I thought about that oath to death, but doesn't that oath not count? So I shook my head. Her face looked relieved, "Very good, never get involved in fighting for the position of the first wife of the imperial family, dealing with them is more dangerous than putting your head in a tiger's mouth."
I looked down, without realizing it, I straightened my slightly wrinkled dress and several strands of hair that had fallen on my forehead. He looked at me without blinking, then took a breath that was almost inaudible, he put out his hand, as if he wanted to help me straighten the hair that was hanging down my forehead, but as soon as he put his hand away, he immediately took it back, "Yu er, my grandfather is indeed from Xiyu, you could say he is the same with you."
I widened my eyes, dumbfoundedly looking at him. For the first time tonight, he smiled, “Grandfather could be said to have been raised by wolves. He was the prince of Yinai Country, but when he was just born, there was a coup in the palace so that his parents, the king and queen, were killed. A guard took him away from the palace along with the royal seal, then secretly hid him in the desert. At that time, because he couldn't find a wet nurse, the guard caught a wolf that was breastfeeding and used its milk to raise grandfather. Grandfather's actions were difficult to predict, after he grew up he did not contact his father's former subordinates and usurp the throne with the royal seal, instead using his extraordinarily handsome appearance to establish relationships with the princesses of various countries in Xiyu, which made many people in Xiyu want to kill him. It is said that one night, which was pitch black and strong in the wind, he suddenly got bored of playing with women and with jumuwa broke into the palace of Yinai Country, caught his uncle who was sleeping soundly, shaved the king's head bald, then ordered the kitchen to prepare a banquet. After that, he said to his uncle, 'You are more worthy to be king than my father', threw the royal seal on the floor, then proudly flung his sleeves and left. He fled into the desert and became a robber.” This story was blood-stained at first, but in the end it turned funny, I was stunned to hear it and couldn't help but ask, "Then how did grandfather get to Chang'an?"
Jiu Ye laughed and said, “Grandfather was a successful robber, the other Xiyu bandits one by one submitted to him. Because when he was little, grandfather grew up on wolf milk, the bandits under grandfather's leadership nicknamed him the Wolf Bandit, after that this nickname slowly changed to another name for the desert bandits. To sell his looted goods, grandfather traded, no wonder, he had a talent for commerce, and without meaning to, he slowly became the biggest gemstone dealer in all of Xiyu. For a moment, grandfather was victorious among both black and white in Xiyu, as a result, as grandfather said, Heaven didn't want him to be too arrogant, but actually loved him very much, so Heaven gave him a very sweet punishment. While robbing a group of Han merchants, he met my grandmother……”
Apparently, that was the origin of the wolf bandit's nickname, with a smile I continued, "As soon as I saw grandmother, grandfather immediately fell in love, and because he was a Han husband, he was forced to live in Chang'an and become a trader."
Jiu Ye shook his head, "The front is right, the back is wrong. At that time grandma was already married to someone else, she was a little concubine that the merchant didn't love, so grandpa chased them to Chang'an and robbed them, after he managed to get grandma, he felt that Chang'an was very exciting, so he stayed in Chang'an."
The story was more exciting than stories in wine or tea shops, I listened to it with my mouth agape, hmm......this grandfather's life. truly
great!
Jiu Ye gently said, "Now you understand my origins. Grandpa always supported Xiyu, at that time the Han Dynasty was still weak, between Xiyu and the Han Dynasty there was no significant friction, grandfather helped the Xiyu countries face the Xiongnu nation. Now, the Han Dynasty which is getting stronger day by day, frightening the Xiyu countries, but grandmother is a Han person, mother is also a Han person, I can't act like grandfather's subordinates before. Uncle Shi and the others are determined to help Xiyu face the Han Dynasty, but I can't can ignore grandfather's subordinates who are spread across Xiyu and in various professions in Chang'an, grandfather's subordinates in various countries in Xiyu are interconnected, if they unite and create chaos together, Xiyu and the Han Dynasty will both be hit by disaster. The Xiongnu will also have the opportunity to turn the situation around with one blow, and with the emperor's character like that, he will certainly send troops to punish Xiyu."
