I'm speechless and taken aback, words cannot define the feeling I am going through, I just stood there looking at the lady who was just looking back at me with a confused look.
“ Do I know you dear?....”, she asked, her eyes not focused on Williams but at me who just called the name. I really don't know any single thing going on inside my head, is this a dream?, If it is, why haven't I woke up?, Where am I?. The look on her face was kind of a fifty percent different from what she looks like in real life, she looks way too younger right now, I have never seen her in this look before, it's either I am inside a dream or I am in another world like the scientists have been trying to prove. I'm in a position that left me speechless that I can't find words to describe or answer her question, just stood there, my hands covering my mouth with eyes wide open.
“ Is everything alright Ember?....”, I heard Williams voice ask. I can't even turn my head to look at him, not to talk of answering both questions asked, right now, I was petrified, watching the lady before me in shock, not that I was happy to see her, but I was in confusion, one that has no starting point.
“ Any clue of what might be happening to her?...”, she asked Williams, before Williams could say anything, I got back to my senses, “ No!.... I'm okay, I'm alright....”, I said that to cool down the pressure and that's also the first speech that could come to mind at that moment.
“ I took I mistook her for someone I knew out there, the person looks older, she's quite poor and I lived together with her, just shocked to see someone with the same resemblance as her but younger, someone might say you are her daughter or maybe sister.... And the difference is clear too, you seem quite rich to be compared to her, really sorry for my disruptive behavior....”, I apologized.
“ No problem girl, somethings like that happens, the world is much more than you ever know, just let go of things you feel like you wish to handle and enjoy the memories life throws at you....”, she said with a smile, everything looking exactly as auntie Margaret's, I think she answered to the name when I called her that, but I didn't want to ask her that again, might feel quite creepy to continue this craziness.
I just stood there while Williams and the lady finished up with the delivery, I haven't really let go of the shock though but I never wanted to push further, the resemblance was too much but the age gap was also much than the comparison.
Before I could walk into the Van, I turned to look back at the building she lived in, it's a wealthy home, nothing to be compared to auntie Margaret's struggling life, I don't usually like thinking about her because she never acted like she cared much about me anyway, but with the level of confusion going on with me here, thinking about her is really a beautiful memory because I can never get to see her again.
We drove off, it's getting late in the afternoon, the sun's heat has reduced quite much showing that it's almost 17:00 or something before it, Caro was now wide awake, she was reading some book in her hand, looking way more focused in the book than what's around her, I still wonder whether she's carrying a boy or girl, the world I came from, by the level of her pregnancy, we already know the sex of the unborn child.
“ Any plans on what you wish to become in the future?....”, Williams asked, eyes on the road, I have never thought much on that, this is the first time someone is asking me those, I have no friend to ask me that, neither do I have a guardian that cares enough to bring up that question, it's my first time to give an external person this answer about me.
“ I don't believe it's still of any use to that....my time has passed, but looking from the point of view of what's happening, I still think that I can still become something I like, something that makes me happy and feels like a close friend of mine, I like music and would love to become a musician when the occasion calls for it ...”.
You can see the confused look across his face, Caro doesn't seem to be listening, eyes focused on the book in her hand, I know it's not a straight answer, but considering that I may be dead, I don't think there's still a future to plan about, but anyways, the fact I see myself somewhere like this where life is still as normal as ever, I think I should hope on becoming what I have always wanted to be.
“ A musician right?, that's lovely, sounds like Caro too me....”, he said laughing, “ Yeah keep on laughing....”, Caro said. It was a sarcasm, but she meant it in a funny way, I thought all her attention was on the book she's reading.
“ You know she's performing tonight right?”, Williams asked, I turned to Caro and saw the smile on her face, I turned back to Williams, I never knew about that, “ She never told me, neither did you.... Until now, very impressive, what is she performing?”, I asked, oblivious to what it was she was going to perform about, especially with her condition of almost ready pregnancy.
“ I thought I told you something about me and music, told you that the tape you played was the first song I sang with Willy here ”, she said.
That, I definitely forgot.... I have quite a lot on my mind for the meantime, but with time, it will all pan out better.