"I dislike this kind of situation the most when I'm with you." Graiss gave Regen a fierce look. It was unusual for her to show such an aggressive figure.
Regen exhaled his breath roughly. For a moment he tried to calm his mind. It seemed that he was beginning to realize that his behavior was indeed too rude. He just felt overly sensitive lately. There were too many problems that made him think hard. His heart was sometimes plagued by excessive fear. Slowly that fear also began to influence his mind.
***
Every encounter should be cherished because obviously... the person you met before is not necessarily the person you will meet again later.
People are used to ignoring the existence of someone who is nearby. Surely one day he will regret his actions. Losing someone he has never considered worthy should make his heart hurt.
Maybe he can ignore it soon. But if she cares, she should have realized the person's existence sooner. If his heart is too hard, forgetting the person who was beside him all this time, the answer to that pain is karma for him.
The karma of that pain was exactly like the sour wine she had to taste in her mouth. The wine would never taste sweet. There would only be a sour taste that filled his mouth. The wine will only taste sweet, once he realizes his mistake.
This time there was an attractive figure in his eyes. But the figure is a form of his exaggerated wishful thinking. Where he felt he could reach her in real life when it was a pseudo-image displayed from a form of insecurity. Then from that shadow comes the feeling to reach out, even though he realizes it consciously or unconsciously, that it is all false wishful thinking.
Chasing the uncertain just to cover the guilt in the heart. Choosing to run away by never accepting reality. Everything will be done including lying just to avoid the pain from getting worse.
Bitter... that's the reality.
How long will the sour wine continue to fill the mouth, boring the tongue? Living with unpleasant feelings will also only make the heart bored. Like dried flowers that lose their appeal. Beauty should also be enjoyed with more freshness.
***
Water droplets fell on the surface of the ground, wetting the barren ground. A chill began to creep over the skin.
Hal looked out the window. He could see how the water was falling from the sky in torrents. He could feel the cold and cool sensation equally well.
"Cold," he said to himself. Even so, he felt a little better. Rain wasn't always bad. As the cold began to fill her, she didn't mind the feeling at all. This cold atmosphere made her realize how much she still longed for that warm feeling deep down inside. It wasn't so bad... it made him feel a lot more human.
Halb silently glanced at Rain who was currently fast asleep, on the sofa. Rain's figure seemed to be sleeping soundly.
Seeing Rain fast asleep, made him feel a little more comfortable than seeing her during a tantrum. Rain can be much better than this. It's just that his unreasonable ambition makes him unable to think clearly.
The ambition to reunite with a long-dead person. Where in his ambition he intends to reunite with that person.
"Urgh ...." Rain was writhing still in her sleep, she looked quite restless and made her blanket fall.
Halb immediately approached and picked up the blanket and adjusted it on Rain's body. In addition, he checked for a moment whether Rain would be alright. Sometimes Rain could throw tantrums on her own even in her sleep. Silently Halb looked at Rain with pity. He never knew where to take all this. He had done everything he could but Rain still wouldn't stop with his ambition.
Halb realized that the obsession shown by Rain was created by the trauma of the fear of losing a loved one. It's all about love and affection but it ends up being horrible because it's getting out of control.
Rain would never stop until he fulfilled his ambition. Halb honestly felt that Rain's ambition made no sense to him. For him, Rain's ambition was tantamount to a form of pursuit of his disappointment. Feeling unable to accept reality, he tried to cover it up with his ambition. Creating false hope and pretending as if he had moved forward.
Feelings are fake. The passion to live a better life is also fake. Hope is also fake. There were only lies made up to say that everything was going to be okay.
Halb wondered if Rain would be able to go through this lie continuously. Even though the answer was clear that Rain was just wasting his energy in vain. Everything only leads to bad estimates. Halb himself actually, never wanted to help Rain further. But himself, he was always blocked by the pity embedded in his heart. Also gratitude for the kindness Rain had done for him in the past.
That gratitude could never be denied by her. That kind of feeling could never be dismissed. Although he tried just to reprimand Rain a little harder. There was still an uncomfortable feeling in his heart. It was very difficult to refuse Rain's wishes. Although Halb himself knew, the requests made by Rain were often bad.
Halb realized this and felt like he was living in a vicious circle. The only thing that kept him going this far was hope. Hope that he realizes will never come just like that. That hope could end just like that.
The feeling of giving up always arose in his heart and also many times... he thought or wanted to do it. But he never realized it. In the end, he always gave in and followed Rain's plan.
To him, Rain herself was like going to hell. Halb didn't want to let Rain go to that hell. He planned to prevent Rain from going there.
He would always make sure that such a thing would never happen at all.
***
Betting on false luck... who would believe that? But that's the interesting side of it, trying to believe in something that's completely uncertain, it's honestly a crazy amount of fun.