I shook my head dismissively after I chewed the food Innov have gave me.
"I'm full," I told him.
But he's still giving me another one."This one's healthy..."
"I said, I'm already full. Come on, stop babying me." I crossed my arms as my brows formed in one line.
He made a short laugh before he put down the tray.
"Alright, alright. Drink your water now," he commanded. I frowned and took the glass of water on the tray and drank it.
"Happy now?" I asked in sarcasm.
"Very," he started cleaning the side of my hospital bed.
"What are you still doing here? Don't you have a class?" I asked and rested my back at the headboard.
He gave me a look."I just recently went here but you're already shooing me away. Anyway, yeah. I have a class right now but it's still seven in the morning. It's okay to be late because of you," my forehead wrinkled.
"Are you out of your mind? It's never okay..." I rolled my eyes. He's being crazy again.
"It is," I chose to not make a response."I'm gonna leave you here for the meantime. Is that okay with you?"
I nodded quietly. True enough, he brought the tray and left me here. I understand the situation though. He's a consistent achiever in their university and he wouldn't dare to absent just because of me.
I suddenly remember going to school. It's not that I'm excited to study again but I'm eager to see those I left behind unexpectedly.
Especially, Rocelia. I wonder how is she? What is she doing right now? Is she even okay? I hope she's doing fine. Although I want her to check me here, to stay here beside me while listening to her silly jokes and stories, I can't be selfish. She don't deserve to be involved in my own problems, see deserves the peace. I don't want her to be the part of my chaotic life. And thinking those days with her, I doubted my decision. Maybe it's really wrong to make her as my friend. She could be living a normal life if I did better, if I just put more effort to ignore her presence.
"That's open," I shouted after the sudden knock on the door.
It slowly opened."Miller?" I wondered and half-surprised.
He's holding a bouquet of flowers. He placed it on the bedside table. I almost scratch my head. The bedside table has no space anymore. Poor non-living thing.
"How are you feeling?" He asked.
I'm amazed at his voice at first because it's been what? 2 weeks since I saw him, that time I was annoyed wherever I go, he follows.
"I'm good. How about you? It's Tuesday today, why are you here?"
"Visiting you," he simply answered and he shrugged.
"But what about your class?"
He shrugged his shoulders again. God, I forgot. He's not that good at talks.
"Vanez... what happened, really?" He asked hesitantly. I stared at him and shook my head.
"I'm sorry but I can't tell you..." It's not appropriate to tell others about the brotherhood.
We have this rule. If you don't want to be kick to hell, don't spread your knowledge about the hood. That's what Jaguar broke after we separated and he thinks the brotherhood was the reason of his mother's death up until now. He's just living peacefully now, without any trace of the brotherhood because of me. I saved him from hell and I didn't regret it. I loved him too much that I willingly accept Lash's punishment.
"Is that so... Well, I see. I can understand..." Miller nodded repeatedly. He shifted his weight and put his hands inside his pants's pockets."I just went here to check on you. Just so you know, there's a lot of quizzes you missed. If you want, I can give you my answers. Just tell me."
I stared at his face. I'm wondering where's the smirking Miller now? He looks so serious, huh. But if I were to choose, the serious one is better. No annoying.
"Thanks for the offer, but I think I won't take the quiz. I'll just tell my professors that I should be exempted because I've admitted here." I said coolly.
"That's not given, Vanez. They won't take this as an excuse." He gave me a sad look.
I tightened my jaw and rolled my eyes."Ugh, whatever! I won't take quizzes and that's final!"
I heard his deep sighs.
"They are right. You really are a hard-headed," I didn't talk back."I'm going now, but I'm gonna visit you again later." It was to late for me to react when he winked before he left me.
What was that? Ugh, crazy visitors. I wonder who's next.
I waited for another visitor. I was just staring intently at the door, I'm looking  stupid here but I just don't wanna be surprised again. It's okay to be prepared.
Something jumped inside me when I saw the doorknob moved. The moment it opened, I made myself ready but my chest crashed as my back stilled after seeing my next visitors. Dad slowly walked near me, behind him are Sharon and Akira.
