Chapter 44

Ara's POV...
Hearing my statement, I see Zach's facial expression change into a look of disappointment. Like his heart just got shot by a bullet, looking at his eyes made me guilty for a moment knowing that I probably just broke his hope. Yet, I didn't want to give him false hope to waste his time waiting for me to open my heart to him. A good guy like him deserves a girl who could treat his heart well, and I'm not that girl.
"I hope you would understand," I say as I open the car door and let myself out. Before walking over to my front door, I turn around to face him one last time.
"Goodbye, Zach. Have a good night," I say before I turn around and head over to my front door, ready to forget about everything that happened tonight.
The next day...
At school...
As I walk pass through the hallway, my eyes spot Junghwa standing next to his locker. He has dark spots under his eyes, which I assumed he probably didn't get much sleep last night. Well, I wouldn't be too surprise. We would rather get less sleep than get detention with the crazy teachers. Coffee was definitely my saviour this morning, or else I would barely have the energy to even walk through this hallway.
"Hey, are you feeling better?" I asks Junghwa as I approach him.
"Yeah, better. How about you?" Junghwa asks, as he shifts his gaze to me.
"I'm good. Had a cup of warm coffee this morning. It was nice," I say as I start to study his beautiful brown eyes, which never fails to put a spell on me.
"That's good," he says.
I smile. "Let's go to class."
"Ok," he answers.
The two of us continue to walk through the crowded hallway, walking pass the students passing by. My heart begins to beat slightly faster, as the visions of me and Junghwa suddenly appears back in my head with him walking next to me, side by side. Despite not wanting to have anything deeper with me, it's always been, and is still is, difficult for me to forget about my feelings towards him and just see him as a normal friend without any romantic feelings.
"Umm..Ara.."
I turn my head to see him, looking both nervous and a bit awkward. I have a feeling he might just thought about something regarding from last night, just like me.
"Yes, what is it?" I ask him.
"About last night, sorry that I kinda got you worried," Junghwa says, his vision focusing on the hallway and nothing else, completely avoiding any gaze towards me.
"It's ok," I answer casually. I almost thought he was gonna say something more than that, but chances are his pride might be too high for that.
Hearing that, his lips forms a rather shy yet awkward smile. I knew him long enough that this smile is the type of smile he would make whenever he's feeling too awkward.
"So, can I ask you a question?" he suddenly asks.
"Sure, what is it?" I answer and ask him at the same time.
"What's on your mind recently?" he asks me.
Hearing that, I sigh. I want to say he's bringing a topic that he shouldn't even ask in the first place since it's obvious enough for him to know after all that happened, yet maybe he's just being the dramatic, guy with main-character-syndrome who wants to hear that I do have feelings for him yet I refuse to be in a relationship just because I was hurt by an unrequited love by him from the past.
"Nothing, Junghwa. I just want to forget about everything, including my feelings," I say. I surely hope my answer satisfy him.
He chuckles. "Including me?"
"If it's my feelings towards you which are more than friends, then yeah," I say. "For once, I just want my heart to be in peace. Though we can still be friends."
Hearing my answer, Junghwa's lips only remain silent as we continue to walk through the hallway. From his reaction, I assumed maybe it wasn't the answer he expected. Yet, it was the most honest answer I could give him.
"I see," Junghwa says. "Ok, that's cool."
"Let's just continue with our lives as usual, like before," I say.
"Ok, Ara," Junghwa answers. 
With that final word, the two of us continue our awkward silence as we finally reach our class. Entering the class room, I'm ready to fully focus on today's class, without wanting any little thoughts of my feelings towards him to distract my mind. It's time, to leave the past, and start a new life.
2 months later...
Days passed by, months changes, time surely flies faster when I learn to find peace within myself. I still play the piano from time to time, practicing my skills and learning to play new songs. It has become the best thing in my free time, whenever I'm feeling happy or sad. It's always my favorite thing to do. 
As for my relationship with Junghwa and Zach, I'm glad that I finally told them that I just want to be on my own now, and that I respect the friendship we already have now. Despite still having feelings towards Junghwa, I'm happy to say that now, I don't expect anything from him in return. I just want to enjoy the left-over feelings I still have, not knowing whether I would eventually forget about him or not. As days passed by, sometimes it seems harder to forget him than how I would want it.
At school...
"So who are you going to the dance with this Saturday?" Grace asks me.
"Well, Zach invited me, but I'm not going," I say.
"Why?" Grace asks.
"It's my mom's birthday this Saturday. I want to plan a little surprise for her this year," I say.
"Woah, that's nice," Grace says.
"How about you?" I ask her.
"I'm going solo. I almost thought maybe if you were free, we could go together," Grace states.
"Ah, sorry Grace," I apologize to my best friend, feeling kind of bad that I couldn't acompany her to the dance.
"Hey, don't sweat it. Your mom would want to spend her birthday with you," Grace says with a smile on her lips. "You gotta make her day extra special."
I smile. "Thanks, Grace."
"No problem. By the way, let's go! We're gonna be late for class," Grace says.
"Ok," I say, and the two of us begin to walk faster to class.
To be continue...

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