had been telling. I can already guess that there are actually some things that are quite annoying and all of them have to be here now or I have to get rid of them all. My thoughts went back to chaos after reading the message and now I can barely control myself. Not only that, I feel like I'm shaking too and it's not like I'm usually like this. Not long after that, Marie also came back to ask me something else.
"If you feel scared, that's normal. You shouldn't be avoiding all that and just sitting quietly in a corner like that.”
"Did you just tease me?"
“What are you talking about? no one hugs you I'm just saying that if one day you get annoyed with yourself and instead isolate yourself in such a pathetic state, I think you should think again. You don't need to get upset about something like that. you just need to wake up and see the world.”
"Ah, I see, it turns out that you know quite a lot about that stuff too. But I don't have much time for that.”
Even though I don't want to admit all of this, I already feel that it seems like this will only end if I do say everything. There's nothing I can do for now and I can only keep thinking about all this with a headache. Not only that, I also had a feeling of annoyance that was not usual and until now I feel that this will only end in a situation that will never change. At that time I also had the feeling that there was actually something else and that's what happened. In many ways that I've seen, I feel I've gone too far. One day after, this time I walked as usual in front of the camera and got lots of applause from the people who came to this fashion show. I was nervous that maybe I could make a mistake and it didn't. Honestly I feel happy because nothing bad happened. However, there are a number of other things that actually add up to things that are really annoying at the moment and at that moment I almost feel crazy about all of this. After a few times I realized that it was just an illusion and it wouldn't affect anything for the time being. Today many people came. The moment I felt this annoying sensation I was almost fed up with it. After I managed to attend this event by participating in being their clothing model, it felt like flying into the sky. This time I feel happy. Not long after that, apparently I saw that person in this place. It had been almost a few days since I'd seen this person, and apparently this presence surprised me quite a bit. Alona always wears conspicuous clothes and many people see her appearance with awe-filled eyes. I walked over to him and after that we chatted.
“Julie, I haven't seen you in a long time. How are you?" Alona said while hugging me tightly.
"Yes. I'm fine as usual. By the way, I didn't know you would come here. It's really amazing.”
“That's because I also felt that I had to come here and meet you at once. And one other important thing, I have something to tell you.”
"What do you want to convey that?"
“This is about the person I previously told you about at the time.”
"What are you saying?"
"You must be happy, it turns out that person has really liked you for a long time."
"Who are you talking about?"
“Eh, don't tell me you forgot just like that? Good grief. Look, here is a photo of that person.”
Even though Alona had told me about that person, it felt like I couldn't say anything. Feelings that should grow but strangely do not exist at all. Not long after that I immediately rushed out because I had other things to do today. I said goodbye to Alona and apparently the person didn't mind that at all and instead smiled brightly like the morning sun. My gut tells me that it's like there's going to be something that's really hard for me to avoid. I immediately returned to the room and this time after being in the room I felt relieved.
"Finally I can breathe."