"You gradually weakened the Shi Corporation's influence in the Han Dynasty, not only to hide yourself from the emperor, but also to restrain the ambitions of Uncle Shi and the others?"
Smiling blandly, Jiu Ye nodded. I had expected that the situation was very complicated, to no surprise, the actual situation turned out to be more complicated and dangerous. On the one hand, Jiu Ye faced the emperor while protecting the innocent people of the Shi Corporation, while on the other hand, he helped the common people of Xiyu avoid the disaster caused by the war. On the one hand, he had to consider the threat of the Xiongnu, on the other hand, he also had to suppress the power of the Xiyu countries, especially the forces behind his back that could influence those Xiyu countries. Now, it seems that the ever-weakening Shi Company will have to compromise, the Xiongnu are threatening from a distance, the Xiyu countries are not willing to obey the rules, while Liu Che is watching from the throne with suspicion, if he is careless even a little, everything will become chaotic. Since childhood, Jiu Ye had to endure all these problems, how heavy this burden was, but he only joked about it.
When I think up to this point, the hope in my heart gradually grows bigger, he can tell me all these secrets, doesn't this mean that he now trusts me a lot? If so, will he be able to accept me? When Jiu Ye saw that I was looking at him without blinking, his relaxed and gentle demeanor disappeared, his eyes looked gloomy, he quickly avoided my gaze, no longer looking at me.
We were both silent, I looked down while biting my lip, my heartbeat was sometimes fast, sometimes slow, after a while, I said softly, "You already understand what I mean, I want to ask you one more time. You don't have to answer me now, I don't can receive a cruel answer from you. A few days until the new year, you once said that that day was a good day, at that time we would meet again. That day is my birthday too, I will wait for you at my house, if you don't come, I will understand everything. But..." I looked up at him, his eyes looked a little wet, "But I hope you will come."
I smiled broadly at him, after looking at him longingly for a while, I got up, "I'll go first, don't sleep with the window open anymore."
When he was about to open the door, he asked, "Wait a minute, don't look around, answer my one question." His voice was hoarse, “Yu er, do you want to have a family?”
While holding on to the doorstop, I said, "I want, I want a busy family. When I'm walking around, I envy noisy husbands and wives carrying children. Hearing stories about your childhood, I envy you too, grandfather, father, mother and siblings. sometimes noisy siblings. Happy family! How about you?"
For a moment there was no sound behind me, I was surprised and was about to turn away, but Jiu Ye's muffled voice was heard amidst the silence, as if with all his might to suppress feelings that couldn't be said, "Me too".
Those words were the best words I heard tonight, I turned and smiled.
Suddenly he asked again, “Yu er, Huo Huo
Qubing, is he very good to you?" For a moment I was silent, I didn't dare to face this problem, but I couldn't help but agree, I slowly nodded. After a while, his voice came back, "Go home! Be careful on the way".
I cleared my throat, then opened the door and went out. When I turned around to close the door, I caught a glimpse of his pair of jet black eyes, in which sadness, suffering and various other feelings seemed to be struggling, seeing him, my heart was suddenly full of waves. He didn't avoid my eyes, immediately, our eyes met each other, immediately, the wind blew and the clouds moved, the ocean was surging high.
My hand that was closing the door limply fell to my side, but the door moved by itself, slowly, very slowly, little by little closing before my eyes, his face slowly disappeared. His eyes, which for the first time dared to meet mine, finally separated from me.
In an instant, my energy seemed to burn out. I limply leaned against the wall, after a long time, I just had the strength to walk away.
“Let Fang Ru sing a song for us, but the content must be about him and Li Shifu.”
“Is it still Fang Ru? She should have been called Mrs. Li."
Everyone was scrambling to talk about how to enliven Fang Ru's bridal room, I smiled, heard their conversation but didn't hear it, with my mind full of thoughts I walked here and there. Hong Gu somewhat regretfully said, “Why did you tell LI Shifu to move house? Even if she marries Fang Ru, can't she still live in this house?”
“Let the two of them spend their days in peace! You've invited LI Shifu to be a song changer, but because he's successfully married Fang Ru, he's going to refuse to work for us? This will not affect our entertainment house business.” just as I said.