"So, what did you do this time, Vanez?" Dad welcomed me with that question.
I feel disregarded. How can he do that to me? Instead of asking my condition and how am I feeling, he bombarded me with that shitted question? Nice.
I didn't answer him. I heard Sharon's scoffs."Maybe she was involved with some school fights again. You should get used to your daughter, Martin, there's no chance she won't put herself in danger. Because she loves the danger." She shrugs.
"Mom's right, Dad. By the way, how are you feeling, Vanez?" Akira interfered.
I hid my tightened fists under the white blanket. Damn fake bitch.
"I'm feeling well, not until you came here," I said.
Her and her mother's eyes widened."Martin, look at your daughter!" Sharon winced.
"Vanez! Will you please stop being a brat? Even just for today? Look at you, you got hit and just surpassed a coma but you still are stubborn!" Dad started raising his voice.
I moved my eyes to another direction and let him scold me.
"We went to London because I want to celebrate Akira's achievement for winning the dance competition yet you ruined it. God, Vanez... I don't know what to do with you anymore. I don't wanna say this but I have to. You're being a headache to this family..." his words were like knives attacking me.
How can he throw that direct to my face? He just proved to me how unfair he is.
"We're here to visit you, to check on you. Akira's just asking how are you but you're doing nothing but to be sarcastic! I thought you already learned your lesson. I'm worried about you, Vanez. During our flight, I was thinking about your condition! Did you even get it? We are just concern about your health, even Akira chose to fly back here for you!"
I turned to him harshly."Why, Dad? Did I told you to come over here? Did I told you to check on me? To care about me? I did not! Because all of you, you're not obliged to go here and check on me! I can handle myself! I don't need you here!" I shouted.
He look shocked, especially Sharon, she even held her chest. Akira held Dad's arms before she glared at me.
"Stop disrespecting, Dad! You don't have a heart!"
I smirked sarcastically."Oh, do you have? You, stop being intruder! Bitch," her chest moved up and down while looking angrily at me.
Sharon took her. I faced Dad again. He pointed his finger at me. I just can't accept all the things I'm not expecting him to do to me, he can do it without hesitations.
"All I want for you is the best. I don't know why you're doing this to us, Vanez. Did I raised you wrongly? I have you everything you want! I enrolled you to good schools! Buy you anything! So, why are you doing this to me?" His forehead wrinkled while waiting for my answer to his stupid questions.
Yes, stupid. Guess he's giving me back all the things he gave to make me feel guilty.
"Aren't you aware? What do you think of yourself, the perfect father? The hero? The best? No! You're asking if you raised me wrongly? Why? Did you ever raised me? Mom was the one who raised me! You, you did this to me! I'm being like this because of you! You're one of the reason why I am like this! And you want me to respect you? Why would I?" My voice trembled as my tears started pooling in the corner of my eyes.
"Huh? Tell me why would I do that? You went here just to scold me? You didn't even ask about how have I been! If I'm hurting! If I'm in pained! Well, when did you ever ask about my feelings anyway?" I made a short sarcastic laugh.
He looked away and by that time, I know he's guilty.
"Vanez, he just wants to---"
"Shut the fuck up! I'm not talking to you!" I gave Akira a sharp look.
I looked at my guilty father again.
"Are you regretting it now? Flying back here just because of me? Why did you even bother going back here? I've caused you nothing but headache and stress, to always disappoint you... I did not tell you to come here just to scold me! I'm tired, Dad! Yes, I'm tired of hearing it! I'm just so fucking tired..." I let my tears fell from my eyes.
He looked up to me again, his eyes were watering, too.
"But... when will you learn?" Instead, he asked.
"When will you give me a break first?" I asked, too.
I took a deep breath and wiped my tears off my face."I want to be alone..." I demanded.
"What? We went here to take care of you---" I cut Akira.
"Can you please stop pretending? Don't give me that bullshit! I don't need your fake concerns!" She shut her mouth but continued glaring at me. I ignored her and took the blanket to cover my whole body.
"Leave me alone," I commanded. Dad was about to speak but I didn't let him."Leave!" my chest was heavy, I waited 'til I heard the click of the doorknob.