"Blaire? W-why are you here? Shit! Let me explain! Please!"
I swallowed. I don't know what to say, I can't even open my mouth to talk. I don't know what to do. I took a deep breathe over and over again. I can't believe this is happening right now. I can't breathe! Oh my god! I hold a grudge on the wall and keep my strength.
I know the woman next to my boyfriend in bed. It was Margareth! They... they cheated on me. They hugged each other and they were both naked, they probably... h-had sex.
He was about to approach me but I stopped him using my other hand. I also shook my head while I'm still crying because of the pain inside my heart I was feeling right now.
"D-don't..." Finally, I talked. "How d-dare you. How dare you, Luke!" I shouted at him.
He's already half-naked while Margareth is still on the bed, lying down and caressing her hair. What the fuck?! Looks like they didn't do anything wrong ah! If she looked at me, she seemed innocent and still looked happy to see us like this.
"H-how? How did you do this to me? You know that I love you but... but w-why did you cheat on me? Why? Tell me, why?" I shouted at him while I holding my chest. The pain...
"I'm sorry. Let me explain. Is not what you-"
"F*ck you, you mother f*cking asshole!" I raised my middle finger at him and he seems surprised that I cursed like that. "Is not what I think? Really? Don't make a fool of me Luke! My two eyes were clearly visible earlier!" I pointed my eyes.
"So dramatic," Margareth whispered. My head grew hotter with her. I quickly approached and pulled her hair and dragged her out of the room.
"Ouchh! Wait! Oh my god! Ouchh! I'm not wearing-ouch! Anything!" She tried to taje my hand away.
"I don't care if you weren't wear anything, you flirty crazy bitch!"
"God! Stop it! Ouchhh! Luke help me, please! You crazy bitch! I'll kill you!" She screams.
"There! Happy? You shameless flirt!"
She stood up and smirked at me then pointed her finger at herself. "Me? Flirty? Not me! You! You flirt with my fiancee!"
I stiffened in my stance. W-what did she say? Fiancee? My tears flowed even more at what I heard from this woman and my chest grew heavier. I literally can't breathe. But... I didn’t give up on the pain I was feeling.
I took a very very deep breath before slap her so HARD. It makes her fall on the floor and the side of her lips is bleeding right now. I sat down and look at her.
"Yes, you are his fiance, but always remember this." I brought my face close to her. "He doesn't love you. And he will never love you even if you die."
She glared at me before quickly getting dressed and leaving the condo. I looked at the man I loved. I couldn't stop my tears from flowing again. I feel sorry for myself!
"Blaire... let me explain everything." He approached me but I stopped him again.
"No. I d-don't want to. You're a liar. You're a cheater. You cheated on me! How did you do this to me? Huh?" I said slowly as my tears welled up.
"No. Listen to me. Is not what you think, okay?"
I shook my head. "No! You're a liar! I will never believe your lies again. Never." I took one step between us.
"I love you. I love you so much. But you hurt me! You said you wouldn't hurt me, did you? You said you wouldn't make me cry, did you? But now, you did this to me. You hurt me a lot! I always trust you because I love you but that's a bad decision I've made in my life. You lied to me, you said she was just a friend of your family, but what? She's... she's your fucking fiance!"
"I'm sorry."
I laughed bitterly. "Sorry? Did you just say sorry? I hope you thought of me before you did the thing you knew would hurt me. You embarrassed me. You made me look like a fool in front of your parents! In front of your sister! In front of your... f-fiance! It hurts, you know! I thought you love me but I was wrong, you don't love me because you cheated on me!"
"No! Is not what you think! My friends and I were just drinking and then I got drunk and lost consciousness and then when I woke up I saw you crying! I swear, I didn't know what happened to me. Please! Believe me!" He said quickly.
"So many fucking lies." I bit my lower lip and sniffed. "And you think I'll believe you? You're a liar and cheater! I regretted that I love you. You hurt me! You had sex with her after me! That's unbelievable, Luke!" I laughed bitterly.
I heard a coughed from my back, obviously, it's blue. "Hi, bro!" I looked at him but I immediately looked back again to luke.
"Why are you with him?" He pointed blue, his eyes are now deep. Is he jealous? What a joke!
"It's none of your business!"
"Blaire-"
"One more thing," I said as I faced him. "You... you really disgust me." A tears flow like a turned on faucet.
I slowly turned my back on him and hurried out of that building and immediately got into blue's car. On the steering wheel, I poured half of the anger and pain I was feeling. It hurts!
I did nothing but cry and cry, I almost ran out of breath. It hurts! I love him so much! I thought he wouldn't be able to hurt me because he love mo... but I was wrong. What's wrong with me?
"Ahh!" I punched the steering wheel. "How did you do this to me, huh?" I leaned on the back of the passenger seat and closed my eyes.
"Blaire?" I opened my eyes and looked at him. "Are you okay? If you want someone who can listen to your pain, I'm here." He wiped my tears.
I hugged him without thinking. I buried my face in his chest and there let myself release half of the pain I was feeling. "H-he cheated on me! I... didn't know t-that he has... a fiance. It... hurts!"
"Shh! Please stop crying! He doesn't deserve you. You don't deserve him as well." He caressed my hair.
"But I love him so much." I sat down properly and sniffed a little before held both of his cheeks. His eyes widened a bit.
