Chapter 35
Secret Revealed
Collyne Keigh POV
Even if how much you hate a certain situation to happen, it will find a way to be come true. Destiny will choose our fates.
You can't control your own fate.
"We deserve that position." Someone said, coldly.
No ...
No. Please. Not him ..
I looked him and I saw him looking at me seriously and coldly. My heart was beating so fast, I don't know what I'm going to do nor to say.
Why did I forget they were here in the first place?
Everyone looked at him.
I know that they deserve that position, to be the Peace Keepers. But Damn! I can't say that to him.
I can't mix love and responsibilities. My love for him and my responsibilities towards my gang and mafia.
I didn't speak, I was just looking into his eyes. My lips form into tight line when I saw hatred, pain and determination in his eyes.
Don't tell me...
"I demand a fight to prove it." He continued that made me even more nervous.
I close my eyes emphatically. Damn. I never expected this to happen. It's like I want to cry in anticipation and nervousness. But no. I can't, not in front of them.
"Okay. A fight then," I answered coldly even though it was against my own will.
The four of them headed into the middle of the bloody ground. Shit!
I clenched my fist. I am not angry with them. I'm mad at myself. Damn it.
"We're going to fight Blue." Sapphire whispered to me.
I looked at her, I knew he cared for me but I can handle this. I shook head and gave her a reassuring smile.
I followed them in the Bloody Ground.
Lance and Luke looked at me with a sly smirk in their faces . While Dex and Kyle were just looking at me so serious.
I feel like I'm going to faint by the way he look at me. If looks can kill I'm long gone now.
He will be my opponent. Now I feel like I want to laugh on this damn situation.
Is this the end? Is this the day when they will all know who really I am.
Is this the day .... that he will going to leave me? But if he really loves me he will accept me whoever I am.
"Blue Empress."
I can't even open my mouth to speak, I got lost of words. I never thought this day would come.
I close my eyes sharply again. Damn it. What should I do? This is fucking frustrating.
He quickly rushed towards my place and gave me a unexpected attack.
I was surprised but I still managed to defend myself. He just kept on attacking me and all what I do is to avoid his blows.
The crowd start to make noise. This is the first time they saw me and him had a fight.
Damn how can I fight if he's my opponent? How can I hurt the person I love the most?
How?
"Are you just going to dodge my fucking attacked?" I heard him say with a streak of annoyance in his voice.
I still did not dare to speak that only made him mad at me. And then realization hits me, he hate me. He hated no he despised the blue empress which is me.
I stop avoiding his blows, so he got the first hit. I back away a few times because of his punch. I can even tasted my own blood.
I can't blame him. He's really mad at me. Guilt start to consume my whole body, I lied to him.
He fall in love to his greatest enemy.
"Are you that weak?" He asked angrily.
No! I'm not like this but if you're the person who is in front of me you , Yes. I'm so weak, worthless, and useless.
He unleashed a kick that caused me to fall on the ground again. Everyone in the audience shouted in excitement.
Oh God. Why are you doing this to me? Why are you punishing me like this? Why I can't even feel the long lasting love? Why you keep on hurting me. Why?
I slowly stood up, I don't have the energy to fought back. In my peripheral vision, I saw Sapphire worriedly look at me. She punched Dex and quickly approached me.
"Are you OK Blue?" She asked me.
I gave her a reassuring smile and nodded.
" I'm okay, go and fight with your opponent. I can manage this fight." She can't do anything but to nod and leave me.
"You're not the Blue Empress I know!" I look at him when he said that.
I smiled wryly but didn't show it to them. This is an hopeless situation.
Yes I am not the Blue Empress they know. Because now I am Collyne Keigh who is weak,clumsy, slow minded person who loved him so much.
I felt a blow landed on my face that brought me back to the floor once again.
I felt the pain, not because of the punch. But because I feel that he will never going to accept me whoever I am. That was the most painful part of all.
It's very painful!
