I leave home early to go to Mom and Dad before going to work. I feel like I need their hug. I need comfort from my family because of all the pain I feel. I don't know what to think of what I found out. I feel like Roven and Zandy betrayed me.
When I entered the house, I immediately hugged Mom who greeted me. I even saw her surprise when she saw me. I know she was wondering about my act but I don't care anymore. What I need is hugs and comfort from them, even though I know to myself that until now, I have a grudge against them.
"Oh! Miles? Why, what happened? Are you ok?" Mom asked in surprise.
I hugged her even tighter and didn't say a word. I don't know where to start and how to tell them because for all they know, Roven traded me for a girl and they have no idea that Zandy was the reason why I was hurt.
"Is there a problem? You act strange," Mom repeated while hugging me. I can feel the concern in her voice. "Did something happen to you and Zandy? Did you fight?"
I hope that's the only reason why I'm struggling and hurting now, but no, everything is more complicated now. I feel like tears will fall from my eyes again because of what I feel. I feel that I am united to hurt.
"Mom! The pain! The pain!" I started and couldn't stop crying. I even bit my lower lip.
"Huh? What happened?" Mom held my shoulder and gently made me face her. "Why are you crying? Come on, Miles tells it to me right now. Don't make me a fortune teller to guess why you're hurting. Miles, I'm willing to listen, ok? I'll listen to you," full of concern and worry Mom answered. "But before everything else, come on, sit down first." Mom guided me to the sofa.
I wiped the tears from my cheeks and looked up at Mom. "Mom, I don't know if I should say this...I didn't know he was coming back, Mom." I stopped talking. "Roven came back unexpectedly," I began and saw the surprise on her face. "He's back."
"Huh? Roven, your ex-boyfriend?"
I nodded. "Roven is back, Mom and when he comes back, he brings back the memory of the past. The pain." I bent down and bit my lower lip. "I don't know what I'm feeling right now, but I know I'm still hurt, Mom. I know Roven still has a place in my heart," I admitted.
Mom stayed silent right away as if she was still thinking carefully about what she heard from me. "Does that mean you still love Roven? But you're already married. You already have a husband and it's Zandy," she said, obviously losing the vote for Roven. I still remember that they were very happy with Roven and they obviously voted for him, but now, it seems that their sympathy is with Zandy.
I wanted to laugh at what Mom said but I chose to remain silent. I know I can't tell them what happened between Zandy and Roven before.
"But we know, Mom, that we just got married but we don't love each other and that doesn't take away the fact that we still had someone else in our hearts before we met," I explained so they could understand our side. "But I also didn't say that I still love Roven, Mom. He's been part of my life before and it's hard for me to take him away,'" I explained. "But to say that I still love him, I don't know."
Mom sighed. He stood up from her seat and came to me. "I understand you, Miles. I understand how you feel but I want to let you know that Roven cheated on you and you have a husband and he's Zandy. I know your situation is difficult for you, but you have to choose what you know will be good for you. It's probably right that we interfered in your marriage, Miles, but this time, it's up to you to decide for yourself," said Mom seriously.
I stared at Mom's face in shock because of what she said. I can't believe that. Is it true that she will let me decide what I know will be good for me this time?
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I DID NOT realize the time and my work while I was at home talking to Mom. I didn't talk to Dad because he was still asleep and I didn't bother him because it was too early.
I quickly entered the building carrying my laptop and other papers in my hand. I'm in a hurry because it's only a few minutes and I'm going to be late. I sped up my pace to get to the elevator right away and it closed just in time.
"Wait!" I said, then blocked my hand from the broken elevator and it immediately opened again. "I-I'm sorry," I said when a beautiful woman exposed herself to me. She was wearing a yellow fitted dress and had an ornament around her neck. She's still wearing sunglasses. She looked very elegant and rich. I thought she was an actress because of her clothes and aura. "I'm sorry."
She didn't say a word. She took off her sunglasses and looked at me as if I were a sinner in front of her who needed to be tried. Her eyes are very sharp as if I were small. I just saw her at the company today and I don't know her.
The elevator closed while I was next to that girl. I feel the woman's innocence and so do I because of the way she looks at me.
"Miss, are you a model? Are you one of those models that will be featured next month?" I'm curious. I don't know if I should ask her.
She turned to me, frowning. "And who are you to ask?" She came back grumpy.
"I'm one of the journalists in this publication, Ma'am," I still greeted politely even though inside I was annoyed. "So, I'm glad to meet you if you're one of those models to be featured in our magazine," I added.
The woman looked away from me. "Well, yeah! I'll be one of the features for next month's issue," she simply replied.
Later, the elevator opened and I just thought that we were going to the same floor and maybe Sir Troy would handle the project.
I was left looking at that woman who was a model by the way she walked. Her height and beautiful complexion are also undeniable. I don't know but I feel insecure. I was wondering about that girl because I just saw her today. Maybe she's just a beginner in the modeling field.
I didn't think about it anymore and went to the office and just like I expected, Andrea and Melissa started asking me questions about what I said about my conversation with Roven. I didn't answer them very much because my brain was still messed up.