I do not know what I should think after hearing what Roven told me. If he had told me that, we wouldn't have ended up like this. I can understand him, I can adjust to our relationship if that's what I need to do. He won't hurt me through Zandy. That reason is still not valid for me to forgive him.
It's past midnight and I can't close my eyes. I decided to leave the room and head to the terrace. I was only wearing pajamas and a nightgown because it was hot in my room earlier.
After I left Roven and Zandy earlier, I went straight to Mom and Dad's house to vent all my pain and anger at what I found out. They let me cry and let out all the hurt and pain in my heart while Mom hugged me. Even though I feel like I can lean on someone despite my sadness and confusion. I feel like my eyes are swollen from crying.
I hugged myself when the cold wind blew. I was standing on the terrace looking at the vast sky where there were shining stars that somehow gave me comfort.
"Why are you still awake, Miles?"
I just felt someone standing next to me and I knew it was Zandy. I can't be mad at him anymore because maybe Roven is the one to blame. I looked at him for a moment. "I can't close my eyes, Zandy because every time I close them, everything comes back to my past," I said seriously.
I heard Zandy sigh. According to what he was wearing, he had just returned from somewhere. He is wearing a jacket and trousers. I saw him take off his jacket. "Wear this, it's too cold out here," he said softly.
I was just surprised when he put his jacket behind me. I don't know but I felt as if someone hugged me to give me comfort. Something inside me felt tickled by what Zandy did.
"Thanks, Zandy," I simply said and looked up at the sky again.
"I'm sorry, Miles, if you think I'm interfering with you and Roven. I'm sorry if you think I'm out of place to invade your relationship with him," he said seriously. I turned to him and he was looking right at me. His face was serious. "Just say it if you don't like what I'm doing," he added.
I looked away from him and bowed slightly. "I just want to know, Zandy, why did you agree to Roven's plan? I'm trying to think about what kind of relationship you have with him for you to agree to what he wants?"
Zandy gasped. He was holding on to the steel bar that acts as a barrier on the terrace. "I didn't want to do that thing, Miles, to hurt you but I have my reasons." He stopped speaking for a moment. "Roven's cousin is Beverly, the girl I loved for five years. I thought she was the one for me for the rest of my life, but I was wrong when Beverly asked me to break up with her. She said she wanted to prioritize her career. She wants to be a model in Paris. So, we're on the same ground at that time, Miles. We both left because they had more priorities than us. A year ago, after we broke up, I got a call from Roven for a deal. He will help me talk to Beverly and I will help him with his plan."
"I made a mistake then, Miles. In addition to hurting you, I was also hurt because when I talked to Beverly, she told me that she doesn't love me anymore," he said.
I was immediately speechless by what I heard. I don't know how I will feel. Some kind of frustration appeared in my heart because of what he said. I remembered what Roven had said that Beverly had returned and the model whose name was in the publication Beverly was also the name I had been in the elevator. Is she Beverly, Zandy's ex?
I looked away from him and turned to the stars. I smiled. "It turns out that we are in the same situation, Zandy, our past love for our family forced us to marry each other. Is it just a coincidence that we are in the same situation?"
"I don't know, Miles, but maybe we're destined to meet each other because we're in the same situation." Zandy shrugged.
I don't know why I feel sad because I know Beverly still has a place in Zandy's heart. "What will you do if what Roven said is true that Beverly is back?"
Zandy was speechless and I saw the surprise on his face. The emotion disappeared there, then he looked away from me. "I don't know, Miles. I don't know," he said casually.
Why do I feel this way? Why is there sadness in my heart for the fact that Zandy still loves Beverly?
"Are you going to take her back and leave me?" I didn't realize what came out of my mouth. It came out voluntarily with a trace of sadness there.
"Huh?" Zandy's shocked reaction. "I don't know if she came back, Miles, but if that's true, I won't leave you to go back to her. You're my wife. You made me feel special and accepted, Miles, which I didn't feel with her," he said while looking into my eyes
Our eyes met as if they were talking. Even if I try to avoid it, my eyes don't want to do it. Zandy's beautiful eyes seemed to magnetize me. The surroundings became silent and I could only hear the beating of my heart. The coldness of the air also disappeared because of the strange warmth I felt.
"T-thank you, Zandy. If you're going to leave me, please don't do it now," I said softly to him. "I'll permit you to invade my personal feelings, Zandy. I like what you're doing," I added. I feel like I've been swallowed by a strange feeling that I can't even hear my voice anymore.
"I'll do, Miles, as long as you promise to always be by my side to support me. You always give me the strength and motivation to do what I love to do, Miles. Thank you."
I just felt that Zandy and I were getting closer. I felt his body on mine. Our eyes are still talking. I feel my cheeks blushing but I don't know why I can't look away from him. I like how I feel and what is happening between me and Zandy.
Until I realized that Zandy's palm wiped the tears from my eyes that I didn't realize were falling.
"I want to get to know you more, Miles," Zandy whispered. "I wanted you to be part of my heart," he added, which made my heart beat even stronger.
"Z-Zandy," was all I stammered.
He closed my face in his palms. We were both engulfed by that strange feeling and the warmth that enveloped us. His face came closer to me and I could see every detail of his handsome face. I can also hear his breathing.
I closed my eyes as Zandy's face came closer to mine. A few more moments and I felt his soft lips close to mine. His lips moved while I was tightly clinging to the steel of the terrace. I feel like I'm weak. I feel like I'm going to fall.
"I want us to always be like this, Miles."