Tonight, I'm still thinking. Several incidents that have already happened, always come to me like this. At the same time I didn't know what to do after this and in my mind only a few things crossed. At the same time , I didn't really understand the current situation and instead always blamed everything on myself. I realized a lot of things now and instead there were some interesting things that were able to push me into the darkness that suddenly appeared. After that I felt myself wasted and only left something that I don't even understand until this moment. While all of that was haunting me, I felt a very strange sensation and it wasn't long before I felt something different from what I had just seen. After that I couldn't say anymore. It's almost done, now I start tidying up my desk and then take my bag. Not long after that, I also had an appointment with one of the people who turned out to be my tutor friend when I was in painting class. That person contacted me a few minutes ago and apparently asked me to meet somewhere. Yuko who then glanced at several other people, at that moment Yuko seemed a little surprised by everyone today. When it was time to go home, at that time I immediately went. Meanwhile, Yuko is still at school and seems to be looking around. Not only that, Yuko had indeed not come to school for a long time due to a serious illness. Now walking slowly and then finding something that is enough to make Yuko interested. That something actually made Yuko look like she was witnessing something fun and that's what Yuko's face is now showing. Not long after that, Yuko saw someone coming toward her and then that person said a few things to Yuko. At that time, Yuko even smiled and made the person in front of Yuko feel confused. After that, the person left and then Yuko also left from there . At the same time , there are some things that this time look quite strange. Most people weren't like the last time. They seem to have changed in just one month. After that there is nothing more interesting. Yuko then checked her cellphone and after that saw several incoming messages and it turned out that one of them was the doctor who treated her when she was sick. That person gave information and soon Yuko immediately fell silent but her face seemed to feel depressed.
'This, it's impossible,' Yuko muttered to herself.
Meanwhile, right now I was at the location where that person had asked me to meet. It didn't take long for us to meet. This person still looks the same even though it's been a long time since I've seen him. I felt like I met up with an old friend in general and we started talking to each other about school and so much more. I also feel that now it's much better than the last time we met and it really feels like that. This person has enlightened me a lot and maybe I can take the good side of what this person said.
"Well, so that's how it is."
"Correct. quite troublesome isn't it?"
"Yes."
Right now I feel that all of this came before me not by chance. At the same time , there are a number of things that have really impressed me to this day. At that time I also did not expect that now I began to see some things that I had never seen before. On the day when I felt something uncomfortable, at that moment I felt that maybe something was wrong afterwards. However, all the faults were completely invisible. Instantly I wondered why that could happen and when I noticed again there was nothing strange after that. I feel that all the things that have happened have brought about something that is not clear. Viewed in any way I feel that all of that is really outrageous. All this time, I don't know why it just came like someone was dragging me into it. After several times I realized and now I can only be silent. When I start to open my eyes and then look towards the window. Today is Sunday. Previously I had promised Yuko to come along to the shrine. After I finished preparing, that's when I started to feel such a pleasant sensation. On the way to get there, I felt real peace even though I went through several inclines that were quite draining. It turned out that a lot of people had come to this place and it looked like they also wanted to calm down. Immediately after that I immediately followed Yuko and a few minutes after finishing, I started to realize one very important thing. Even though it turned out to be just my imagination , I felt something different. Like being in another world. Yuko then told me something that I was immediately surprised when I heard it. The beauty and also the peace is really very calming and now I feel that.
"It turns out that a lot of people have come," I said.
“This place is always visited by people. They will also want to see this shrine out of curiosity.”
“Do all your family come here often?”
"Not really. It's just me and grandma who often come here.”
"I see, but why?"
“Maybe they don't really like this place. I also don't know exactly why, it's just that I'm too lazy to ask.”
“Wow, now there are many more people coming. so crowded."
"Come on. We have to go.”
"It's finished?"
"Yes."
"Isn't there anything else to do?"
"In this place of course not there. I think it's best if we go because there must be more of them too.”
"Okay."
“Oh yeah Anne, looks like you should see some references for your painting. Didn't you come for that?”
"But I don't use naturalism. I guess I just need some peace because it's been a long time since I've traveled to a place like this.”
"What?"
"That's my real reason."
“Ah, I thought you would paint something. And you need references that's why you came here."
"You are wrong. I just want. Not because of anything."
"Then we must go. There's another pretty good place nearby."
"How good?"
"It was so good that some people caught it on camera."
"So it seems."
When I looked around, it was true that the scenery was very good. At that moment I also felt a sensation that felt peaceful and calm. I like this place in no time. After that I also photographed some of these beautiful views and will save them. In my life I first came here and saw this. I'm so happy that I feel like I'm forgetting something. After that I also looked at the others and it didn't stop there, I also felt something that was really fun and now I'm really happy. After we left there , now I'm getting tired from going up and down the streets that are like stairs. I can't imagine how people keep coming and going here. I just came here for the first time already feeling very tired. At the same time , Yuko photographed one of the flowers growing there. Yuko seemed to be very happy when she saw the flower. I saw it too and it's really beautiful. It's just that, if I look back at this kind of atmosphere, it will never be forgotten. However, I'm willing to bet that it's actually not what I think it is. I felt that something was off and instead just filled my head with some weird stuff. I don't know what will happen after this and I also really want a peaceful atmosphere like this for a little longer. That desire continues to grow like a tree root that supports a plant. During that time I was also aware of the facts that might make me feel disappointed. I don't know what to do if that happens. At that time, I felt a little empty space in my heart and it gave me an uncomfortable feeling. I seemed to be under a deep ocean and could not rise to the surface. Until now I still feel that slowly by slowly making me uncomfortable too.
" You think of something?" Yuko asked me.
"Ah no. I think I'm getting tired from walking up and down like this."
"How about getting some rest first?"
"Good idea."
"You're not in pain are you ?"
"No. I'm just tired. By the way, did you feel happy after coming from that place?”
"Hah? Of course I just feel at peace. Nothing else but that. why ?”
"I'm just asking. To be honest, it's very peaceful, I also feel it. But there is something I still question until this second.
"What's that?"
"Was that shrine built by someone?"
"If that's true. but I also don't know for sure who made it.”