Trixy POV
I'm here outside at Heimez classroom and waiting for her so we could went together and finish our project for experiment. I even buy a carnival ticket so we could have fun first and go home. I check my watch and anytime now is their end of class. As their door open i saw my penguin leaving the room and holding her books, i smile and walk towards her hidding my ticket.
"Penguin!!" i said and hugged her she look back at me and pat my holder. "Let's go home now" i grabbed her hands and start walking. "Oh and i also b-" i felt she let go of her hands on me so i quickly look back at her and asked what's wrong.
"Trix i have a history and english project with someone" she said shyly looking down, i smile and understand her even when i feel that im hurt a little bit.
"Who is it?"
"Jeimy, she said it will take long but don't worry I'll be the one who will finish our project and pass our project in dead line and pls don't disturb me for a while i will be the one who will tell you if we're done" i was about to say something but she run away exiting the hallway. There still nothing between us but i can always feel the butterfly in my stomach but it's not making me happy it just hurting me.
I walk my way to the hallway and put my books in my locker, i don't really wanna waist the ticket i buy maybe i can still use it.
"Wazup my tiger!" i look around and saw Yui and Ved with our friends but im really not in the mood right now.
"Take it i don't know where im gonna use it" i said handing Yui the tickets for carnival and told them I'll be leaving first. When i exit the hallway i saw it's raining and the clouds is really heaving and so dark and the worse part is i didn't bring any umbrella.
"Great even the rain is comforting me..." i said and start walking out the gate. I don't give a fuck if i get sick it's my fault for not bringing any umbrella, i don't have a car or license so im used to walk home.
I stop in a nearest convenience store and buy some food and coffee, i wait in a line and just scroll at my social media.
"Good afternoon ma'am!" when i look up i notice that it was already my turn, i put the foods, drinks to the counter. "Oh miss i will also buy a coffee" she nod and told me the direction of coffee and cup, i thank her and grabbed the plastic bag. I make my way to the side window and take a one cup place it in coffee machine and wait for 8 minutes.
'Maybe it will take to long' i sit down to the side of the machine and i take a look if it's still raining but lucky me it's just windly. I grabbed my phone and text my penguin.
Tiger:
Let's hang out at Tibgrezy Day :)
Penguin:
Sorry Trix i already have plans :((
Tiger:
It's fine, be safe!
Maybe she's still doing her projects....i stand up and grabbed my coffee. Good thing it's not raining anymore. I wonder how's mom and dad.....
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When I got home i quickly run to my room and put my bag down, i jump in my bed and lay down. I then heard someone keep knocking at my door but i didn't saw someone at the living room.
"Trix?"
"Come in..." I really don't feel so well today, my head hurts and I can't get out of bed to change my clothes.
"YAHH! your wet and your laying in bed! Do you have fever?"
"Yeh......i won't attend school tomorrow and at Tibgrezy Day" i said forcing my self to stand up to change my clothes. "Are you sure? That's the best event of your school once a year" i only nod and told him to turn around so i could change. Yeh he's right and im really excited about it but who will be my partner their when all my friends have their partner and when im trying to asked Heimez out she will say busy. Then how can i continue courting her if she's always busy and avoiding me?
"Well....big brother will take care of you until you get better okay?" I smile and run toward him, he's the only one who cares about me...he's the only one who always on my side whenever im so down and im so lucky to have him as my big brother.
"Take a rest now and I'll cook soup and find medicine" i nod and he exit my room turning off the light. I grabbed my phone in table and text Camille that i won't come for tomorrow and at Tibgrezy Day cause i don't feel well i told her to keep it a secret and don't tell to our friends because i don't want them to get worried and have focus for the event. She asked me if Heimez and i fight but i told her that no and she's just busy doing projects with Jeimy so i just don't want to disturb her.
Heimez said i should not disturb her for a while...i want to shout, i want to cry but i can't i feel like she's start avoiding me. I shrug it off and force my body to get up to bed. I feel like im sweating so much and start feeling dizzy but i still force my body to walk properly exiting my room and make my way to the kitchen where my brother was cooking.
"Oh why are you here?"
"I feel hell in my room"
"Pfff!! just stay there, the soul is almost ready" he said giving me a bowl and spoon.
"She's avoiding me....." i said looking at my spoon crying and sobbing, i don't know why but i can't stop my self from crying i try but it just want to let go. He didn't say anything but just hugged me patting my back and just comforting me.
"Why are you so desperate to her? Trixy if she can't love you the way you love her then she's not for you!! can you just love your self first before her? Look at big brother....im always loving my self first and you more than everybody. And you should to the same, you first before them" I cry even more harder to his shoulder. He's right to that point but my self can't cooperate with me. "I know this is so lame but destiny will allow you to love who ever you want to but that's not mean they can love you back as much as you loved them, you know?"
"Thank you Junie, ill take that as a note" i said letting go of the hugged and smile at him. He told me the soup is ready and he will just get it for us.
Huh, maybe i need a break.....