What does it really mean? When one's heart beating so loud aside from being nervous?
Am I nervous?
But I can feel an emotion other than that feeling. An emotion that I cannot name. An emotion that this guy in front of me made me feel right at this moment.
It took me a lot of courage to compose myself."C-come again?" I badly want to punch my own face for fucking stuttering.
"I said... I want to court you because I like you," the beat of my heart turned louder that it keeps on echoing in my ears."I like you, Arnaez." He said it firmly.
I don't know what to react. What should I react? Do I need to react? Is this some kind of talk shit again? Is this a prank? Because if this is then, I might kill them right here, right now.
But the more I look for a hint on his eyes where I could find some sort of bluffing, the more I'm seeing nothing but pure sincerity and damn, what the hell was that?
Instead of putting myself into shame, I made a mischievous smirk."You know what you're doing, aren't you? Look, they are watching us here. Don't you mind them seeing you like this? Their known cold president who has this good reputation is giving me these cheesy stuffs," I pointed out the things he's holding."And confessing in front of me? This is absurd! Fucking so funny!" I exclaimed.
Nothing changed with his expression. My smirk eventually faded so as the murmurs around the atmosphere.
I looked at him seriously."Do you get what I said? If this is just some sort of punishment for what I've done before then---"
"It is not." He cut me off.
"Then, what?" I acted calmly.
I'm trying to act calm and cool here because I don't want to burst out, because I know if I did, I might be the one to be fooled.
"This isn't something to do with the school and such, this is only me and you. I-I put a lot of courage to finally say all of this because I can't keep it anymore, by myself. It took me a lot of time, thinking what should I do to---" I didn't let him finish.
"Why? Why me?" I asked in a cold tone.
His lips pressed firmly together and gave me a bored look.
"Why not you?" He threw that made me pause for a moment.
I wonder if he knows what he's saying?
This isn't the first time I experienced this because I remember Jaguar did this first. He gave me cheesy stuffs like these... He professed his feelings for me and my young stupid heart fell so easily, I let him court me. We used to do anything that makes us happy together... He used to swore such promising words that made me drown deeply into the love I thought would last long. He even gave me his words... promised me the world but then, he still chose to broke all of it... including me. He still left and didn't stay.
That's why I'm doubtful now and I can't blame my own self.
I'm too careful to keep my heart from the possible pain again.
"One day, we're enemies... now, you're confessing? What a joke, Cabrera. I'm telling you, I'm not in the mood to ride with your jokes." I hardened my face, still.
"Who says I'm joking?" Damn it. He stepped forward calmly."This isn't a joke. My feelings isn't a joke, Arnaez. You don't know how much time I spent just to make this feeling stop, because I knew, this won't go any further but then, I failed and I'm truly wrong. You're the only one who treated me as an enemy, I didn't do the same." I sensed something on his voice but I didn't put too much of my attention to it.
Is he really serious?
I opened my mouth but closed it again. I roamed my eyes around and realized we're now alone here in the middle of the field. There's no mark of Lia and Vencie, too. Even the bunch of students who are encircling us earlier, they're now gone. 
How did that happen?
I turned to him again, fantastically. He moved the bouquet and box he's holding.
"Would you accept it or not? My hands are numbing already." He suddenly demanded.
What the...
I blinked. I can't believe it. I can't believe this nerd! He's unbelievable!
Trying to control my temper, I grabbed it all."Thank you. You're so thoughtful." I gave him a sarcastic smirk.
"Welcome," and he still has the audacity to smile at me.
I tightened my fists and took a deep breath.
"How can you possibly think that I'll like you back when I hate you so much?" I questioned daringly.
He stilled. My smirk grew wider.
"I'm not expecting you to like me back, I just want to confess to let you know my feelings for you and that's all. I also doubt if you really hate me that much, I'm not convinced enough." I'm the one who stilled this time.
Shit.
My forehead remained crease. I gulped secretly. What does he mean he's not convinced that I hate him that much? Argh, he's so stupid!
"How a-about the girl you're talking about on the Cafe? The girl you like?"
He stared at me and I don't know if I'm just hallucinating or what when I saw a hit of amusement in his eyes.
"I'm talking about you, Vanez." He answered directly.
I felt my grip on the bouquet tightens.
"So, do you want me to be you girlfriend?" I asked coolly.
His lips parted, like he's not expecting me to say that. He didn't make a response in so much shock.
I smirked."You see, I'm not playing the role of being hard to get. Just a piece of advice, if you truly like the girl, don't just say a word and give gifts, prove it, and turn that 'like' into 'love' first before you commit yourself to someone."
I turned my back at him and left him there, speechless.
I smelled the bouquet of roses he gave me and unconsciously, I smiled.
"Oh my geez! Oh my geez! Oh my!!!"
"Lia, what the fuck? You're breaking my eardrums!" I tried shutting her up but she just can't stop.
She's been like this the entire day and no one can't stop her from shierking and acting like an unknown worm.
I ended up sighing and let her there. I just hope Vencie will come over here to stop this girl, I knew he's the only who can make her stop, the only one who can tame her.
And as if on cue, I heard footsteps towards us. Speaking of, Vencie with his signature playful smirk walked near Lia and shut her up using his hand, he covered her mouth.
"Agwjsjaosia!" Lia's words were muffled in his hand.
I let out a short laugh while watching them. But my laughs immediately faded when I saw Yukenzo's serious face, he's walking calmly towards my direction. I looked away and sighed.
Damn, here we go again.