"W-what did you say?" 
Yes! That was a lie! I know it's bad to lie but this is the only way I can think of so that I won't be embarrassed in the end. I don't want him to know my real feelings for him. Not now but soon! Not now, that he just like me. I want to hear from his mouth the another three words. The fvcking three words!
"I like you, Luke!" I lied again.
"R-really?" He looked at me with implausible eyes. I just nodded. I think, I already sober up because of what happened earlier.
"Hey! Please, talk." I tap his shoulder but he still remained silent.
I cried all over, I explained, and now, I'm even more hurt because he doesn't answer. I already knew that he was hurt. I know that. But why doesn't he speak? I swear, Blue and I are just drunk. That's it!
He did not talk so I leaned my back against the back of the shotgun seat and closed my eyes. I am not drunk but just tipsy as hell. But there's something inside my tummy like I want to...
Vomit!
I immediately came out of the car and went to the back of the car to throw up. I thought I'm not going to vomit because I felt nothing earlier but guilt.
"Are you okay?" I heard Luke's voice while I was busy throwing up. He was holding my hair up while touching my back. "I think, I need to take you home," he whispered.
The next thing I knew, I was already in the shower, forcing myself to sober up. I brushed my teeth and changed my clothes before I went out. I saw Luke, he was waiting outside the bathroom. I thought he already left after he accompany me here. I went to my bed and lay down. I'm so tired!
"Are you going to stay here?" I asked him as my eyes are still closed.
"It depends," I looked at him and he was standing beside the door. I slowly stood up and go in front of him. And then, I suddenly hugged him as my tears are slowly falling.
"P-please forgive me. I don't want you to go home while you're still mad at me." He hugged me so tight, like he doesn't want me to let go.
"I'm not mad at you, Ava! I want you so I can't be angry with you for long."
"It means, we're okay na?" I looked at him and pouted like a kid. He called me in my second name, 'Ava', which is so sweet when it comes from him. He nodded.
"You can stay here, you know. Stay here, please?" He stared at me for a long time before nodding.
I am so happy right now. We are okay now! He is no longer angry with me. I hope my older brother is the same, he is quick to forgive especially if what was done was unintentional. We lay down on the bed, side by side, looking at the ceiling, and remained silent. I felt it awkward! But I suddenly looked at him when he talked.
"I don't have the rights to get mad. I don't have the rights to get jealous. I don't have the rights to be possessive of you. I don't have the rights in everything because I'm not your boyfriend. You are not mine. But one thing I can promise, I'll protect you no matter what. Is it okay with you?" I just nodded.
He said those words in a low tone of voice as his eyes are still on the ceiling and play with my fingers. Honestly, there's nothing wrong with it. Why should I be afraid of? I'm not that young anymore, I know the difference of right and wrong, I know that he will never hurt me or let anyone hurt me in any way. So why should I be afraid to love again?
I stared at him for too long. What should I reply to him? He sounds and looks in pain. Maybe I really hurt him before, maybe that’s how possessive he really is. Why am I not thinking? I shouldn't talk to Blue in the first place, so it's never to go this far.
I took a deep breath before I hugged him from the side. He gasped in shock when he looked at me. Maybe he did not expect that I suddenly hugged him.
"I'm so scared to fall in love again. But, if it's you then I'll try. I'll risk my heart." He looked at me with confused eyes.
"W-what do you mean?"
"I will give you the rights right now. From now on, I am your girlfriend," I whispered and gave him a soft kiss on his lips before I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
The next day, I woke up with a little hangover. Earlier, my phone was ringing over and over again so I picked it up and answered even though my head was still a bit sore and didn’t know what happened last night. I was about to say 'Who's this?' but I heard Luke's voice.
["GOODMORNING, BABE!"] He sounds so happy and did he just call me 'babe'? Oh my god! ["Get up and let's eat breakfast together."]
"W-what?" I asked wondering and worriedly.
I heard him chuckled. ["Come on, babe. Get up and be ready. I'll be there in 20 minutes."] He ended the call after he said that. God! What's going on?
"20 minutes!" I shouted before cover up my mouth.
Then after a few seconds, my eyes widened when I realized why luke called me babe earlier. My mouth formed and 'o' while still covered up by my hands because of shock. He's my boyfriend now? I can't believe this! And also, I remember what happened last night, about me, luke and blue.
"Ahh! I hate myself." I said as I stood up and went to the bathroom to take a quick shower.
When I came out, I just wore a floral crop top off-shoulder partner with black high-waisted skinny jeans and black ankle boots. I also get my white Versace Virtus sling bag. I put light make-up on my face, I just want my face to be bright more. I did spray ny perfume all over my body, the Del Valle Perfume by maxinejiji beauty.
After a few minutes, I heard a 3 knocked on the door in my unit. So, I immediately went out in my room and when I'm in front of the door, I took a deep breath before I opened it.
The time is just right.
Why am I suddenly nervous? Why my heart is beating so fast? I just saw him make my heart feel like this. It was like a hell.
He was wearing a yellow-orange v-neck shirt with a printed in front 'She's mine' partner with black jeans and black sneakers. And he was also holding a bouquet. How sweet!
"G-goodmorning." I greeted him with a wide smile.
"You're so beautiful," he whispered. He bit his lower lip to stop himself from smiling. I just shook my head.
"Don't kidding me. Let's go!" I went out and lock the door.
"Flowers for my girlfriend," He handed me his flower and I pursed my lips before I took it.
I smiled before took it out from him. "Thanks!"
