i chose to be alone. i successfully controlled myself from crying again, but i didn't save my sore eyes. if i just have sticks here, just a single one, i will just calm myself down.
i'm not expecting another visitor anymore so i started peeling the orange on the bedside table. i was in the middle of munching it when a knock interrupted me. my mouth left hanging, my brows arrowed.
what the hell? who is it this time? i wasn't expecting anyone and i already told the nurses to not let anybody enter my room because i'm not accepting another visitors!
i'm so much stressed because of my previous visitors, then here's another---oh my goodness!
"vannnn!"
i almost lost my grip on the orange when rocelia suddenly appeared. it's was too late for me to react because she immediately jumped here to hug me. i just pushed her a little bit when i felt that her hug was so tight, she got it and apologized rightaway. i noticed she's not alone, she's with vencie.
"i thought we can't visit you today! those nurses outside said you're not accepting visitors, is it true?" she asked and put her hand on her waist.
i nodded casually."yes, because i'm stressed after i talked to my previous visitors."
"aw, are we included?" her puppy eyes shown up.
and i can't help to admit that i missed it. i missed her.
"did you visit me yesterday and earlier?" i asked with a hint of sarcasm. she shook her head innocently. i sighed."then, no. you're not included... if you will only behave." i advised afterwards.
she pouted.
"hey, i'm behave!" i looked at vencie, he showed me the basket of fruits he's holding."my grandma harvested those for you. just gonna drop it here," he placed it on the table.
"i think you guys will overdose me with those nutritious foods," i cringed.
lia laughed."oh, van! you need those. just be thankful, alright? be thankful because you are safe. because we are truly thankful you're still breathing," she joked.
"she's right. it's been 2 weeks since there's no vanez spreading evil vibes in the clinton high," vencie followed. what the...
i ended up rolling my eyes and they laughed together. ugh, these two. they won't giving me stress, but annoyance.
"yeah, we realized clinton high is empty without your trace." lia smiled after laughing at me. i don't know if i should smile back or stay annoyed.
when she suddenly held both of my hands and squeezed it while staring at my eyes.
"we're sorry, van. we're sorry if we visited you just by now. i swear, i tried to cut my class but my parents didn't let me. i was willing to... disregard my grades in exchange of visiting you because i'm very much worried. i wanted to know what happened to my best friend, each night i can't sleep and i'll just cry, thinking i'm such a useless friend..." she looked at me apologetically.
her shoulders started shaking.
"hey..." i tapped her one shoulder.
vencie moved closer to lia to console her.
"i don't know what happened to you but i'm here now... i'm here now to listen. i'm here now... you won't be alone anymore. you can talk to me anytime, i'm here, i'm staying. i'm sorry if i'm late..." she sobbed. i gulped and held her hands as well.
"hey, it's alright. i'm okay now... what's important is that i'm now safe. i surpassed it. aren't i'm awesome?" i tried to act cooly but she didn't take it.
she squeezed my hands again."i know you're hurting, you can count on me, anytime. i'm just here, i'll stay with you until your fully recovery." her eyes reflects pure sincerity.
it touched my heart. i squeezed her hands.
"thank you... i miss you, lia." i gave her a small smile.
she smiled back."i miss you, too, van..."
and we both giggled.
until vencie faked a cough. we both looked up to him.
"actually, we're not your only visitors right now. we're three and he's outside," he told me. i caught him glancing at lia with this hideous smile.
it's like there's something they know that i do not know.
my forehead creased."really? who's he?" i asked curiously.
he just smirked and when i faced lia, she's trying to hide her smile. i wondered even more. what's with that reaction?
i'm starting to get curious when the door opened and the guy with his usual specs, entered. i watched yukenzo as he closed the door, my eyes moved down to the human-size blue teddy bear he's holding. i heard lia's small giggles. vencie greeted his friend.
"what took you so long, man?" he asked yukenzo.
yukenzo glanced at me first before he answered,"a random kid from the other room saw this teddy bear and she adored it that much, so i waited until she finally let go this, and also, i told her that her parents will also buy her teddy bear. that's why i'm late," he explained.
i blinked while vencie and lia laughed. i looked at the teddy bear again, it looks fluffy, there's red ribbon and white tag wrapped around its neck and because yukenzo is a slender guy, it seems difficult for him to hold the bear. poor him.
lia stood up and tapped yukenzo's shoulder."that's okay. just give her what you want to give her. goodluck!" she winked at him.
we both cringed.
she and vencie went to the lounge and stayed there. the room i was in is big and minimalist. there are two bed, sofa, flat screen tv and lounge.
i got back my senses when i heard someone cleared his throat.
yukenzo handed me the human size teddy bear."it's okay if you don't want it, i can give it to the kid earlier---"
"did i say i don't want it?" i raised my brow. he shut up.
i gently took it from him, i can't help but to smile because it's really that large. it's almost consuming the whole space of my bed.
