SEVERAL hours of trip before we finally reached home. I can feel the tiredness and pain of my body sitting in the car. I couldn't even take a nap because of my chaotic mind because of what happened to Zandy and me. I don't know how to deal with him and talk to him after what happened to us last night.
I'm ashamed
The car stopped inside the garage of the house. I didn't let Zandy open the car for me so I got off first. I took my backpack from the passenger seat but I was about to get my suitcase when Zandy preceded me.
"I'll handle this, Miles," he said casually behind me. Our bodies pressed together which gave me a strange feeling. I have also smelled his fragrant smell that is delicious to the nose.
I just didn't say anything. I just looked at him for a moment, then walked towards the main door. I took out my key and opened it. I went straight into the living room, dropped my backpack, and sat down on the sofa. I leaned there and closed my eyes. A few moments later, I felt Zandy come too.
"Go, take a rest, Miles I'll prepare food for us," he said gently. I opened my eyes and saw Zandy standing. He put the suitcase and backpack there, then turned and walked towards the kitchen. I just looked away from him.
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AFTER I organized my things, I just rested for a while. I also can't rest properly because of the many thoughts that disturb my mind. I left the room and went down to the living room. I can immediately smell the aroma of Zandy's cooking in the kitchen.
"Wait the food, Miles it's almost done," said Zandy when he felt that I was behind him. I turned to the table and saw the food cooked by Zandy that was already appetizing just by smelling it.
A few moments later, Zandy finished cooking. I sat at the table while Zandy prepared a drink.
"Let's eat, I know you're hungry," Zandy said and sat in the seat opposite me. His face was serious.
I looked up at him. He is still handsome even though his face is very serious. I feel that when we come back here, Zandy and I's relationship will also change. I felt sad.
"After you eat, rest first, I know you're tired," Zandy said.
"Thank you, Zandy," I said and bowed. I started taking food. It was so delicious that it looked like it was being served in a restaurant.
"Miles, can I ask a favor?" he asked.
I looked up at him. "What's that?"
"I want you to treat me as your husband, Miles. I want to be your husband, your real husband. After what had happened, I realized something," he said seriously while just looking into my eyes. They are talking. "I realized what you mean to me, Miles."
My heart started to lose because of what Zandy said. I felt like everything around me stopped as we stared at each other. I swallowed because of his lips which reminded me of Zandy's kisses.
I blinked. I tried to avoid looking at him. I want to treat him as a real husband but I don't know how. There is still fear in my heart but deep down I want everything to be true for us.
"I want it, Zandy. I want everything to be true with us but everything is not certain yet. I also don't know how your husband acted and what I should do to treat you as my unrequited husband." I stopped speaking for a moment. "I'll try, Zandy."
"I understand, Miles but I want you to stay no matter what will happen, even if my past comes back, please stay and trust me."
I was stunned and could not speak immediately. I don't know what to answer but inside I want to trust him.
I nodded. "I trust you, Zandy."
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THE MORNING, I was surprised when mom and Aunt Mandy suddenly came to the house, apparently excited to see us there. I was just surprised when they suddenly hugged me as if they had good news to announce.
We sat on the sofa. Zandy is still up. I saw him on the terrace earlier with his laptop in front of him.
"How are you?" Mom asked as soon as we sat down on the sofa.
"How was the vacation, hija?" Aunt Mandy. The two looked at each other.
I smiled a few times. I remember what happened with Zandy and I'm sure if what Zandy said was true, Aunt Mandy knew about it. "We enjoyed the vacation, Aunt," I answered.
"Where's Zandy? Mom looked around to find Zandy.
"He's—"
"Hi, Aunt," Zandy interrupted what I was about to say.
We both turned to Zandy who had just arrived. He came to me and sat next to me.
The two in front of us looked at each other again as if they knew what happened. I felt even more ashamed. I can't even look at them straight.
"Why did you come here?" Zandy asked seriously.
"To see how your vacation is going. We prepared for this, son, so you can enjoy together and get to know each other better," Aunt Mandy replied.
"Is that it, Mom?" Zandy returned meaningfully.
Aunt Mandy frowned. "Of course, son," he said immediately.
"Mandy is right, we want you to enjoy each other so you can have more time and bond," mom seconded.
"'Mom, you don't need to do anything for us. I'm into her, she's my wife already and I'll take care of her. We're ok." Zandy's face shows annoyance as if he wants us to be taken care of by him and they don't have to interfere with the two of us. "You don't need to care about our lives anymore."
Instead of being annoyed by Zandy's answer, Aunt Mandy's smile widened as if she was even happier. "Son? So, are we expecting a little Zandy or a little Miles?"
My eyes widened. Zandy frowned while the excitement on mom's face was undeniable.
I immediately shook my head. "N-no way, Auntie," I immediately protested. "We're ok but we're not at that point yet," I explained.
"I'll announce if we did it, mom, but we're not ready for that yet. Don't rush to have a grandson," said Zandy.
"Why not? You said you're okay, right? I'm getting older, and so are your Dad and Miles' parents, we're excited to have a grandson while we're still strong. We also want to take care of Will as our grandson," insisted Aunt Mandy.
"Mandy's right, hijo, and sorry if you're under pressure for what we want. Don't worry, we just want to know that you're okay, we're happy. We'll just wait for what happens next and little Zandy and little Miles," mom seconded.
Zandy gasped. He turned to me with a serious face then turned to face us. "I understand, Aunt, but this time, I want Miles and me first. We'll fix everything by ourselves."
My eyes stayed on Zandy as my heart started beating fast. I could see the sensitivity on his face.