10:48 PM... At Ara's house... Ara's POV... I continue to toss and turn on my bed with the lights turned off. It's been about an hour since I've been struggling to fall asleep, yet my mind refuses to let my body gets some proper eyes, despite my eyes already feeling sleepy. After Junghwa's sudden kiss, not only has my mind been running around like crazy, yet my heart has been jumping in a chaotic manner. The thought of him having the urge to kiss me in the most awkward moment never really pass by my mind. As much as I desire the feeling to taste him, it was never a thought in my head that he would be the one to kiss me in a way. When he did though, oddly I didn't found the kiss to feel as I imagined. Though it had a beautiful spark, yet I felt hurt and that's why I pushed him a way and slapped him. It's a beautiful type of pain which I didn't want to even experience. Somehow, I was even shock at my own actions when I slapped him. I didn't know I would even have the courage to do that to Junghwa, when all I ever wanted to do to him was all gentleness and comfort. Tears starts to run down my eyes, staining my light yellow pillow. I continue to sob in silence, not wanting to hold back the tears at this point. I knew I needed to cry and I'm not going to deny that. In fact, I'm just gonna let it all out. After months of struggled of trying to move on from him, he had to come back to give me the kiss I no longer hoped for. Junghwa, it's enough that you never loved me, but did you had to make me crazy enough that again I failed to forget you for good? If you don't love me, then don't even bother to give me a stupid kiss. What do you really want from me? Do you want to not forget you while you're still in love with my cousin? Why did you bring back the memories of old feelings when I almost forget? Upset, hurt, and at this point I knew I'm not gonna get any decent sleep sooner. I reached my hand out to turn on my night lamp, before getting up from my bed and wiped my tears quickly. I walked up to my study desk. Upon sitting on the chair, I grab my blue diary from the left corner of the desk, with my right hand grabbing a random pen that I had left laying on the desk earlier. In an emotional state, I figured that I had enough of holding back the old feelings I wish to forget. I thought maybe if I wrote down all my chaotic feelings towards Junghwa from the beginning to the end, I'll eventually feel better. At least, I could try to give him the note, and maybe after that he'll understand what I needed and eventually left my heart in peace. Maybe there would not be anymore stupid doings. Maybe after that....we could return to be normal friends, just like before, and forget that all this love drama ever happened. The next day.... At school... I arrived at school with my eyes still feeling sleepy. Last night, after about half an hour of trying to put together the right words to write down for Junghwa, at least my mind didn't felt too much pressure after, though my heart still felt anxious enough to keep me awake all night. It was both impulsive yet hard to come to a point where I decided to write down a letter in hope that it would eventually help Junghwa and I to bring the past to the present, before he attempted to kiss me in a stupid way, and way before I developed any romantic feelings towards him. A letter of hope to forget some old feelings, the next step I gotta do now is to build up the courage to give him the letter. Yet, I haven't seen him yet. I assumed he must have been late. "You are sick!" I suddenly stop in surprised when I heard a loud screaming coming just a few steps away. Loud screams continue to fill the air as the voices of two familiar ladies starts ringing loudly in the hallway. I slowly continue with my steps to see where the sound came from, in which I see a small crowd circling around the sources of screamings. I finally reach the crowd to catch a small glimpse of what's happening, only to be surprised by the sight in front of me, where a furious Grace can be seen shouting in fury with an angry Bianca. "Don't blame me as if he wasn't the one who initiates," Bianca says. "Blame yourself for not being good enough for him." I almost drop my jaws when I heard Bianca's sharp words. Out of no where and without a sign, I could be sure that at least 90% of the students in school didn't know or even expect that Peter would have an affair with Bianca, when him and Grace are dubbed as the power couple of the school. I wanted to believe that it's a nightmare, not only because he cheated on his girlfriend, but because he cheated with her (and my) long-time enemy. "You cruel witch," Grace says with a furious yet upset look in her face. "You should be ashame of yourself, Bianca." As if she has no guilt, Bianca lets out a wicked chuckle in which I swear would scare some kindergarden kids at some points. In a sassy manner, she pulls out her lipstick from the pocket of her skinny jeans. "Screaming at me won't get your man back," Bianca says as she applies the nude colour lipstick on her lips. "Excuse me because I got better things to do." With an arrogant look, Bianca pushes Grace to the side as she walks pass the crowd of people, leaving Grace to stood in the middle, looking emotionally messed up. Her face looks both furious and disappointed. "Grace," I say as I approach her as the students start to depart from the situation, leaving Grace and I to stood alone in the hallway. "Those good for nothing jerks," Grace says in a disappointed look. "Out of all the girls he had to chose that witch just to embarassed me in front of her face." "Grace, I'm sorry about what happened. Peter's a jerk, but-" "He's too much of jerk if you ask me. If he didn't want to continue our relationship he could've just said it to me in the first place," Grace states. Exhausted after all the screaming and shouting, Grace takes a deep breath as I stood next to her while watching her, deeply feeling bad for what she went through. Her and Peter had been dating for almost two years, so I knew that it must be very heart breaking for her knowing that he had cheated with Bianca in the end. As a girl who once got her heart broken in the past, I couldn't relate more. "I'm so sorry, Grace. Look, Peter's a jerk and that guy doesn't even deserve to see you so in fury like this," I say. "He's probably having fun with Bianca right now while you're still being chaotic over him." "You're right," Grace says, before she sighs. "I should really move on." "Yeah you should," I say. "How about we have pizza over a study date at my place after school?" Grace sighs. "I guess, ok." Hearing that, I form a small smile at Grace, knowing well that despite how broken she is, I admire her high spirits to move on quickly after the heart break, almost as if she really doesn't let her broken heart get too much of her, and just focus on moving on and doing better. "By the way, you don't look so well today. Are you sick?" Grace asks. "I just didn't get much sleep last night. It's nothing," I say. Hearing her question just now, I remember the reason of my sleepless night, and that knowing today I should just focus on comforting my heart broken best friend now. Fear starts to crawl up into my heart again, making me reconsider about giving the letter to Junghwa. To be continue...
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