I DON'T know how I will react to every strange way Zandy treats me. He became sweeter to me while I was trying to adjust to the change in his treatment of me. I'm not good at it but whether I admit it or not, I'm happy and I like what he's doing to me.
"Have a seat, Miles," said Zandy after he held the chair to prepare it for me to sit down.
I smiled at him and quietly sat on the chair. It was past seven in the evening and Zandy and I went out of the villa to have dinner at one of the restaurants inside the resort.
I was only wearing a white t-shirt and shorts. That's why I could feel the cool breeze touching my body which gave me a unique feeling and relaxation. The ambiance in the province is different from the one I'm used to in Manila.
The meals prepared by the resort for us were already served on the table and based on their presentation, they looked delicious. I felt hungry because I also smelled the food in front of me.
"I know you're hungry, Miles let's eat," Zandy invited me.
He started putting rice on his plate and some meat that looked like it was pickled but had a strange smell and appearance. After he put food for himself, he turned to me and put food on my plate. I was only slightly surprised while watching him do what he was doing. My heart started beating abnormally and Zandy was the only reason for that.
"Thank you, Zandy," I said seriously, then turned to the food on my plate. I can't look directly at him because I might be stunned by his beauty again.
Zandy and I filled the table with silence, I could only hear the sound of cutlery and birds chirping at the same time as the waves hit the sea. I also saw the staff not far away from us looking at us with excitement on their faces.
After we ate, I distracted myself by typing on my cell phone and Zandy did the same. I don't know how to open the conversation between us because I'm outnumbered. I wasn't surprised by the texts from Zandy's family and my family, and so were Andrea and Melissa who wanted to know a lot. I just shook my head and smiled.
"Miles."
I was stunned when I heard Zandy's voice. I don't know but every time he mentions my name, it's as good to hear as music.
I put down my cell phone and looked at him seriously enough for him to understand that I was waiting for what he had to say.
"Let's walk on the seaside," he said looking directly into my eyes. I couldn't say no because I felt weak every time he looked at me.
"O-ok," I casually answered. I calmed myself down and looked away from him before standing up. I waited for Zandy to walk before I followed him.
The cold wind blew that stung my body. I looked at the bright surroundings because of the scattered lighting there. There are also clothes hanging in different parts that have different colors that are blown by the wind.
Zandy stopped when we got to the beach. I also felt the fine sand on my feet. He took off the jacket he was wearing. "Wear this, Miles, the air on the beach is too cold," he offered. I was going to refuse but he came to me and willingly put his jacket behind me. I feel weak when he is near me. My heartbeat was deafening. He even looked at me from head to toe. "It's a good thing we're the only ones here at the resort," he said weakly.
I frowned as I looked at him. "Why?" I will ask.
"You're wearing shorts and you look sexy and because my mom rented the whole place, no one else can see you, just me, and yeah, you look sexy and beautiful Miles," he said seriously, then turned his back on me and walked away.
I cupped my cheek because it felt warm even though the wind was cold. I couldn't move immediately and I didn't realize that the smile on my lips curved due to the thrill I felt.
When I recovered, I stopped myself from keeping the smile on my lips. I followed Zandy who was now only wearing a black t-shirt and Taslan shorts.
"I love these feelings, every time I'm near the sea. I love the sound of waves, the wind, and the smell of water. It's relaxing, physically and mentally," Zandy said. His face shows the joy caused by the satisfaction he feels because of the sea.
Every step of our feet sinks into the fine white sand. The waves of the sea also reach our feet which is very cold but feels good.
"I see it on your face, Zandy. The happiness you feel right is written on your face and I always want to see that," I said while looking at his handsome face.
"You know, Miles, I tried to show them how happy I am every time I'm in the kitchen. I wanna share my happiness with them, so they can feel and understand what I want. I've tried a lot but they don't seem to see it myself in the things I want to do." There was a trace of sadness and hurt on his face while saying those words.
I bowed slightly. I feel all of his grievances and if I can do anything to make his family accept what he wants to do, I will. "I believe, Zandy, that the time will come when your family will also understand you. They're just worried about your future, your company, but I know they also want you to be happy in what you want to do," I returned to him. that I want to make him understand because I feel that maybe his family is not that cruel to object to their son's happiness.
Zandy grinned. He bowed slightly before turning to me. "I hope so, Miles, that point comes because I am thirsty for their support in what I want to do. I feel incomplete because they are not in the world I want for myself. But you are right, they want me to be happy in other things but not what I want to do," he insisted.
"Zandy, I'm here, I'll support you in what you want to do. I'm not the one you expected to support you, but I'm willing to support whatever you want to do," I said seriously.
He smiled. "Thank you, Miles, for giving me strength to pursue my passion. I felt that someone was supporting me and that was enough for me to do what I wanted," he said. Zandy sighed. "I have a week for what Dad gave me for the thing I want to do and after a week, I have no choice but to work at the company. Study everything there," he confessed.
My brow furrowed and panic broke out there. "Huh? Does that mean you're going to work for the company? What about the restaurant?" I asked worriedly.
Zandy stopped walking and so did I. He turned to me, then smiled. I was just surprised when he held my hand and squeezed it lightly. He bowed for a moment. "That's still going on, Miles I will not let your support go to waste. I will let Ton manage the restaurant while I'm in the company," he said. I breathed a sigh of relief and somehow my nervousness disappeared. "And I want you to stay by my side, Miles, until I can do what I want. I wanna share everything with you."
"Zandy," my lips only mentioned while looking seriously into his eyes.
He smiled at me. "I need strength and support, Miles and I know it's you. When I'm by your side, I feel like I have someone to lean on when I'm tired. Miles, please, don't leave me yet. Let us be in this relationship for now," he pleaded.
"Zandy, I-I don't know how long," I said. I'm afraid that if I stay, I will fall and end up getting hurt. "I-I'm scared. You're not sure about your feelings for me and what you're saying is a gamble for me," I reasoned.
"I know, Miles, but I'm also gambling that if I choose you, I might love you and understand my feelings for you."
I don't know but fear prevailed in my heart because of what he said. Maybe love? There is no certainty and I don't want to be left and hurt again.
"Zandy, the gamble you want is not easy. I don't want to be hurt and left behind. You are not sure of your feelings and you are not sure that you will choose me when Beverly comes back," I said without hiding my sadness and pain.
"Miles," said Zandy.
"I-I don't know, Zandy."
When I was about to turn away from him, he tightened his grip on my hand and pulled me back. He quickly hugged me. "I'm sorry, Miles if you think of me as selfish, but I want to be with you."