"Don't you want to eat, Blaire?"
I suddenly looked at Claire, she was standing in front of me. We're here at the cafeteria, of course, because it's lunch break. It's friday and I don’t know why I’m always stunned by the absence.
I looked down. "I'm sorry," I said in a low tone of voice.
She sat down in the chair in front of me. "What's wrong with you? Do you have a problem or there's something bothering you?"
I took a deep breath before looking at her again. I don't know what I'm going to say to her. Even if I said what I was thinking, she would definitely not understand it.
I smiled. "Nothing! I'm just thinking, why the dean canceled the swimming competition this year."
This is also one of my thoughts. After all, the dean will not just cancel the competition for no reason. Almost 4 years where our school always won when it comes to swimming competition. Well, we're that good.
"Hmm? Yeah! You're right!" She put his pointed finger on her chin, as if she was thinking about that too.
"Have you seen, Eliza? I didn't see her this past few days." I would like to ask her about the swimming competition. He is always updated on all issues here.
"I don't know either. She doesn't even go to school. Maybe, she’s on vacation?"
"That's impossible. She's not a kind of person who will just leaves all of a sudden without telling us or telling me."
She shrugged and I just sighed.
We were about to leave the cafeteria when my phone rang. I looked at Claire who was looking at me too. I took a light breath before taking out my phone from my bag and answered it.
"What?"
["Tonight? Exklusiv? Let's get drunk!"]
I rolled my eyes in the air. "Why don't you just tell me later, do you really need to call me right now?"
["Yes! We will be there first. You and Claire will be the only ones left there. So... Agree?"]
"Okay. We will go there and get drunk. I think, I need that, I need some time to think."
["Okay. See you later, girl!"] She turned off the call so I went to Claire who was now talking on her phone. She looks so happy.
I tap her shoulder, making her look at me with wide eyes but she suddenly looked away. I heard her said 'Bye. I call you later.' before she ended the line. I smiled at her when she faced me.
"Exklusiv, tonight. I'll go to the library first." I kissed her cheeks before went to the library.
I still have a lot to finish especially as the final exam and December approaches. Eliza and I also need to finish the research paper before the exam. I also need to attend the meeting this Sunday. But tonight, I need to cool down myself first.
When I finished my research, I texted Eliza and said that there was only a little needed and she would go ahead, I would just take her to their house later before I went to Exklusiv.
I was about to get in my car when I received a message from Claire. I took a deep breath after I finished reading the message. I pouted like a kid before started the engine.
From: Claire
Sis, I can't go with you to the Exklusiv because kuya Miles texted me that he was in the airport right now. He asked me if I could pick him up and I said 'okay'. Just go to the house tomorrow if you are already sober and ready. Okay?
That was so sad. It seems like I want to cry right now. Hopefully when he sees me he won't be angry with me anymore and he will forgive me even though I'm not really to blame for what happened.
When I arrived at our condo, I lay down on the sofa and took out my phone. I had to entertain myself because it was still a bit early until I fell asleep without realizing it.
I woke up because of the loud noise from my phone. Someone was calling. I took it and answered it without looking at my phone.
["Where the hell are you?"] With the strength of that voice I still had to take it away from my ear.
"What? Don't shout at me." My eyes were still close and I was still lying down on the bed. I'm still feel sleepy.
["It's already 9 pm, Blaire Ava Zamora!"]
"Oh, come on. Don't say my full name. I'm on the way," I told her.
["Don't fool me. You're just on the way to the bathroom. Hurry up!"] I chuckled after she ended the call.
Afterward, I suddenly stood up and went into the bathroom in our room to take a quick shower. When I came out from the bathroom, I'm just thinking about what should I wear tonight. I don't know what should I wear. My god!
But I just decided to wore a zip cutout back out crisscross cami top and a simple skirt and then black ankle boots. I also put a make-up. Somehow, I know how to put on make-up, I just didn't get used to it.
When I looked at the mirror and I think that I was satisfied with my looks, I immediately left the condo and went to the house of Eliza first to give her the paper before I go to the Exklusiv. As of now, I don't want to think about my nonsense things that just suddenly came out of my mind. I want to be happy, even just for tonight.
When I got to Exklusiv, I immediately went inside and find them. For sure, they were all there except for Claire. And I was right! They're all be there! Drinking alcohol.
I sat down next to Roxie and grabbed her glass and drank it straight. She looked at me with an amused face. I just raised my brow and then we laughed like crazy women.
"Where's Claire?" Anne asked. I don't want to talk about this so I handed my phone to them so that they could read the message from Claire. They're all looking at me and sighed.
"Why are you late, anyway?" Alice asked when she returned my phone to me.
"I'll just take a nap but it went to sleep. Thanks for waiting, anyway." I smiled at them because they are looking at me like they don't believe me.
They're looking at each other and simultaneously said. "SLEEP MY ASS! WE DON'T BELIEVE YOU!" I glared at them but I ended up laughing so hard.
I know what they are thinking. Why is it that every time I'm in this situation, you're late and they always think I'm with a man? My god! They are so... nevermind.
I even took some rum and drank it straight away. I've had a few shots but I'm still not very drunk. I'm just tipsy as hell. I want to get drunk! I want to get drunk! I want to get drunk! I stood up but Lev was stopping me.