Hong Gu stared at me sharply for a while, then asked, “Xiao Yu, what happened to you today? Why do I feel that you are no longer familiar with all of us?"
I shook my head, "Li Shifu's status now cannot be compared to before. At the banquet there will definitely be people from the palace who will come to congratulate you. You must warn our sisters not to make a fuss."
Hong Gu immediately agreed, a bit tired I got up, "I've talked to Fang Ru, I won't take her out of the house, I'll leave everything to Hong Gu."
Hong Gu looked at me a little worriedly, but I patted him on the shoulder, motioning him not to worry, without saying anything, he went out.
Fang Ru was being dressed up by several middle-aged women, her fiery red bridal attire with a gold belt spread out on the bench, creating a festive atmosphere. From behind the window I heard laughter ringing out in the room, “Miss Fang Ru is really good at choosing days, since you chose New Year's Day, all the ladies can join in the fun!”
The thumb and forefinger of the middle-aged woman's hands opened and closed. She was braiding Fang Ru's hair with a thread.
“This wedding dress is really well made! Is this Mrs. Li's gift? The royal family's belongings are extraordinarily luxurious.” The middle-aged woman who was straightening her wedding dress and hair ornaments praised him.
After Fang Ru's hair was neatly arranged, she looked at herself in the mirror, then turned around and was heard saying, "This dress was bought by Xiao Yu, the madam actually wanted to give me a gift, but after hearing that Xiao Yu was going to buy a wedding dress, she said that she couldn't beat it." ”.
The middle-aged woman chuckled in amazement.
I turned around and walked out of the yard, then walked slowly to my own room. Today was truly a good day, the sky was clear, the clouds were sparse, the sunshine was warm, the house was festively decorated, the atmosphere was full of joy.
After entering the room, I closed the door, then took out Loulan's blue wedding dress, after holding her for a while, I spread it on the bench.
After washing my face, I loose my hair, then comb it with a wooden comb until it is soft, after that, I braid my hair on both sides of my head and put it in a bun at the back of my head. My skin was already pure white enough, so I didn't need to use powder, I wet the brush with a little black, then brushed it several times, I didn't draw the long eyebrows that were popular in Chang'an at that time, but painted eyebrows that looked like mountains in the distance. I took a lipstick sheet, then wet it, the color of the lipstick slowly became brighter, so that the flower painted on it seemed to come to life, when the color was the deepest, I drew my lips, then pressed the lipstick sheet on both of my cheeks.
The sound of music outside the window suddenly sounded loud, apparently the group to pick up the bride and groom had arrived. I listened carefully and my heart gasped, full of overflowing joy. Perhaps this is the sound that women most want to hear, the song they want to play for themselves.
After finishing dressing and putting on hair ornaments, I looked at myself in the mirror and thought of Lang Xiong in the desert, I couldn't help but turn around a few times in the room, my dress fluttered like a flower blooming in the wind, my mood became much happier.
Waiting is the thing that makes people suffer the most, my heart is hanging in the air, unable to rise and unable to fall, drop by drop the water from the water clock hits my heart. After staring at it without blinking for a long time, I felt that the water wouldn't drip down anymore, more and more slowly. I shook my head and forced my eyes to move away from the water clock.
I looked for something to look at to relieve my mind, I looked all over the room for objects that I could use to pass the time, finally my hand grabbed a piece of rope. I closed my eyes and tied dead knots along the rope, then opened my eyes and tried to untangle the knots. Making a knot, then untangling it, I did it many times and the room became dim.
I threw the rope, walked into the yard, then looked at the yard door. Daylight is gradually disappearing, darkness will soon arrive.
Maybe he doesn't want to meet outsiders, so he doesn't want to come when it's still light, after dark he will definitely come. I stood in front of the door, then stood with my back to him, hoping and praying.
The audience was drinking Fang Ru's jubilant wine, the courtyard was dead silent. It was too quiet, until I could hear the sound of my own heart falling, I didn't feel any pain, I only felt that things were getting darker and darker, a deep hole was vaguely visible, little by little I was sinking into it, who knows when I would fall to the bottom hard and cold.
