"How do i look?" I put down the magazine i'm reading when Blaire get out from the fitting room.
Like how i'm used to, i happily smiled and cheerfully clapped my hands towards her. "You're so gorgeous!" I praised.
"Are you sure?! I'm so excited!!" She giggled while looking at her dress.
I smiled hiding my bitterness. "I'm sure, you're always gorgeous though,"
Blaire pouted. "You really like to kid,"
"I'm not!" I defended before looking at my watch.
"You better decide what to wear, it's near to ten o'clock."
"Oh right! Light might be waiting for me! I don't want him to wait! Miss, I'm gonna buy this!" she called a salesclerk.
"I just go and pay, Samy." She pointed the cashier.
"Alright! I'll wait here," i replied.
Today, we're here at a known boutique for Blaire to buy a clothes for her date with Light today.
Yes, today would be my worst day.
I just decided yesterday after what i did with Light. I'll never make this long. Hoping that after this, i'll go back with my original life already.
I showed my teeth when Blaire towards me. "Let's go?"
"Yes! Definitely!" she exclaimed then clung her hands around my arms. "I hope he'll like my dress," she consciously stated.
"He'll like it, i'm sure of it." I put my right hand above hers while we're heading to her car.
"Thanks..." she tenderly put her head on my neck.
She just draw her head back to open the door, so i also opened the door for my seat and settled my self inside, when my phone suddenly rung indicating that someone texted.
I leaned back before picking my phone inside my purse.
Light: Don't make me wait.
That was the message.
I'm expecting for his cold approaches like this but I'm not expecting to be hurt like this.
He seems to be different person from the Light I'm used to. But why do i care, he's not mine from the very start. So why bother for this kind of approach?
I secretly sighed before typing for a reply while Blaire's busy driving and thinking for her date later.
Me: We're coming.
I directly put back my phone on my purse and focus my attention on giving directions to Blaire so that we could go to our proper destination. Because I'm the one who's setting them up, I'll be the one also to look for a perfect place. So i prefer a perfect place for them. I choose skyscrapers, it's one of my dream to rode one but i couldn't believe I'm using it for them.
I looked like a masochist for doing this but i just want Blaire to be happy even if it hurts me. I'll never rode with them anyway, I'll rode another skyscraper by my self.
It's already seven o'clock in the evening when we arrive on the site. It's perfect, since the weather is good today. The stars are already visible that can make the ambiance more romantic.
I clenched my fist to stop myself from showing that i was hurt. I leaned back on my chair even when Blaire already parked the car, i just wanted to relax and ready myself first.
"Samy?" I got back to my senses when Blaire knock the window in my side.
I nodded before opening the door and pushing my self out even when having a heavy feeling.
I was out of my senses again as we walk to the direction that i don't know, when Blaire suddenly hugged me on my waist from the side. "Samy thank you so much for this. I know you faced a hard time while doing it, i even doubt you but you still didn't give up. Thank you so much, finally i achieve my dream and be with Light. Gosh, I'm excited!! No doubt, you're really the best matchmaker!" she praised.
I smiled a bit before nodding my head. "No problem,"
Blaire get away from hugging me but she clung our arms together. We used to this since highschool, but right now i felt like I'm new to this and i felt so uncomfortable.
I hardly swallowed and never make Blaire notice my uneasiness.
"Oh, there's he!!" Blaire pointed.
I followed it and proved that it's really Light.
It's only meters away from where we are standing and he's also looking at us.
He's leaning on a counter of a booth while both of his hands are on his pocket. He's eyes doesn't show any emotion, that's why i hardly recognize his reaction towards Blaire.
"Samy, what should i do?!" Blaire excitedly but at the same time worrying asked.
"Don't panic, be confident." I pulled her closer to Light.
"Samy, you're hold's to tight," Blaire reprimanded that made me stop holding her. "Sorry." I secretly sighed.
"Let's just go," i ordered and walk first closer to Light.
Every steps i take, it made my heart more heavy. I felt like i want to ran away from here. I felt like i don't belong here. I want to get away but i know i shouldn't, it's weird.
I'm the matchmaker right?
I'm here to match them out. I'm here to match the man i love to my best friend. Stupid wannabe cupid, that's how i view my self right now.
"So..." We finally come near to Light.
Light on my left side, Blaire on my right side and me on the center. Looks like the old days when I'm matchmaking random couple but the different is, my heart is objecting. It doesn't want this to happen.
