Where am I?, how did I get here?, the last thing I remembered was jumping inside the river, but seeing myself here was something else, was I dreaming or sleep walking?. I don't know what happened, but whatever it is, I am going back to finish what I started, I am going to put an end to all this miseries and illusion.
Heading to the river for the second time as I remember, I can notice some changes as I walk to the river, not some changes, a lot of changes, the road were different, some houses were different and some houses that was used to be there was nowhere to be found. The different looks caught my eyes, I can't walk ten steps without looking back because this wasn't just an ordinary change, this was exactly the same way I usually pass by, but it no longer looks like the area that I was used to. 
Buildings were different from the ones we had, this buildings looks quite old, the ones that were used to be here were taller buildings with bright lightening, the ones that I seem to recognize looks newer than they're before and I can see some areas with flower decorations which was never there. I can still see a lot of resemblance though, but the difference were just there staring back at me, Wait, am I dead?, what if I am?, what if that's the reason for all the slight changes I've seen around, I guess I am, I knew that I jumped into the river but seeing myself here, seeing myself here was something I never expected, I guess I ended it, I guess it's all over.
I changed my mind, if I was already in the land of the dead, why should I bother trying to go kill myself again?. Auntie Margaret always tell me stories about heaven and hell, not just her, everyone believed in heaven and hell, at least people I knew, but here, here looks nothing like heaven or hell, here looks just like the world I came from but with different nature, it looks more like I am back in the same place I eliminated myself from, but this time, I feel a lot of relief.
I was still putting on my uniform but I wasn't carrying my school bag but even though I know nothing about my exact location, I am happy that I was no longer there, living in a world with selfish individuals, Auntie Margaret using my presence to nurture her selfish behavior, my good for nothing classmates treating me like I was a freak and the so called teachers never cared about the issue going on as if they were all blind to the fact that I was been mistreated.
I almost jumped out of my skin when I heard the sound of the horn sounding right some steps away from me, the honk was so loud that adrenaline rushed through me and I couldn't move a muscle.
“ Hey I'm really sorry, hope you aren't hurt?”, A Young man was trying to check me out to see whether I was hurt, he didn't even hit me, why should he act all concerned?. A pregnant woman came down from the Van to see whether I was hurt too, she looks a bit familiar to me but I don't think I can remember where I saw her from, her tummy is big enough for giving birth, looks more like she was eight months pregnant or something to me.
“ Are you okay?....”, She asked, I nodded my head to reply her, I can see the man releasing a breath of relief as he turned to the pregnant woman, “ Oh thank God.... I almost jumped out of my skin when I thought I just knocked someone down ”, he was holding his hand, he wasn't actually panting, but kind of making a show out of it with his hand placed on his chest as it rises and fall.
“ So.... I remember the uniform, do you mind if we give you a lift?”, the familiar pregnant woman asked, I was about to reject the offer because I never want to see that school even in the world of the dead, but immediately I recognized the Van they were on, I was stunned to check it out. This is it, this was exactly the same van that I saw abandoned in my ex world, I skipped the question because I was drawn to the white Van which looks clean and well taken care of, I walked to the side of the Van, touching the bodies and the paintings with designs on it, for reasons I don't know, tears came to my eyes, seems like I am not the only one here who was saved from that traumatic world, the Van was saved too and right now lives with people who seems to care about it.
“ Sure....”, I agreed for them to give me a lift. Sitting inside the car, this was the first time I ever went inside it, throughout my days living on earth, I never for once entered the Van, though both of us had something in common, but I never went in inside it, I don't like it when people points at me calling me freak.
I sat in between the couple inside the Van, the man was humming a song and shaking his head with excitement while the pregnant woman was jusy seated beside me. “ Is it a boy?....”, I asked out of curiosity, the woman smiled, looked at the man and smiled, I looked at the man to see that he too was smiling for what I just asked.
“ I don't know if there's a way to check something like that, it's always a surprise until the baby is given birth to, and even if there's a way my dear, I would still prefer not to know until the baby is given birth to ”, the woman said.