A few icy cold droplets fell onto my face, before long, crystal clear white pieces flew around me and fell. The snowflakes were not big, they did not fall hard, they danced gently in the wind, they were about to fall but were shy, but they carried a softness that was hard to explain. Everything was covered in cold white snow that penetrated the heart straight away.
"Aiyo," someone heard the door being pushed open. For a while, I couldn't look away because my heart ached. It turned out that happiness emerged from hardship, and therefore joy also contained sadness.
I stood calmly for a while, then smiled and turned around. My face is smiling, but my heart is desperate. I closed my eyes in disbelief, but when I opened them again, Huo Qubing was still in front of me.
“When I first saw you, you were wearing these clothes, under the silver moonlight, next to a silver wolf, your dress floating, your jet black hair flying, so lively, as if not from this mortal world. Before knowing that that woman was you, I couldn't help but keep looking at you, wanting to see where you came from, and where you were going." Huo Qubing smiled faintly.
While holding my head with my hands, I slowly squatted down. In shock Huo Qubing loved me. "Don't worry about me, don't worry about me...", I unconsciously said to myself over and over again. He took his hand back.
Paying no attention to the dust and snow on the ground, without saying anything, she spread her embroidered coat on the ground and sat beside me, as if to accompany me silently, no matter how long I would squat.
Snow flowers slowly piled up on both of our bodies, he hesitated for a moment, then brushed off the snow that had fallen on my head and body, but I didn't move, like an ice statue.
Suddenly he got up and went into the house, not long after he came out carrying a bamboo umbrella, sat beside me, then opened the umbrella. The snow flowers danced lightly without a sound, she blandly looked at the plain white sky.
Xiao Qian and Xiao Tao flew one after another into the yard, Xiao Qian landed in front of me, but Xiao Tao immediately grabbed my head, Huo Qubing's sleeves swung and slowed Xiao Tao's flying speed. When Xiao Tao realized she couldn't beat me, she quickly spun around in the air, then landed by Xiao Qian's side.
Huo Qubing caught Xiao Tao, but Xiao Tao quickly dodged, angrily Xiao Qian was about to peck Huo Qubing, but Huo Qubing lightly dodged and tapped Xiao Qian's head, "I just wanted to take the letter at Xiao Tao's feet, not to molest her." . I immediately looked up at Xiao Tao, sure enough, a piece of cloth was tied to her feet.
For a while I hesitated, then unrolled the cloth. Forgive me. Messy letters written in a mess were written on the roll of cloth.
Forgive me? Forgive me! What I want is not your apology. My heart ached beyond belief, I bit my lip hard and something sweet and fishy slowly filled my mouth. I wanted to tear the cloth, but my hands kept shaking, the cloth was small, I could easily tear it to shreds.
I jumped up and ran into the house, one hand holding the cloth, while the other threw the things in the room, Huo Qubing stood in the doorway without saying anything, with a calm face he watched me ravage my room like crazy person.
Scissors, where are the scissors? After searching half the room, I still couldn't find it, my eyes fell on a small knife that I usually use to peel fruit, I immediately grabbed it. Huo Qubing suddenly called out, "Yu er!" He lightly landed on it. in front of me, was about to grab the knife in my hand, but after seeing me just tearing the cloth with emotion, without saying anything he took a few steps back and just watched me tear the cloth.
I lightly threw the knife away, then tore the veil and pearl headband that covered my head with both hands, immediately, the pearls fell scattered, falling with a clinking sound on the floor, the fragments of the veil turned into butterflies. -blue butterflies dancing in the wind.
I looked at the blue fragments, suddenly the anger in my heart disappeared, I knelt weakly on the floor, with wide eyes I looked forward, but saw nothing.
Huo Qubing pulled back his robes and sat in the doorway, his hands hugging his knees, his chin resting on his knees, his eyes looking at the floor. Silent like a wounded wolf, calmly lying in a corner licking his own wounds.