"Tell me. Am I not enough? What's wrong with me? Am I ugly to be hurt by the people I love? Tell me, what's wrong with me? Why is this happening to me?" I looked down because I was so weak. I can't help it anymore.
He cupped my chin and wiped my tears. "No. You are enough, Blaire. There is nothing wrong with you, okay? And you are not ugly. Please stop crying."
"Then, why did he hurt me like that?" He didn't answer. "L-let's just go now." I tried to stop crying but it took so long before I finally stopped.
I told him that I want to go to the high place that I can see the other buildings and a lot of lights before we go home. We went to an abandoned building, we used the stairs to go to the rooftop.
I felt someone put a jacket or something on my shoulder. "It's colf here." It was him, Blue.
I didn't answer him back, I just forced myself to smile at him. His brows furrowed and I was surprised when he suddenly hugged me.
"Don't smile if it is fake. You don't deserve to be hurt like this, Blaire." He whispered directly to my ear.
"But I need to hide the pain, so the people around me will not worry about me." He even tightened his hug over me to the point that I can even hear his heartbeat.
"No! You don't need to hide the pain. I'm here." Kumawala siya sa pagkakayakap sa 'kin at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisngi ko tapos tinitigan ako sa mga mata.
"Hmm?"
"I can be your best friend so you can lean on me when you need it. I can also be your pillow just in case you want to cry. I can also be your brother or boyfriend to take good care of you. I am always free when it comes to you, Blaire."
"Why are you doing this? I mean, we're not that close." I asked. I wonder why he still here, beside me.
"You don't know me very well but I know you a lot." The side of his lips rose. I just shook my head.
"Let's sleep here and just go home tomorrow." I looked around. "There, we can sleep there."
That's what we did. We slept there as we knew we would not get wet if it rained. But even so, I still can't forget what happened earlier. I trusted him but he broke my trust. I wish I hadn't loved him too much, I wish I wasn't in such pain now.
I woke up because of the sunlight hitting my face. I opened my eyes and realized that my head was leaning on Blue's shoulder. I looked at him and he was still asleep, I was just staring at him when he suddenly opened his eyes and then looked at me.
"Are you thinking to do something on me?" My eyes widened and my lips parted as well.
"What? In your dreams, moron!" I got up and went out first, he quickly followed me.
"Wait!" I stopped when he's in front of me. "I'm just kidding, okay? Don't be mad." He laughed a little.
"I'm not mad!"
The side of his lips rose up and then my eyes widened when he suddenly turns his back on me and knelt. What does he want to happen?
"W-what-"
"Come on! I'll piggyback you. I know you're still tired. Come on, hurry up."
"I don't want to!"
He stood up and come closer to me. "If you still don't want to, I will kiss you right now, right here."
I blinked twice. "F-fine!" He turned around again and knelt down. I slowly passed behind him.
Until we got down from the 10th floor and got in the car, he was still carrying me. He just dropped me off in front of the passenger seat door.
"Thanks." He just smiled before turn around and went into the driver seat.
"In the h-"
"I know where it is. So, just rest there." He was cut off from what I was going to say. Does he know? How? Oh! I forgot, he had already gone home.
We both just kept quiet until we got home. It was as if I had lost the urge to speak. I lost the urge to smile. My every move seems to have no sense in life.
"We're here," He said. I just nodded before went out but I stopped and looked at him. "Come with me inside." I went in after I said that.
When I entered, I saw my older brother and Claire in the living room. Their faces seemed to be covered by heaven and earth. My older brother stood up immediately when he saw me, he touched both of my shoulders before hugged me, and then he stared at me intently.
"What's wrong with you? What was with that face? Did something happen? Tell me, blaire!" He looked at my back.
"And... why are you with this moron, huh?" Kuya asked.
He looked at me again. "What's wrong with her? What happened to her? Why was she just stunned? Why she didn't answer me back?" Kuya probably asked Blue.
I heard blue sighed. "Maybe it's better if she says it herself. Blaire, tell him, he's worried."
I looked at kuya while my tears are dripping down to my cheeks again. The pain again... It hurts! Fuck! I fell on my brother's chest so I hugged him very tightly and there, my tears flowed again.
He catches me and his other hand caressed my hair. "What happened? Tell me."
"He..."
"He what?"
"He c-cheated on me, kuya." I sniffed again. "It hurts like a hell."
"What?" Claire said. "Luke cheated on you?"
I nodded. "I didn't know that he has a fiance. I didn't know!" I separated from kuya and kuya looked at blue. "Blue! Do you know about this?"
Blue sat down on the sofa. "Of course not! I don't know that either. Such personal things are not released by his family, his family is so weird."
"I love him but he cheated on me. It hurts kuya."
"I need to give him a lesson! I will beat him so hard because of what he did to you." Kuya looked at Blue. "Let's go, bro!"
"Wait! Kuya! Blue!" I chased them but I never caught up with them, the speed they walk. What they willl do?
"Let them, blaire! Luke deserves a hard punch by kuya and blue."
After a minute, someone called Claire, she picked up her phone and answered it.
"Hello... W-what?... What happened?... Paan- okay! Okay!... We're on our way... Yes, I will."
"What happened Claire?" I asked. I was suddenly nervous. I just finished the pain I felt from luke and then there was another one. Oh god!
"Something bad happened to mom and dad." After I heard that, we quickly left the house while calling Kuya Miles.