I saw him look at me sharply. He was holding a baseball bat now. I looked down, if he ever will going to hit me with that I will accept.
I deserve the pain. I deserve his hatred, I lied on him. That the only reason why I'm guilty right now, I don't understand why he's angry with me.
I didn't kill his younger sister, I didn't kill innocent people.
He was about to hit me but someone shouted.
"Stop it, don't do it Kyle!" Dex yelled.
Tear's streaming down on my face. I'm in so much pain now. It really hurts.
"She's Collyne Keigh. Your girl!"
My world seemed to stop spinning and crushed in to million pieces. He know, Dexter already knew my true identity.
I heard him let go of the baseball bat he was holding. I lifted my gaze to him. I saw him looking at me with disbelief in his eyes.
I'm so sorry, Kyle. I hope you'll forgive me.
"Damn it. Fuck, that's not true!" I close my eyes so tightly.
I know now, this time will come. This is the time he will know who really I am.
He bent down and removed my mask. As he saw me I saw pain in his eyes, he looks like he can't believe what he just saw.
Not saying anything, he moved away from me. I could see the confusion in his eyes. There was Hatred, Guilt, Sadness, Love and Betrayed. Mixed emotions.
Everyone was silent because of what had happened. They were all shocked, either I.
"Keigh." Sapphire called me.
I just cried, I can't help but to cry now. I...
I'm sorry I'm really really really sorry.
I saw him turned his back on me and quickly leave. I also got up and followed him.
"Kyle wait!"
He didn't listen to me, he just kept walking. He'lI going to leave, he'll going to leave me. No, we need to talk fisrt. I can't let him go, I can't afford too.
"Kyle please forgive me. I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. Please. I love you." I cried as plead him to stop and talk to me
He face me and looked at me, sharply.
"Really? Then why did you lie to me?" He asked me, sarcastically.
I looked down, I don't know what to say. I know I'm wrong, I know it's my fault. But... I just love him.
"You and the Blue Empress are the same? That's fucking bullshit Keigh! This is so fucking hurts! You know how angry I am with that person but Damn? you are her, the person I love is the one I despise the most?!" He yelled in to my face.
There were tears dripping from his eyes. I tried to hold his hand but he moved away.
"Kyle please forgive me. I'm sorry. I didn't know."
"You don't know? That's Bullshit Collyne!"
"I'm sorry"
"I'm sorry? Is that all what you can say? I'm sorry? After I found out that the person I hate is the person I love the most? I'm sorry? I'm sorry?! Is your sorry can bring my sister's life back? Is your sorry change everything? Will your sorry lessen the pain I'm feeling right now? " He shouted, angrily.
I fell silent, not able to say anything. The thing I made is knelt in front of him.
"I'm sorry. Please Forgive me. Please. I love you so much." I plead while crying.
"Stand up. Collyne! There's nothing you can do to change the fact, you lied on me, I wish I never met a cunning lady like you, one more thing I really hate you!"
I was stunned by what he said. He wished he never met me? No. He was just lying right?
"If I had known before that you and Blue Empress are the same, I won't ever dare to love you, I will hate you for the rest of my life but fuck I love you so much in the way it hurts."
I was even more stunned by what I heard. My mind can't process his words. It cuts deeper than a knife.
"I don't want to see your face again!" As he said that he leave me alone
I was left stunned, I was no longer able to chase him. I didn't know that love can cause to much pain.
I let myself fall completely on the ground, I'm such a weak person, I didn't know myself anymore. I'm not like this before, love made me feel this way.
I felt someone behind me. She helped me stand and put me in my car. She was the one who drived.
It's very hard, very painful. I love him so much. I can't afford to lose him. I hope it's not too late. I hope he will still going to forgive me
"Rest first Keigh." She told me.
I nodded and closed my eyes. Tomorrow I'll make it up with him. I'm going to win him back. I'm going to chase him even if he'll push me away.