"Light....this is Blaire," i introduced. I saw his lips rose a bit. "And Blaire, this is...Light. You should spent and enjoy this night...together. And maybe...develop some feeling for each other," i hardly stated and using my second skin, i showed them my stretched lips.
I saw Light smirked at me after saying thoss before looking at Blaire. "You must be my future. I'm glad to meet you." He smiled and held a hand to Blaire.
I immediately bowed and look my feet on the ground to avoid seeing their shook hands and smile to each other.
"I'm really you're future." Blaire giggled. "Kidding aside, i been waiting for this day to happen. Thanks you to my best friend and to you who makes this happen," she added.
"Yeah, you're best friend's a great matchmaker," Light replied. But what i hear is pure mocking.
I'm glad, Light seems to find Blaire interesting already. The way he spoke, was used to be on me. He became gentle again and i saw him smiled again since we fight.
I swallowed and stopped the side of my eyes from heating up.
"Uhm, Samy. Where should we go?" I immediately raised my head as i heard my name.
I looked at Light but immediately looked away when i realized Blaire's the one who called.
"Uh..." I opened my purse and get the ticket, that i get for them. "Here. It's already settled you can now enjoy...together." I faked a smile that looks genuine. I already mastered this skill.
Blaire immediately get the ticket from me. "Thank you!!" she happily stated and quickly hugged me.
"Light, let's go?" she neared to Light while holding the tickets.
Light rose from leaning before move his head to my direction. "How about your best friend?"
I bit my inner lip. In the past month, we're used to first name basis, but right now I'm already addressed as 'best friend'. Funny how the table turns.
"Ah...Right..Where will you be going Samy? Wanna join us?—"
I immediately shake my head. "No. No."
Going with them would be my cause of death. "No. I'll just go somewhere here. I'll wait until you both decided to go home,"
"As a matchmaker, you must be joining us right?" Light inserted while hands in his pocket.
Yeah, right. I'm a matchmaker. No need to slap that on my face.
"No. You both should spend time together," i disagreed.
Lights sneered, disapprovals really on his face but he just keep his mouth shut. Then there's Blair who noticed Light reaction, immediately looked at me in a begging way.
"Samy, just go with us please. It's still our first time so it'll be awkward right? Don't worry on our next date we'll never bother you anymore. Please..." Blaire clasp her hands together.
I almots got choke with my own saliva when she said next date. I kind of sure that it'll never happen, Light said only one. If Blaire wants next date then does it means another steamy night with Light? It was his condition right?
I cleared my throat and wipe all my thoughts away. Fudge!! I shouldn't think about it. Especially that they're both on my front.
"Fine..." I heavily sighed to agree.
I saw a little rise of Light's lips while Blaire seemed to breathe because of my answer.
"Let's go?" i asked.
"Uh...Light, let's go?" Blaire hesitatedly asked.
Then surprisingly, Light nodded and offer his arms to Blaire. "Sure,"
Blaire happily clung her hands to Light's elbow and they walk together. Completely leaving me behind, like my existence suddenly vanished.
It looks like they don't need me at all. In fact they don't look awkward. But because i have one word, i started to step my feet to follow them.
My eyes were struck on their clung arms. I badly want to look away but i just couldn't. Most especially when we're already on the crape.
Giggling. Chuckling. Eating together. Throwing jokes. Eating on each others spoon. Taking picture. Was the common things they did inside.
I felt so out of place while watching them doing those stuffs. I was right lately, it seems that i don't need here already.
After all, i was just on this corner silently eating my food alone while trying hardly to stop the side of my eyes to heat up. And hardly trying to stop my self from looking them.
Me as a masochist was really true. I love hurting my self. I keep on glancing at them, while they're doing something sweet moments together.
This day will come and I know that, but I'm not ready.
I sighed heavily and faced an opposites direction from them when my eyes couldn't be stop anymore.
I couldn't help but to let go my sobs.
The hole he carve to my heart is already too deep and big. That's why seeing him with another woman, feels like a hell. Completely.
I opened my mouth and finally letting myself to cry.
This crape witnessing two kind of scene. A couple who's happily feeling each others presence. And a hopeless girl, who's silently sobbing on a side absorbing their happiness.
I know Light was really never mine. But seeing him happy with another woman just can turn my soul into pieces. Yes, I'm starting to be selfish.