I don't know what should I feel right now. It's just, you know, I'm so happy. I thought I would never feel this way again. I thought I had no chance to be happy but now, my feelings for him are getting deeper and deeper.
Love is not a feeling but a choice sabi nga nila and this is my choice. And It's not what you feel but more what you do. Love is a universal solution to all human problems. It heals wounds, mends broken hearts, unite enemies and encourages growth. Love is all we need everyday and everywhere. Love is something that will never be fully understood.
No matter what we say, no matter how many times we ask someone or ourselves, there is only one answer. We don't know how to explain LOVE! I know I'm scared to fall in love back then, but now, I won't thinking about it anymore. The only I could think is be with him... forever.
"Are you done, babe?" I suddenly looked at him. We were eating breakfast at the restaurant near to his condo. He is the one who chose this.
I nodded. "Yeah! Let's go?" We stood up and left.
I already knew that this is not just a simple breakfast. This is a date. I rolled my eyes in the air and shook my head. Of course this is a date, he's my boyfriend anyway.
We did nothing but walk there, walk here, eat there, eat here, stroll there, stroll here. We were just like crazy people laughing while walking. My foot really hurts!
But we're both happy! This is our first day as a couple, so we made the most of it because we might be busy in the next few days.
"Luke! Look at that family," I said as I pointed to the happy family opposite us.
"So?"
"Nothing! I wish I had a family like that. Every christmas. No. Everyday, I wish that my whole family could be completed at least once and then we would be happy again like before, like the ordinary people, like the ordinary family. Like them."
He put his arms around my neck and pulled me closer to him. We were in the park right now, we are just sightseeing here.
"It's okay, babe! There are things we just need to understand."
"Like what?" I asked.
"Like our parents. They always on the business trip to earn more money to provide our needs."
I sighed. "I don't know. Do you spend time with your parents every Christmas and New Year?" I asked.
"Sometimes."
I smirked. He is still good somehow, he can be with his parents. How about me? Even on my birthday, they are not here beside me. They always said they have a meeting, they need to attend the birthday party of their business partner. I looked so pathetic.
He held my chin up, making me to look straight into his eyes. "Don't think too much about them. We're here to be happy. And don't worry, I will not leave you because I will give you the happy family you dream of one day. Okay?"
"Really! Maybe later you'll fool me." He shook his head. "Or maybe you already have a girlfriend and then you're just making me a hooker. What?"
"What the hell are you talking about? I don't have another girlfriend, you're the only one."
"Psh! That's what men always say but in the end they are really just fooling women." I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not like them, Blaire. I love you and I always will."
"Really? Are you sure?" He rolled his eyes before nodded at me. I just laughed. I love teasing him.
I just nodded and smiled and then he kissed me on the top of my head before hugged me. I hope what he says is true. I hope he doesn't really leave me and he doesn't fool me. I don't want to feel the pain again.
"Hey! What are you hiding?" I asked him when we were in the car. We decided to leave na but, it was as if he was hiding something behind him.
"Close your eyes first," he said. My brows furrowed before I closed my eyes.
"Handed me your palm," he added and that's what I did. I handed my palm to him.
And I was surprised when I felt that he put something long in my palm. I opened my eyes and looked down to see what something long in my palm. My brows furrowed. It is a rectangle that is quite thin. I wonder what is on the inside so I opened it. My eyes widened when I saw a necklace with the word 'LOVE' in the pendant.
"I-is this mine? Are you giving this to me?"
He nodded. "Yes!" He took it from me. "Turn around," he said so that's what I did.
He removed the old necklace, the one I took from him and attached the new one he gave me just now. It's so beautiful!
"Actually, I bought this necklace a long time ago, maybe last last week."
"Thank you. Thank you so much!" I hugged him so tight and he did the same. It was just the first day but he had a gift right away, prepared.
"Anything for my girlfriend." He winked at me before smile widely.
"Psh! You're too happy, huh?"
"Not really. I 'm just happy! I didn't expect you to really be my girlfriend." He took my hand and he suddenly intertwined our hands.
"Me too! Before you are so mean to me but now, you're too sweet." I laughed a little. "You're my boyfriend, I can't believe it."
"I know." He chuckled before he put my seatbelt on.
"Let's go! Take me home. I want to see kuya Miles!" I said excitedly.
He just smiled before start the engine and drive went to our house. I was so happy although, a bit nervous. I don't know if kuya Miles should be happy if he sees me. I mean, I know that he still mad at me. But I'm hoping that he already forgive me.
When we arrived at our house, I just kissed Luke's cheeks before went out of his car and I just waited for him to leave before I went into our house. I stopped in front of the door and sighed heavily.
"You can do it, Blaire. For sure, he already forgives you!" I cheered up myself before went in.
When I entered, I saw Kuya and Claire on the sofa, talking about nonsense things while laughing at each other. They looked at me. Claire immediately stood up and approached me while kuya Miles looked away.
"Blaire! You're here! I thought you wouldn't come here because you didn't reply to my text." I chuckled when she pouted.
"Nah! I just don't have a load," That wasn't a lie. I really don't have a load.
"I don't believe you," she whispered and I just smiled when she guided me to sat down between them.
"Kuya! I miss you!" I hugged him so tight but he didn't hug me back. It's okay! I don't mind!
"Kuya, do you miss me? Do you have a 'pasalubong' for me?" I asked as I released him from the hug.
He just stared at me for a moment but he quickly looked away before talk. I guess, he was still mad at me.
"I don't miss you. And why would I give you a 'pasalubong'? You're not that important." He left after he said those words.