I looked at her and my brows furrowed. "What?"
"How are you and Luke?" I crossed my arms in front of my chest and looked at them intently. What about us?
"Honestly, I don't know! The last time we talked was when he said 'Be my girlfriend' to me." I chuckled. "You know guys that time, I don't know what to say. What do you think should I reply to him?"
"If you love him, then say yes. If you don't, then say no. That's easy," Roxie said before drank his alcohol. It wasn't easy!
"For me, if he is one of the opportunities I really wish to come, I will take him whole-heartedly," Lev said.
I laughed bitterly. "It's wasn't easy! It’s not that easy to tell someone how you feel especially to me you know that. What if he just came into my life to hurt me? What if what happened to me before will happen again? You knew that I have a fear of loving someone too much. You knew that I have a fear of commitment. Yes! I like him but I'm not that strong to enter a f*cking relationship and tell him that I like him, too!"
I left after my speech. It's just funny because I'm having too much trouble with this while I know the answer and I know what to answer but I'm just scared.
I was currently dancing on the dance floor while holding a glass of rum when a man approached me. He was holding a glass as he stared at me intently. I smiled at him that made him smiled at me too.
"What's your name, my dear?" he asked while dancing in front of me.
"Why would I tell you my name?" I felt that I was getting drunk now. Hmm? This is good!
"Oh! Come on, dear! I'm handsome, right? Just say your name, honey."
"Yeah! I know!" I put my hands on his shoulder and grind down and up. "I'm Zab!"
"Oh! What a beautiful name! I'm Blue, anyway," I felt his hands touching my waist up and down, so I grind more. This is so ridiculous! I don't know why I'm doing this.
I went back to the counter because I still needed a shot or two or more. Blue followed me and just watched me drink. After a few minutes, I pulled Blue to the dance floor again. Well, he was nice to talk to and dance to.
But I suddenly stopped dancing when I felt his lips against mine. My arms are still on his shoulder and then I felt his hand on my waist and pulled me closer to him and the other hand is on my nape to kiss me more. But I didn't kiss him back.
He guided me to move forward so that's what I did, I stepped forward on my own. Until I felt him lean me against the wall near us.
"Kiss me back," he whispered when he left my lips but he quickly came back. I was about to kiss him back when he suddenly fell on the ground, holding his jaw.
"Oh my god!" I covered my mouth with my two palms. Someone punched him. I looked up and my eyes widened and were shocked causing me to stepped back. I saw Luke looking at Blue with his eyes are dark, like... ready to kill.
My heartbeat faster when Luke approached Blue and gave him a hard punch on the face. "NO. ONE. IS. ALLOWED. TO. TOUCH. HOLD. AND. KISS. MY. GIRL." Luke said with a hard punch by each word. No one even stopped him. And me, I can't move.
"L-luke," I whispered. He looked at me for a moment before stood up and walked away. What will I do? This is not good.
I ran and chased him. "L-luke!" I stopped for a moment. "Luke!" I ran again. "Wait!" I gasped "Luke! Please! Wai-ah!" I suddenly stumbled.
F*ck! Why now when I'm close? I tried to stand up but I couldn’t. It really hurts! How can I explain this? I want to cry!
"What are you doing? Huh? Why are you chasing me?" My eyes widened when he suddenly ran towards me. Concern and anger were evident in his voice.
"I j-just want to e-explain," I whispered when he knelt and held my ankle. He carried me like a bride and walked towards his car. He put me in the passenger seat before turning into the driver seat.
"L-luke? Let me explain, please."
He just looked at me before start the engine but I stopped him. I gave him an apologetic look. I pouted.
"Talk." He simply said.
"Luke... I-I'm sorry... I-I didn't mean to, I mean... I mean that." I close my eyes because I don't know what to say. "I just was... was... d-drunk. Please? Don't be mad! I know... It's like... uhm... just... what... I'm sorry,"
I just looked down and cried in frustration. I no longer knew what to say. Why am I hurt? Why am I crying? Maybe, I just can't bear to see him so angry. I don’t want him to get mad at me. He held my hand so I looked up at him.
"I'm not mad. Besides, I am not your boyfriend. You are not mine. And about what I did, that was wrong. I was just carried away. I'm sorry. Please get out." He said calmly but why is that, it seems like the pain. No! It really hurts!
"No! Please! Listen to me, Luke. Please?" I wiped my tears using the back of my hand. I held his hand but he looked away.
"I didn’t mean that. I was drunk by the alcohol. And when I’m drunk, I do things I shouldn’t have done. Luke, I'm sorry. I know you're hurt because of what I did. But now that you're mad at me, I'm hurting too." He suddenly looked at me. "I just don't want to admit it to myself because I'm afraid you might be like them. I know you're just like me, just like me. And the man inside, the man you saw with me, I feel good about him because while I was talking to him you were the one I remembered. You are what I think of. We are just both drunk, Luke. I want to get drunk because I've been thinking so much, I'm wondering if it's right for me to feel these feelings for you, if right---"
"What feelings?" He cut me off. I suddenly looked away.
This is it, Blaire! This is your Chance Ava! Tell him now Zamora! Be brave, Blaire Ava Zamora!
I took a deep breath before looked at him again. "I like you, Luke." I lied.
Yes! That was a lie!