"thank you..." from staring at the teddy bear, i gazed at him again."why teddy bear? do i look like a 5 year-old kid?" i bluffed.
lia laughed from the side along with vencie.
"maybe because he's seeing you as the brat child who always rants about stuffed toys." vencie smirked.
yukenzo glared at him.
he looked at me again. i can already notice the sudden redness of his ears down his neck. he look so pressured.
"i bought that for you so you can have a fluffy thing to hug aside from pillows..." he reasoned out.
i don't know what to react, i just found myself trying so hard to hide my smile. the hell? why am i smiling? i'm getting weird these days...
i hugged the teddy bear,"hmm... if i want something to hug, why not you instead?" i joked.
i never thought i would say that words, and of all person... i said those to him. but that was just a joke. can't i joke?
lia shierked on her seat followed by vencie's malicious whistle. while looking at yukenzo, his brows remained in furrow. i want to laugh but i stopped myself. did he take it seriously? but i'm just trying to lighten up the mood!
"i think i'm not that huggable." he said.
i can't control it anymore. i burst out a laughter. i almost cry while laughing so hard. after years, i laughed this way again. i realized it's a good feeling, laughing like there's no problems lurking behind.
how i missed laughing...
but everything has changed now.
i stopped from laughing and cleared my throat."well, thanks for this. thank you for visiting me, lia... vencie," i glanced at the two who are having their own world.
"no problem," she winked.
"how are you, arnaez?" yukenzo asked.
"i'm better than the previous weeks,"
"i heard you've been into coma? what are you doing with your life?" he sounded like dad. i rolled my eyes.
"oh, please. don't ruin my mood. you're being annoying again, cabrera."
"tss..."
"there's a lot of activity you have missed, just informing you." oh, it's him and his boring side again.
lia agreed to him.
i sighed."yeah, i already knew that. miller told me earlier when he came here."
"what?!" lia and vencie both looking shocked.
i arched my brow.
"he visited you here? why?" vencie asked me and i wondered why his face became serious.
i'm not yet answering when lia seconded."i knew it! that's why he went late! gosh, he's so thoughtful!" she even commented.
"what?" vencie quickly gazed at her.
i was about to answer them but yukenzo made me stop.
"miller visited you?"
why is he asking anyway?
i nodded."yes,"
"why did he?"
"why not?"
he blinked and stood up casually.
"just don't trust easily..." he looked away.
"uh, noted?"chapter fourty one
i chose to be alone. i successfully controlled myself from crying again, but i didn't save my sore eyes. if i just have sticks here, just a single one, i will just calm myself down.
i'm not expecting another visitor anymore so i started peeling the orange on the bedside table. i was in the middle of munching it when a knock interrupted me. my mouth left hanging, my brows arrowed.
what the hell? who is it this time? i wasn't expecting anyone and i already told the nurses to not let anybody enter my room because i'm not accepting another visitors!
i'm so much stressed because of my previous visitors, then here's another---oh my goodness!
"vannnn!"
i almost lost my grip on the orange when rocelia suddenly appeared. it's was too late for me to react because she immediately jumped here to hug me. i just pushed her a little bit when i felt that her hug was so tight, she got it and apologized rightaway. i noticed she's not alone, she's with vencie.
"i thought we can't visit you today! those nurses outside said you're not accepting visitors, is it true?" she asked and put her hand on her waist.
i nodded casually."yes, because i'm stressed after i talked to my previous visitors."
"aw, are we included?" her puppy eyes shown up.
and i can't help to admit that i missed it. i missed her.
"did you visit me yesterday and earlier?" i asked with a hint of sarcasm. she shook her head innocently. i sighed."then, no. you're not included... if you will only behave." i advised afterwards.
she pouted.
"hey, i'm behave!" i looked at vencie, he showed me the basket of fruits he's holding."my grandma harvested those for you. just gonna drop it here," he placed it on the table.
"i think you guys will overdose me with those nutritious foods," i cringed.
lia laughed."oh, van! you need those. just be thankful, alright? be thankful because you are safe. because we are truly thankful you're still breathing," she joked.
"she's right. it's been 2 weeks since there's no vanez spreading evil vibes in the clinton high," vencie followed. what the...
i ended up rolling my eyes and they laughed together. ugh, these two. they won't giving me stress, but annoyance.
"yeah, we realized clinton high is empty without your trace." lia smiled after laughing at me. i don't know if i should smile back or stay annoyed.
when she suddenly held both of my hands and squeezed it while staring at my eyes.
"we're sorry, van. we're sorry if we visited you just by now. i swear, i tried to cut my class but my parents didn't let me. i was willing to... disregard my grades in exchange of visiting you because i'm very much worried. i wanted to know what happened to my best friend, each night i can't sleep and i'll just cry, thinking i'm such a useless friend..." she looked at me apologetically.
her shoulders started shaking.