I don't know how long I was kneeling, I could faintly hear the sound of people chatting and laughing, the group of guests who had gone to tease the bride and groom had returned. Suddenly I realized, smiling, I said cheerfully, "I only ate a little earlier, now I'm hungry, I want to eat birthday noodles. Today is my birthday, I should be happy. I want to change clothes, you……”
He turned around and turned his back to me, I took off Loulan's clothes, then deliberately put on bright red clothes. I'm not sad, I don't want to be sad, I won't be sad because of someone who doesn't like me! Carefully holding the blue clothes, I muttered to myself, but my heart felt like it had been stabbed by a knife.
Event after event when we first met at Yueya Quan appeared before my eyes, but it was as if he was so far apart from me, I laughed, kept laughing, laughed until my whole body was shaking, I put strength into my hands and, "Snap!", my dress was torn. into two parts. When he heard that voice Huo Qubing turned to look at me, then sighed softly, “What for…… is this a gift from him?”
I threw the dress aside, then went straight out. Carrying an umbrella, Huo Qubing walked by my side without saying anything. My heart is colder than snow, how can I be afraid of the cold today? I walked quickly, "I want to take a walk in the snow." Without saying anything, he threw the umbrella away carelessly, but still accompanied me on my walk, regardless of the falling snow.
I didn't want to meet people and deliberately chose to walk in the dark, suddenly he asked, "Can you cook noodles?"
I was stunned for a moment, then answered, "I can't." He said, "The fire in my kitchen is still burning, and there are still people waiting on it, even though they can't make the main meal, they can still make a bowl of noodles."
Hong Gu was very thrifty in using money to buy clothing and food. After finishing dinner, the fire in the kitchen had to be turned off. In the middle of the night right now, I don't know where I can find an open kitchen. I nodded, then followed him, without saying anything, we both stepped out of the yard into the darkness.
I looked down at the noodles in the bowl, I had just eaten a bite, but I was already stubbornly trying to chat and laugh with Huo Qubing, but I couldn't stop my tears from melting and falling into the noodle soup, one by one, tiny ripples appeared on the surface. its surface. I quickly lifted the bowl, half-hiding my face and tried hard to eat the noodles with gusto.
Huo Qubing pretended not to see her and talked about unrelated things. Stifling a sob, I asked, “Is there wine?” He got up and returned with two jugs of wine. Apart from that, he also brought a towel, his eyes didn't look at me at all, but looked at the dark night behind the window, the sky full of snow, I lifted the wine pot and drank the contents sip by sip.
After being half-conscious, my nose smelled a faint, soft fragrance, when I fully regained consciousness, I realized that the fragrance came from two gold-plated silver balls filled with spices hanging from the top of the mosquito net. The mosquito net was decorated with violet and bat embroidery, the jade pillow I was using was dark blue and emerald, the atmosphere was luxurious, not like an ordinary person's residence, I suddenly realized that I had woken up in the Huo House.
While I was looking at the silver balls above my head in a daze, I suddenly missed Lang Xiong so much, I felt that only if I could hug his neck now, the thousands of pain and tiredness in my heart would be able to ease a little.
A servant girl asked in a low voice from outside, “Miss is awake?” I opened my eyes wide, but ignored him.
Some time later, Huo Qubing was heard asking outside, “Aren't you awake yet?”
"I've called him several times, but I haven't heard anything inside."
Huo Qubing ordered, “Are martial artists so spoiled? Prepare the device for washing your face!” After finishing speaking, he pushed open the door and walked in, "Don't be lazy in bed, it's already past noon, if you continue sleeping, you won't be able to sleep again tonight."
I remained lying motionless, he sat on the side of the bed and asked, "Your head hurts, doesn't it?" I held my head, then somewhat surprised said, "It doesn't hurt, yesterday I drank wine and my head hurt a bit, but today it's strange not, what kind of wine did I drink yesterday?"
“Where is there any special wine? "That's because of the medicine in the balls above your head, last night I deliberately asked the doctor to mix it."
Servant girls carrying basins, towels and dressing cases filed in, but I didn't open my eyes and held my breath, waiting silently. It seems like I have to get up, the day will continue, no matter whether you want it or not, I want to hide but there's nowhere to hide, so I sigh, "I'm going to get up, don't you have to go first?"
Huo Qubing got up and laughed, “You lazy bastard, move a little faster, my stomach is already hungry, if it's late I can only give you the rest of the side dishes.”