"hey..." i tapped her one shoulder.
vencie moved closer to lia to console her.
"i don't know what happened to you but i'm here now... i'm here now to listen. i'm here now... you won't be alone anymore. you can talk to me anytime, i'm here, i'm staying. i'm sorry if i'm late..." she sobbed. i gulped and held her hands as well.
"hey, it's alright. i'm okay now... what's important is that i'm now safe. i surpassed it. aren't i'm awesome?" i tried to act cooly but she didn't take it.
she squeezed my hands again."i know you're hurting, you can count on me, anytime. i'm just here, i'll stay with you until your fully recovery." her eyes reflects pure sincerity.
it touched my heart. i squeezed her hands.
"thank you... i miss you, lia." i gave her a small smile.
she smiled back."i miss you, too, van..."
and we both giggled.
until vencie faked a cough. we both looked up to him.
"actually, we're not your only visitors right now. we're three and he's outside," he told me. i caught him glancing at lia with this hideous smile.
it's like there's something they know that i do not know.
my forehead creased."really? who's he?" i asked curiously.
he just smirked and when i faced lia, she's trying to hide her smile. i wondered even more. what's with that reaction?
i'm starting to get curious when the door opened and the guy with his usual specs, entered. i watched yukenzo as he closed the door, my eyes moved down to the human-size blue teddy bear he's holding. i heard lia's small giggles. vencie greeted his friend.
"what took you so long, man?" he asked yukenzo.
yukenzo glanced at me first before he answered,"a random kid from the other room saw this teddy bear and she adored it that much, so i waited until she finally let go this, and also, i told her that her parents will also buy her teddy bear. that's why i'm late," he explained.
i blinked while vencie and lia laughed. i looked at the teddy bear again, it looks fluffy, there's red ribbon and white tag wrapped around its neck and because yukenzo is a slender guy, it seems difficult for him to hold the bear. poor him.
lia stood up and tapped yukenzo's shoulder."that's okay. just give her what you want to give her. goodluck!" she winked at him.
we both cringed.
she and vencie went to the lounge and stayed there. the room i was in is big and minimalist. there are two bed, sofa, flat screen tv and lounge.
i got back my senses when i heard someone cleared his throat.
yukenzo handed me the human size teddy bear."it's okay if you don't want it, i can give it to the kid earlier---"
"did i say i don't want it?" i raised my brow. he shut up.
i gently took it from him, i can't help but to smile because it's really that large. it's almost consuming the whole space of my bed.
"thank you..." from staring at the teddy bear, i gazed at him again."why teddy bear? do i look like a 5 year-old kid?" i bluffed.
lia laughed from the side along with vencie.
"maybe because he's seeing you as the brat child who always rants about stuffed toys." vencie smirked.
yukenzo glared at him.
he looked at me again. i can already notice the sudden redness of his ears down his neck. he look so pressured.
"i bought that for you so you can have a fluffy thing to hug aside from pillows..." he reasoned out.
i don't know what to react, i just found myself trying so hard to hide my smile. the hell? why am i smiling? i'm getting weird these days...
i hugged the teddy bear,"hmm... if i want something to hug, why not you instead?" i joked.
i never thought i would say that words, and of all person... i said those to him. but that was just a joke. can't i joke?
lia shierked on her seat followed by vencie's malicious whistle. while looking at yukenzo, his brows remained in furrow. i want to laugh but i stopped myself. did he take it seriously? but i'm just trying to lighten up the mood!
"i think i'm not that huggable." he said.
i can't control it anymore. i burst out a laughter. i almost cry while laughing so hard. after years, i laughed this way again. i realized it's a good feeling, laughing like there's no problems lurking behind.
how i missed laughing...
but everything has changed now.
i stopped from laughing and cleared my throat."well, thanks for this. thank you for visiting me, lia... vencie," i glanced at the two who are having their own world.
"no problem," she winked.
"how are you, arnaez?" yukenzo asked.
"i'm better than the previous weeks,"
"i heard you've been into coma? what are you doing with your life?" he sounded like dad. i rolled my eyes.
"oh, please. don't ruin my mood. you're being annoying again, cabrera."
"tss..."
"there's a lot of activity you have missed, just informing you." oh, it's him and his boring side again.
lia agreed to him.
i sighed."yeah, i already knew that. miller told me earlier when he came here."
"what?!" lia and vencie both looking shocked.
i arched my brow.
"he visited you here? why?" vencie asked me and i wondered why his face became serious.
i'm not yet answering when lia seconded."i knew it! that's why he went late! gosh, he's so thoughtful!" she even commented.
"what?" vencie quickly gazed at her.
i was about to answer them but yukenzo made me stop.
"miller visited you?"
why is he asking anyway?
i nodded."yes,"
"why did he?"
"why not?"
he blinked and stood up casually.
"just don't trust easily..." he looked away.
"uh, noted?"